samjoytotheworld

Mahal kita.

Pero sa ngayon, hangga't hindi ko pa kayang sabihin sayo, hahayaan ko na lamang munang ibulong ito ng puso ko.

Hahayaan ko na lang munang maitago ito sa pagitan ng mga salitang inaawit ko para sayo.

Hahayaan ko na lang munang makiindayog muna ito sa mga melodiya ng duetong sabay nating binubuo.

Hahayaan ko na munang sabihin ng mga mata ko ang mga salitang hindi kayang mamutawi ng mga labi ko.

Hahayaan ko munang maramdaman mo ang katotohanan ng pag-ibig ko sa bawat pagbaluktot at sinkrunadong paggalaw ng ating mga bisig sa simponiyang isinisigaw ng ating mga puso.

Pero sa ngayon, hangga't hindi ko pa nasasabi sayo, hayaan nating pagyamanin ng panahon at ng mga binubuong karanasan at ala-ala ang pag-ibig natin sa isa't-isa.

Sana madama mo, hindi ko man sabihin, na minamahal kita.

Unti-unti ay natututo akong muli.

Unti-unti ay muling gumagalaw at sumusunod ang aking mga paa sa tugtog at indayog ng mga awiting pag-ibig.

Muli, natututo akong sumayaw nang may kasama.

Muli, nais kong pumikit habang nakahawak sa kamay ng taong alam kong hindi ako bibitiwan at iiwanan, tumigil man ang musika.

Dahan-dahan ay muli kong nararamdaman ang pagnanais kong magtampisaw sa ulan habang ang taong mahal ko ay aking hagkan-hagkan.

Dahan-dahan ay muli kong natututunan ang magbukas ng puso, at magpatuloy ng pag-ibig dito.

Ngayon, nais kong ipasaalang-alang muli ang yapak ng aking mga paa sa nakahawak sa aking mga kamay habang sumasayaw.

Ngayon, natututo akong magmahal muli.

Tara, ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata.

Sabay nating alalahanin ang mga sandali noong tayo'y magkasama pa. Ang mga haplos sa isa’t-isang hindi maitago ng mga kurtinang tumatakip sa bintana ng kuwartong pilit na sinisinagan ng araw. Ang duetong puno ng melodiya ng ating pagmamahal sa isang lihim na tayo lamang ang nakakaalam ng liriko.

Halika, sabay nating balikan ang mga ala-alang matatanaw lamang ng ating mga isipan sa nakaraan. Na kahit ni-isang litrato'y hindi kayang ipinta ang mga nadarama ng dalawang pusong umiibig, ngunit hindi pinahintulutan ng daigdig. Ang mga kulay na ating ibinuhos at pinaghalo sa katawan ng bawat isa, nang sa gayo'y hindi man nakikita sa mata ng iba, ay dama sa balat ang mga iniwang marka.

Huwag mong limutin.

At sana'y lagi mong isipin na kahit ika'y malayo na, kailanma'y hindi mawawala sa aking isipan ang pagdampi ng iyong mga labi sa mga sikreto kong buong puso mong hinagkan.

Kahit na alam kong ang mga pangarap natin para sa isa’t-isa'y hanggang pangarap na lamang.

She always had a heart Ready to burn for passion; All it needed was a spark, An alpha, an inception

The first time that you kissed her You set her heart ablaze; Inside of her something had stirred — Something she could not quite place

She saw fire And it attracted her like no other; So, she ran after The burning glow of never

It kindled her interest — Your magnificent incandescence; And now what started as a flash of flare Has become a conflagration

She cannot put all the blame on you, Because everyone taught her not to play with fire; And the burn that she is in now Is the price she pays for letting you touch her soul somehow

Thank you, For that wonderful goodbye; Though I don’t want to call it a farewell, Because I’m not ready to end this dance for real.

Let’s make every moment last, Engrave this memory in our hearts; A wonderful afternoon I won’t forget, Even after thousands of sunsets.

I long for your touch every night, And your voice whispering goodnight. When I close my eyes, you’re there, Listening to the cry of my heart:

Touch me, Adore me, And love me openly, When we’re alone behind closed doors.

Look at me, Smile at me, And love me secretly, When we’re not in our own little world.

Remember me, Long for me, And don’t forget me, When you’re not beside me.

Why can’t I forget you? Will you tell me that you can’t forget about me, too?

I wish that our romance Would be more than what we have now — More than just a couple of stolen glance And whispered declarations without vows.

Kung pwede lang Gigisingin kita sa mga halik ko Sa bawat umagang Magkatabi tayo

Kung pwede lang Ang boses ko ang huling maririnig mo Sa bawat gabing Matutulog na tayo

Kung pwede lang Ako ang hahawak ng kamay mo Sa bawat pagkakataong Masama ang pakiramdam mo

Bakit ba ang sungit ng tadhana At lahat ng mga panahong kasama ka Ay waring mga sandaling Mabilis naglalaho sa dilim

Bakit ba hindi tayo pinagtagpo Ng oras at taon Sa tamang panahon At tamang pagkakataon

Sa aking pagmamasid Sa bughaw na langit Ngiti mong ligaya ang hatid Ang laging sumasagi sa aking isip.

Sa ating pamamaalam sa isa’t-isa, Hayaan mo ako na alalahanin ka Na parang isang bituing nagniningning Sa gitna ng karimlan ng gabing malalim.

Maglaro tayo ng tagu-taguan - Tagu-taguan ng nararamdamang katakutan; Katakutan sa maaring dal'hin ng kinabukasan Paglubog ng araw at oras na kailangan mo na akong iwanan.

Magkunwari tayo Na tayo lang ang tao sa mundo. Tunay na nagmamahalan At walang humahadlang.

Kunwari, minahal mo ako Nang higit sa pagmamahal ko sayo; Kunwari, hindi mo kaya na mawala ako sayo - Na mawala ako sa piling mo.

Kunwari, minahal mo ako Nang higit pa sa pagmamahal mo sa kanya; Kunwari ako ang pipiliin mo, Kung papipiliin ka sa aming dalawa.

Kunwari, sa tuwing kasama mo siya Ay maaalala mo ako, At ang lahat ng kasiyahang naidulot sa iyo Ng mga sandaling pinahintulutan mong ipadama ko ang pag-ibig kong ito.

Kunwari, pagkatapos ng lahat Ay hindi ito mag-iiwan ng sugat Sa puso kong handang masaktan, Alang-alang sa pag-ibig na walang patutunguhan.

Please remember All those long phone calls that we had In the cold dark night As your voice provided warmth to my bones Even if you were miles away Even if your heart belonged to someone

I knew it from the start Knew that even if I give my heart - my everything I knew that you could never give what I wanted What i needed Because your heart belongs to her

Still I gave you my love And everything that I could offer Because you’re my first love And you’re the only one who could make me smile Even if I’m mad at you

You made me experience Amazing things Amazing feelings That I know I can never share with anyone else For this relationship will remain a secret forever At least in a sense that no one would ever know That we are more than what we show

Because what we have - had Will not change anything with her Because you love her In a way that you will and can never do with me

As I have written on my previous post, I believe that being joyful is not limited to being in a state of total euphoria, but the real joy is found upon the hope of knowing that in every circumstance that we face, we will arise as victors.

So, there would be probably a lot of #hugotposts in this blog as a way of showing that these hugot moments that we experience are not to be taken lightly, but instead, should be seen as real struggles that might be hard to face, but not impossible to overcome.

joy \ˈjȯi\ noun : a feeling of great happiness : a source or cause of great happiness : something or someone that gives joy to someone : success in doing, finding, or getting something*

Some people say that my name - Samantha Joy - suits me very well, for I have this predominant characteristic of being sanguine. Some would even call me SamJoy (this started with my choir mates at the university because I have another choir mate named Sam, so they needed to find a way to address me differently), even though I hated it so much. My friends would tease me endlessly because they know how irritated I would get whenever they would (TRY to) shout it out loud just to call me.

Now, you’re probably wondering why I used this as my URL considering my repugnance to this name.

I, for one, believe that being joyful is not only found in the state of being happy, but can be found in times of sadness as well. Being joyful is being successful in finding peace within yourself, knowing that even through the hardest and darkest times of your life, one could find contentment in freely expressing the emotions that is raging inside of you.

I have learned that whenever I feel down, one way that would surely help me to feel better is to be an encouragement to others. Hence, I want to be a channel of joy - to bring some joy to the world - by sharing snippets of my mind and my heart as I blog about things that I have learned and experienced in the seventeen years of my existence.