holy , holy , holy .

SILIAS  WASN’T  WHAT  ANYONE  WOULD  CALL  ‘A  PEOPLE  PERSON’.  in  fact,  he  made  it  a  regular  goal  to  avoid  people  as  much  as  possible.  it  wasn’t  that  he  was  trying  to  be  mean  or  difficult  to  get  on  with,  but  it  took  a  lot  out  of  him  to  have  to  deal  with  people  in  almost  any  capacity.  there  were  very  few  people  that  silias  would  ever  search  out  to  spend  time  with.  the  list  was  so  few  that  it  amounted  to  one.  arlie  was  the  one  exception.  ilyas  as  others  called  him  was  also  quiet  and  a  bit  isolated  in  his  own  way,  but  there  was  something  about  him  that  made  silias  actually  want  to  hang  out  with  him.  

that  was  the  extract  reason  he  was  wandering  through  the  halls  of  the  little  palace  for  nearly  an  hour  when  he  stopped  the  familiar  head  of  raven  hair,  “where  have  you  been?  i’ve  looked  everywhere.”  he  says  when  he  FINALLY  REACHED  ARLIE’S  SIDE.

arlie   had   only   been   in   os   alta   for   less   than   a   year.      in   that   time,   he'd   explored   practically   every   inch   of   the   little   palace,   and   as   much   of   the   grand   palace   as   he   could.      at   some   point,   the   squaller   had   made   his   way   off   the   grounds   and   into   the   capitol.      ilyas   had   no   off-switch.      the   young   grisha   rarely   slept,   which   left   him   even   more   time   to   explore.      he   wasn't   used   to   the   rigorous   structure   and   training   that   came   with   being   a   grisha   in   the   second   army.      his   mother   had   taken   a   lighter   hand   with   him,   her   love   had   blinded   her.      a   squaller   herself,   taalia   had   grown   up   in   ravka.      she'd   never   intended   for   her   son   to   be   apart   of   the   grisha   army,   but   things   change   when   people   die.      

ilyas   was   notoriously   good   about   not   getting   caught   sneaking   off.      it   helped   that   no   one   was   particularly   interested   in   the   peculiar   boy   they'd   brought   in   on   a   rescue   mission   from   novyi   zem.      he   was   powerful,   but   his   potential   was   untapped.      he   couldn't   access   his   own   abilities   in   the   way   others   his   age   could,   and   it   left   the   boy   frustrated   and   outcasted.      well,   save   for   silias.      his   first,   and   only,   friend.      ilyas   isn't   even   entirely   sure   how   he'd   managed   to   acquire   the   grumpy   corporalki.      

“ you’re mine. you hear me? ”

“ were you with him/her? ” 

“ why is she/he calling you? ”

“ do they know we’re together? ”

“ were you with him/her? ”

“ i don’t want you seeing them anymore ”

“ did she/he make a pass at you? ”

“ i know you were with her/him ”

“ you belong to me ”

“ i can’t believe you were with her/him ”

“ i don’t like the way he’s/she’s looking at you ”

“im NOT jealous ”

“ i thought you only had eyes for me ”

“ he/she can’t make you feel the way i make you feel ”

“ you’re too good for her/him  ”

“is there someone else?”

“ you were flirting with them ”

“ they were flirting with you ”

“ i don’t want you talking to them again ”

“ i can’t stop picturing you with him/her ”

“ the thought of you with him/her makes me sick ”

contains spoilers.   trigger warnings:   mentions of guns, death, pain, wounds

“  get up. you’re okay.  ”

“  your pain only makes you stronger.  ”

“  i don’t wanna go.  ”

“  you remember when i told you that one day we would have that big adventure? well, today’s the day.  ”

“  [  insert name  ], you’ve got blood on you.  ”

“  please, please, i beg you. no more undercover work.  ”

“  never let them take your heart.  ”

“  you’re gonna need to hand me that gun.  ”

“  you’re embarrassing yourself. it looks desperate.  ”

“  i wouldn’t worry about me.  ”

“  you’re in my bed.  ”

“  [ …] got passports, entry visas, a couple of local drivers licenses… mix and match. you should be able to stretch it to twenty or so identities.  ”

“  i’m actually better on my own.  ”

“  you can tell me, you know. that’s the way the whole friends thing works.  ”

“  i know you’re out there.  ”

“  so, we gonna talk like grown ups?  ”

“  put it down before i make you.  ”

“  i’m not here trying to be your friend, but you need to tell me what that is.  ”

“  i don’t wanna be here. i’m on the run. you could’ve gotten me killed.  ”

“  you don’t actually believe that, do you?  ”

“  if you’re so sure, then, tell me what happened.  ”

“  don’t move. you’re hurt. let me help you.  ”

“  do you believe me now?  ”

“ so, you want me to chase him down and un-steal it?  ”

“  you got a plan or shall i just stay duck-and-cover?  ”

“  that’s a shit plan.  ”

“  great plan. i love the part where i almost bled to death.  ”

“  the truth rarely makes sense when you omit key details.  ”

“  where did you think i was all this time?  ”

“  i was trying to actually do something good.  ”

“  what is your story?  ”

“  i never let myself be alone long enough to think about it.  ”

“  you’re going to give me some big hero speech, i can feel it.  ”

“  that sounds like a shitload of work.  ”

“  the point is, i’ve never had control over my own life before, and now i do.  ”

“  i like your vest.  ”

“  i thought you were supposed to be the best. like a real pro.  ”

“  i take exception to impugning my professionalism.  ”

“  you are sensitive.  ”

“  you’re a very annoying individual.  ”

“  are you calling me a liar,  [  insert name  ],  huh?  ”

“  just don’t make a scene.  ”

“  we’re both doing a really good job.  ”

“  this would be a cool way to die.  ”

“  you don’t have to get so clinical and nasty.  ”

“  it means so much to me that you came back for me.  ”

“ whoa, look at you, huh. all business.  ”

“  you cannot kill a fox that swift.  ”

“  i swear, if i hear one more word from him, i will kick him in the face.  ”

“  let’s have a drink.  ”

“  hey, no funny business.  ”

“  you’re just as beautiful and as supple as the day they staged our marriage.  ”

“  please don’t do that.  ”

“  finding  [  insert name  ]  is not a fantasy. it’s unfinished business.  ”

“  okay, you’ve made your point. that’s enough.  ”

“  now you go back, back home where it’s safe.  ”

“  shut up! you are an idiot.  ”

“  in my heart, i am simple man.  ”

“  that wasn’t real. who cares?  ”

“  don’t say that. please, don’t say that. it was real. it was real to me.  ”

“  the best part of my life was fake.  ”

“  and those agents you chemically subjugated around the globe? that was me.  ”

“  i came in here because i didn’t want to talk.  ”

“  i wish i could believe that you cared.  ”

“  i’ve always found it best not to look into the past.  ”

“  those walls are all i know.  ”

“  i was never given a choice.  ”

“  tell me, how did you keep your heart?  ”

“  what you taught me kept me alive.  ”

“  there is a reason why i’m telling you this, okay? trust me.  ”

“  you have done nothing but tell me how bored you were. i was the chore, the job you didn’t want to do. to me? to me, you were everything.  ”

“  my god. look at you.  ”

“  this is a much less cool way to die.  ”

“  now, now. don’t go breaking my new toy.  ”

“  i need you to know that i’m sorry.  ”

“  you know, i thought i was being very brave. possibly the bravest. but i wasn’t being brave. i was coward.  ”

“  you couldn’t have told me sooner?  ”

“  don’t throw a fit.  ”

“  you are aware that you’re still a global fugitive, yes?  ”

“  is this your haunted past?  ”

“  i want to break something.  ”

“  so, what now? you’re gonna fold me into your pathetic little puppeteer act?  ”

“  when was the last time that you had a conversation with somebody that wasn’t forced to talk to you?  ”

“  you didn’t fight in the shadows. you hid in the dark.  ”

“  real power comes from undetectable influence.  ”

“  if i don’t tell you when to stop, then how will you know when to shut up?  ”

“  come on. think i can’t take a punch?  ”

“  you seem desperate to impress me.  ”

“  oh, you find this amusing?  ”

“  i don’t wanna hurt you. you don’t wanna hurt me.  ”

“  that looks like it hurts. okay. i take out on three. ready?  ”

“  you get to make your own choices now.  ”

“  we gotta get out of here.  ”

“  i know you’re still in there and i’m not gonna leave you, okay?  ”

“  this was fun!  ”

“  i should’ve come back for you.  ”

“  you don’t have to say that.  ”

“  you got something to say?  ”

“  we can’t split up! you’re so pigheaded.  ”

“  okay, well, if you’re leaving, i guess you should take this. i know how much you like it.  ”

“  hey, you take care of yourself, okay?  ”

“  see what i can get you with a bit of time and money?  ”

“  go on, say it. i wanna hear it. it would really be good for me to hear it. really.  ”

“doing  things  you  don’t  want  to  do  is  how  you  make  a  relationship  work.”

“ninety  percent  of  the  world’s  problems  are  caused  by  tiny  words  that  come  in  pairs.”

“thank  god  i’m  great  at  sex.”

“did  the  two  of  us  finish  an  entire  gallon  of  box  wine  the  other  night?”

“great  things  don’t  happen  in  tiny  little  increments.”

“if  god  didn’t  want  us  putting  things  up  our  ass  he  would  have  given  the  rectum  a  gag  reflex.”

“you’re  my  best  friend  and  the  best  fuck  i  ever  had.”

“why  was  the  broom  late  for  the  meeting?  it  overswept.”

“i  was  raised  by  a  con  artist,  so  i  know  one  when  i  see  one.”

“i  just  thought  squirting  was  a  myth,  like  unicorns  or  moderate  republicans.”

“this  is  not  a  dictatorship.  this  is  america.  give  me  liberty  or  give  me  meth.”

“your  dad  made  me  follow  you  up.  gave  me  a  condom.”

“you  can’t  drink  them  away.  it  won’t  work.”

“i  believe  the  answer  to  that  question,  like  the  answer  to  most  questions,  is  fuck  you!”

“sometimes  we  get  so  wrapped  up  in  getting  what  we  want  that  we  forget  to  ask  ourselves  why  we  wanted  it  in  the  first  place.”

“don’t  worry  we’ll  get  dick  in  you  as  soon  as  we  can.”

“love  is  not  supposed  to  be  cute.”

“love  is  supposed  to  be  raw  and  destructive.”

“if  this  turns  out  to  be  a  big  mistake,  then  let’s  make  it  the  most  fun  big  fucking  mistake  we’ve  ever  made.”

“i  will  make  this  kitchen  my  bitch.”

“a  shrink  at  school  says  i’m  one  of  god’s  mistakes.”

“i’d  be  crying  right  now  if  i  wasn’t  so  high.”

“you  should  never  apologize  for  being  you.”

“if  how  we  turn  out  is  all  about  how  our  mother  is,  then  i’m  pretty  screwed,  right?”

“i  know  who  i  love  and  i  know  what  i  want,  even  if  you  don’t.”

“you  make  me  want  to  enjoy  my  life  again.”

“the  bat  is  for  killing,  not  playing.”

“welcome  to  the  predictable  consequences  of  using  crystal  meth.”

“i  trust  you.  that’s  bigger  to  me  than  'i  love  you’.”

“nobody  is  too  busy.  it’s  just  a  matter  of  priorities.”

“i  wanna  tell  you  something,  but  i  don’t  really  wanna  talk  about  it  because  i’m  not  sure  how  i  feel  about  it,  and  i  don’t  wanna  be  told  how  to  feel.”

“the  first  rule  you  learn  in  this  house  —  you  hide  the  goddamn  money.”

“stop  behaving  like  the  world  is  out  to  get  you  when  it  is  so  clearly  dropping  gifts  at  your  feet.”

“it’s  a  fucking  snickers  bar!”

“you  know  what?  nothing’s  ever  your  problem.  for  once,  you  know,  make  something  your  problem.”

“  i’m not going anywhere.  ” “  you make me feel safe.  ”   “  i think i might be in love with you.  ” “  i just like seeing you happy.  ” “  just let me take care of you.  ” “  you’re my family.  ” “  i can stay, if you want.  ” “  you make me feel alive.  ” “  you’re captivating.  ” “  i want you to know i’ll always be here for you. whatever you need.  ” “  you don’t have to tell me anything, we can just sit here.  ” “  i trust you. more than anyone else.  ” “  you have a beautiful soul.  ” “  i feel like i could watch you all day. everything you do has a touch of magic to it.  ” “  i hope i see you in my dreams.  ” “  do you trust me?  ” “  you don’t ever have to pretend. not with me. not ever.  ” “  i love you, every part of you. even the parts you don’t like.  ” “  you make everything a little easier.  ” “  will you just…hold me? please.  ” “  just tell me everything’s gonna be okay.  ” “  you’re enough. you’re more than enough.  ” “  you have my heart in your hands. be gentle with it.  ” “  i wanna be the one you go to. the first one you tell when there’s something good. the shoulder to cry on when it’s bad. and every mundane thing in between. i want to share it all with you.  ” “  i have faith in you.  ” “  i’ve never met anyone quite like you.  ” “  knowing you is like…coming home. like i’ve finally found something that’s been missing all this time.  ” “  every hard thing in my life feels worth it. it all led me to you.  ” “  i feel like i could endure anything as long as i have you to come home to.  ” “  i can tell something’s bothering you.  ” “  what can i do to help?  ” “  come on. let’s get out of here.  ” “  i’m taking you somewhere special.  ” “  where are you taking me?  ” “  i don’t need grand gestures or declarations of love. i just need you. all of you.  ” “  you make me feel like i’m worthy.  ” “  you deserve good things.  ” “  i want to be your home.  ” “  loving you is like something holy.  ” “  i made you something.  ” “  come back to bed.  ” “  stay the night with me.  ” “  are you sure you’re okay?  ” “   you wanna talk about it?  ” “  did you wanna tell me something?  ”  “  you’ll always have me.  ” “  i’m proud of you.  ”   “  i need you.  ” “  thank you. for always being there for me.  ” “  don’t ever let anyone make you doubt your worth.  ” “  i’m not leaving you. not ever.  ”   “  you have kind eyes.  ”   “  sleep, my love. i’ll keep the nightmares away.  ”   “  there’s so much light in you.  ” “  i want you here.  ”  

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