You're meant to live on sugar

Can I hear your thoughts about this in more detail?

Hey there. Absolutely, thanks for asking 😊

It’s such a loaded exchange to me because the weight isn’t in the words, it’s in everything unsaid. Calling each other Mr. Dingle and Mr. Sugden pulls in their entire history condensed into two lines.

It's the memory of a wedding, of hospital vows, of a dive into a lake, of a desperate kiss in a layby, of a million stolen glances and brutal, vicious arguments. It’s Seb and Liv. It’s how they break each other down only to build each other up again. They’re each other’s greatest love and greatest tragedy.

And then there’s the difference between “goodbye” and “see you later”.

Goodbye has some finality to it. it’s Robert trying to make the ending stick, even though it’s breaking him to do it. But Aaron won’t have it. He won’t say goodbye, he can’t say goodbye so he goes with, ‘see you later’ which flips the script to the future.

That’s why I think that scene was showing how it can never really be over. You can’t un-make a husband or erase a life you’ve lived together. At best they can pretend to let go, but the bond is too big to actually say goodbye to — and they both know it.

The weight of those names. The unspoken “this can never really be over” hanging in the air.

They’re NOT ex-husbands. They’re just husbands on pause.

Soon.

also got me thinking about how literally not once has Aaron convincingly said “oh i don’t want Robert because i’m happily in love with my husband John 🥰” or “i’ve moved on, i don’t want him anymore 🙂” like… no???

instead his ENTIRE excuse has been: we can’t be around each other bc we both know what would happen and he doesn’t mean just sex, he means that deep intimacy coupled with the whole soulmate thing.

and of course it’s dreadful that Robert has PTSD and of course it has to be Aaron to try and help him through it… but it’s just launching straight into an affair is also so absolutely recklessly robron, I could scream. And we all knew it. Robert knew it. Aaron knew it. The sheep in the background knew it.

And now, the angst is about to begin in all its messy codependence.

letsss go

This whole work thing is seriously getting in the bloody way 🤨

Anyway - am I screaming inside? Absofuckinglutely.

Well that sucks.

Taking a break though.

Sounds like the door is open for his return.

No disappearing in a fireball or over a cliff.

Small mercies.