Rooozaf

it’s so sad when you outgrow certain people, places, and times in your life and you really miss them but you also know you’re not that person anymore and even if u went back it just wouldn’t be the same so all u can do is keep moving forward and cherish the memories

I guess im waiting for love that feels as comfortable as when im alone

one day I woke up and realised all the waiting and yearning was actually me living my life and it’s happening right now and it’s still good even if it’s not perfect and there is no moment when all your dreams get fulfilled and everything makes sense. like… this is it. this is life. you’ll waste away your youth waiting for some imagined future if you don’t love life for what it is now and make the most of it

I need to journal religiously I feel like I’m witnessing myself evolve in 30 different ways every day I need to keep up with me

hate how so much of adult friendship relies on updates, experiencing your life through pictures and tidbits. we had it good with childhood friends, could spend years and years basking in the same circumstance. now i just float through clouds of strangers, hungry for something solid and warm. yes i carry your heart within mine, yes i see the world through your eyes. but in that very moment i still feel alone, still know it's poor substitute for same room, twin smiles.

i want you soooo bad (a carefree and joyful outlook towards life)

honestly will never forget this older client we had who told me how her life had gotten so much better with time and age and asked how old I was and when I told her I was 28, she said I was just a baby and reassured me I had so much time ahead of me and how much better it'll get as I grow into my life. There was such an indescribable amount of love and hope in that single interaction I think I'll hold it with me forever.

i want to be a sweet and friendly girl but there’s all this anxiety. and the horrors

i’ve decided to carry some undying hope with me every day. as a treat

being an adult is always like i have to go to the store i have to go to the store i have to go to the store

i hope you find someone that matches your capacity to love

i need to cut my hair i need to evolve i need to see a good thing when it’s in front of me i need to be respectful i need to listen i need to respond i need to move on

I just want to be loved without asking for it

when susan sontag wrote “I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it”