nehaaaa

i made this acc when I was 15. I'll be 20 in 11 days 😭.

How to get over a break up when you have to see them every day hanging out with your "enemies" and "you dont have to worry about hers"

Y'all. I found him saving "sexy" girls photos again. Just a month back, around my birthday, i cried so so much to him about the same. In september, i cried about the same thing. How shameless am i? Jan 10 would be our 1 year anniversary but i cannot envision a future with him. He is the only friend i have in this hellhole of a college. I do not know what to do. I want to leave him so badly but i am afraid of being alone. Once again, I have lost connection with another friend. I cannot bear this anymore. I thought i found someone who would be a constant in my life but he has disappointed me in numerous ways. This is the final nail in the coffin. But i am afraid that i will not break up with him because i am a coward. I really thought i found someone. Feels like life has played a joke on me again. I think our tragedy is that we were never supposed to date. I curse him for "catching feelings". I hope the universe will give me strength and courage. I am so afraid of being alone. I feel like i have no one again. How many more lessons will life teach me? I plan to break up with him after jan 1. but before the anniversary. I want to hate him but he was a great friend. I love him but i am not in love with him. Maybe that is a saving grace. Wish me luck. I hope i wont chicken out again. I do not see a future with him.

I miss interacting with people. I miss being active in fandoms. I miss stanning people. I miss myself. I was miserable but i felt free when i was here.

Damn i really used to chat with ANYBODYY. I honestly miss that about myself. As dangerous as it is. My bf has changed me. He sees it as a form of disloyalty. I understand where he is coming from but damn i have really lost myself.

I am 19 now. This month!

I started dating someone. My best friend (how long should people be friends to be considered best friends?). He liked me first but now i am being treated like a nuisance and it is bringing out the worst in me. Being in a secret relationship is a boon and a curse because i do not have people prying into my business but at the same time i cannot speak about this relationship with anyone and this relationship has really soured. Do not date your best friend if you are loner like me who has no close friends. I am afraid that i am going to lose a boyfriend and a bestfriend. sigh.

I am in 2nd year of college. I made this account in my 10th or something. Very important piece of my history.

When life gets so bad that i come back to tumblr.

aww man I kind of miss this place 🌷