قَالَ رَبِّ انصُرْنِي عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْمُفْسِدِينَ

Lot prayed, “My Lord! Help me against the people of corruption.”

Transliteration:

I have 23 unread books in my physical tbr.Maybe a couple more. The number is even bigger for the books I’ve not finished. Some I picked up while I was bored , most I bought very intentionally but never got around reading . Some of them I read every once in a while. A chapter or a page here and there. It’s been months since I’ve finished a book.I really want to.

This morning I found myself looking for facemasks then switching my search to sunscreens and then I remembered to restock the shampoo and oh also how about try this new cleanser. Ended up adding everything to the cart.I realised it was pointless.

I sat on my study desk after a good 15 min session my mind is flooded with everything I need to get done tomorrow and the following week and two months that are yet to come.I felt anxiety rush into my soul.

And then I am reminded of this one friend who isn’t in contact anymore. And then a series of people. I tried shutting those voices.

While listening to this podcast I noted another book recommendation to my ever piling list. I had this urge to just add it in the cart. It wasn’t like my life depended on it.

Recently,a friend of mine gave me a key chain. I kept the packaging safe. In the box I’ve kept all the artefact of my past. Which honestly feels like past life on some days and a tale of yesterday on other days. I fear if one day that’s all I’ll have of them. Which isn’t completely irrational

Imagine . The vastness of this universe and then zoom in to this huge galaxy of ours which is again a fraction of a fraction of this vastness. Now zoom into our solar system that’s one of the millions existing amongst discovered and undiscovered. Zoom a little more to our planet Earth. And then zoom again - there’s this city and in this city there’s this house and in this house is a person . Allah knows that person . Allah cares enough for that person so much so that even his tiniest whispered dua reaches Him swt and He makes sure to answer it in ways that is again the absolute best for this person. Allah listens to this person when the world fails them. Allah calls them back when they get surrounded and pulled away. Allah is generous and caring and loving enoughhhh to do all that and more . For someone who’s such a small part of this massive universes.