Silver's Sad Blog

✮ always carries tissues and ends up mothering the whole friend group

✮ has a playlist for everything (rainy mornings, making pasta, folding laundry)

✮ says “bless you” to sneezes on TV

✮ talks to plants like they’re roommates

✮ gets excited over new stationery like it’s treasure

✮ keeps their tea/coffee at the “perfect sip” temperature and brags about it

✮ collects postcards but never mails them

✮ always has candy in their bag “just in case”

✮ buys socks with silly patterns and treats them like rare finds

✮ hums while doing chores without realizing

✮ insists on stopping to pet every cat, even the ones that clearly don’t want it

✮ folds receipts into tiny squares and hides them in random pockets

✮ bakes way too much and then panics, handing leftovers to everyone they know

✮ gets emotional over sunsets like it’s the first one they’ve ever seen

✮ has one old stuffed animal they cannot sleep without

✮ keeps saying “one more chapter” and suddenly it’s 3 a.m.

✮ hoards jars for “future use” but never actually uses them

✮ sends friends pictures of clouds because “this one looks like a dragon”

I'm not busy.

I'm not tired.

My plate isn't full.

I'm not swamped with work.

I don't have a cold or flu.

I'm not laying awake at night. (But I am sleepy throughout the day.)

Nothing tragic or traumatic has happened.

I nor anyone I know or work with is going through anything.

You didn't do or say anything wrong.

But I'm not sad, either. I'm not homesick or in mourning. I'm not angry at anyone or anything.

Nothing is wrong...

I just woke up and suddenly being alive sucked, eating became a dumb idea and nothing mattered. I canceled training for the next two weeks, making up a lie, saying I'd be out of town on business.

And I have no other explanation for that, but I don't [can't] say anything because the word "depression" might as well be "itchy" to some people.

"Here, have a mango. You like mangos, right? This should cheer you up!" But I'm not sad.

"Just think happy things!" But I'm not sad.

"Did something happen? You know you can always talk to me!" About what? I'm not sad.

It'll go away just as it came: on its own.

These are your tasks for the day:

- go to work

- prepare your meals (can be supplemented by ready-made food, comes with negative debuff of Expense)

- do your laundry

- wash your dishes

- do your school work

You may only do these tasks at 0.5 capacity. Some tasks can be canceled for more capacity given to other tasks.

Unavailable tasks:

- clean bathroom

- most hobbies

- vacuuming (has been unavailable for several months)

- grocery shopping

- homework (assignment due in five days)

- talk to friends