Day 500 of me being obsessed with Immortal Desires

Ripley’s eyes lit up when Gabriela entered the coffee shop, the bell above the door cheerfully announcing her presence. She hoped she wouldn’t be able to tell she’d been bawling her eyes out just about an hour ago. Her morning had been the worst. 

Saturdays used to be her favourite day at work, sure it was busy, sure she could be sleeping in, but she loved working with Mo and Danny. Or rather, she used to. Danny hadn’t survived the night the Creator had attacked and unlike her, he didn’t get a second chance at life. He was gone and never coming back and his absence was so damn loud. 

Gabriela appeared to her like a bright sun breaking through the clouds after a somber gray day and for the first time in hours Ripley didn’t have to force her smile. She wasn’t sure if the fluttery feeling in her stomach was the baby—still so small it was easy to miss whenever they moved—or butterflies because Gabriela looked so pretty in that dress and she was so excited to wrap her in her arms once her shift was over.

“Hi gorgeous!” She could see Nick startle in the corner of her eye. He had to relax, she wouldn’t flirt with customers. Well, okay, she was flirting with a customer right now, but this customer was the other mom of the baby she was currently cooking up, she wasn’t just a customer. 

Though it probably didn’t help that sometimes they loved to roleplay as strangers for shits and giggles when Gabbie stopped by at work.

“What can I get started for you?”

“One cappuccino, please!” Gabriela tucked a lock of hair behind her ear.

“Coming right up!” It amazed her how much her presence had lifted her mood. She hummed as she worked on her order.

After finishing she wrote ‘Gambie’ on the cup, and doodled a little deer next to it before setting it down on the counter. Gabriela giggled when she saw it. “Cute.”

“Anything else?”

“Yes, please!” Gabbie’s eyes flit to the pastry display. “What would you recommend?”

Ripley smiled, knowing she was really just asking about what she’d like to have after her shift.

“l think you— um, you look like someone who’d really enjoy the chocolate cake!” Oh Nick was probably so weirded out right now. “But I’ve personally really been enjoying the red velvet cupcakes. Ooh, or the lemon cupcakes…” She had to reel herself in a little, before she’d just end up listing everything inside the display. “Well honestly you can just surprise m— yourself.”

Amused, Gabriela put her elbows on the counter and leaned forward. “Well, then… could I get two slices of chocolate cake, one red velvet cupcake, one lemon cupcake aaand…” She glanced at all the cookies and pastries inside the display again. “And one of those oreo cupcakes, please?”

Ripley’s eyes went big. “Wow, that’s a lot, are you sure?” Well she hoped she was sure, because she already looked forward to eating all of it after work. But still, that was over fifteen dollars spent on baked goods. She wasn’t even halfway through her pregnancy and had already been watching her spending, everything felt expensive or unnecessary now.

Behind her she could hear Nick gasp. Mo, who was helping him with restocking, whispered, “it’s fine dude, that’s her girlfriend. And she’s one of us.” The Creator attack had forced Nick out of a ten year slumber and he was obviously still very out of the loop. 

Ripley got a warm feeling in her chest at the word ‘girlfriend’. Sure, she’d been avoiding using the word herself. But just knowing other people saw them like that anyway… Well, it didn’t bother her at all.

Gabriela nodded. “Yeah, don’t worry about it! I’ll take it to go.”

“Alright!”  

As Ripley packed her order, a group of teenagers entered the shop. Gabriela sat down at one of the seats by the window, sipping her coffee as Ripley did her thing for the final fifteen minutes of her shift, making silly faces at each other whenever they made eye contact.

They waved her co-workers goodbye as they exited the coffee shop. Ripley could smell the pastries inside Gabbie's bag and had to do her best not to start drooling. 

Gabriela entwined her fingers with hers. “I thought I’d surprise you and pick you up. How was your day? How do you feel?”

“Oh. Um, it sucked, honestly, but it’s whatever really. Like no one yelled at me or whatever, I’m just being emo! You already cheered me up a lot by showing up!” She pressed a quick kiss on top of Gabbie’s head and gave her hand a squeeze. “Aside from that I feel pretty good, though!”

When Gabriela guided her around a different corner than usual a few minutes later, Ripley asked, “hey, I thought we were going to my place?”

With a cheeky glint in her eye, Gabriela looked up at her. “It’s a surprise! But I think it’ll cheer you up even more.”

As they passed the pizzeria, the post office and finally the jeweler, Ripley realised where she was taking her and came to an abrupt stop.

Gabriela worriedly looked behind her. “What’s wrong?”

Nervously, Ripley fiddled with the hem of her t-shirt and chewed her lip. “I— what if someone sees us?”

Gabriela chuckled. “Then what?” She extended her hand at her again and Ripley took it. “Are you planning to keep it secret the whole time?”

“No, but—”

Gently, she playfully poked Ripley’s stomach. “People will know soon enough anyway!” She started walking again, pulling Ripley along with her. “I thought we could get something for the baby together, just to celebrate now that we can, you know?”

Ripley liked the idea of that. Though a part of her felt like Cas should be there too. Or at least she wanted him to be there… But she knew he wasn’t ready for that yet. Not even close.

They politely greeted the lady behind the counter as they entered the baby store. She already felt her cheeks go warm, she’d walked around with this secret for a while, it felt wrong not actively hiding it. The past weeks she’d lingered in front of the window a few times, but she’d never dared to go inside. Especially while she was trying not to get attached.

But now she also felt herself getting excited as she looked around the store. It was still hard to believe they even got to do this together! The same excitement radiated from Gabriela. She felt so incredibly lucky with Gabbie’s reaction to the pregnancy, especially considering the baby obviously was Cas’ kid. Yet she didn’t seem to give a damn about that.

Gabriela came to a stop in front of a rack with baby clothes. As Ripley started browsing through all the little shirts and rompers—marvelling at how tiny they were—Gabriela leaned into her.

“Look!” Gabriela took a romper with a wolf embroidered onto it off the rack.

“Ohhh…” Ripley whispered as she tried her best not to open up the waterworks again today. 

Quickly she composed herself. “I dunno if I wanna get them anything wolf themed though. Um besides Uncle Thomas’ books, I guess. Don’t wanna be one of those parents that, like, force their interests onto their kids, you know?”

Gabriela chuckled and rolled her eyes at her. “Oh come on, it wouldn’t be like that…” She picked up some socks with cat paws on the soles. “How about this?”

Ripley groaned. “I don’t know how I’m gonna make it out of here without crying, that’s so cute...”

Everything was just so tiny, just like their baby would be once they were finally here. She could already so easily picture Gabriela with a little baby in her arms and she was so grateful she’d get to see her become a mother, knowing she’d do a great job.

Hand-in-hand they strolled through the store, looking at the blankets, the toys, the decorations. Until finally they reached a rack filled with stuffed toys. “I think I’d like to get one of these for the baby,” she said to Gabriela. 

Gabriela immediately picked up a little stuffed wolf. “This one right?” Playfully she waved its paw at Ripley. 

But Ripley shook her head. “Wolves can just stay my thing for now.”

Gabriela chuckled as she put it back in the rack. “I feel like you’ll probably get plenty of wolves on the baby shower anyway.”

Ripley frowned slightly. Baby shower? She wasn’t sure if she wanted to have a baby shower at all. Quickly she focussed on the plushies again, no sense in discussing that stuff right now anyway.

Together they searched through all the stuffed animals, feeling the fabric, testing how soft they were. Until finally they both reached for a little gray elephant at the same time. Immediately they looked at each other, a look of understanding passing between them.

This one.

She didn’t know why, but she just felt so drawn to it. It had a blue and white checkered tummy and pink, round cheeks. It wasn’t too big or too small. It didn’t look too girly or boyish.

3. Any kinks they clash on?

ooough thats a really good question....... i dont knowwww... i think most of they time the sex they had was pretty vanilla just bc they felt vanilla sex would be easier to hide from other people than kinkier stuff. and also i think Akio's a kind of roll-with-the-punches sort of dude, so even if Lu Ten were to bring up something he'd find odd he'd probably try it at least once. not that they had much time to explore their kinks together anyway #myfridgedwife

i can see Akio saying "that's weird. you're weird" about a kink Lu Ten brings up but then he'd do it anyway. bc how can he say no to his pretty pretty princess

2016 September 24 - saturday

I guess it’s just gonna become a thing that Cas picks me up every Saturday. Though I was surprised to even see him after last Tuesday. This was the first time I saw him since our fight, I haven’t seen him at school at all ever since. Today he just acted like nothing happened and I decided not to bring it up anymore (for now) either.

We went into the forest again, of course. I told Cas I wanted to know more about how vampire healing works. Since I’ve noticed that any injuries he gets, go away pretty fast. And he takes out his knife again and tells me to cut his arm, ‘cause why not just show me’. So I did. It was kinda cathartic, I can’t believe he just let me do that! But as I watched the cut close up almost immediately, I got why he was so nonchalant about it in the first place.. I didn’t know it’d be that fast! I don’t know but there’s just something about watching it heal up like that, that’s so cool to me.. Like real life special effects or something. I’m just so fascinated by how vampire bodies work.

I asked him if it hurt and he said it only stung a little bit. He compared it to what being scratched feels like for humans. So obviously they have way higher pain tolerance too! That makes sense I guess. I asked if I could keep going and he just let me.. I ended up carving bigger shapes and words (and my name! hehe) into his arm and stuff, I kinda had fun. Though it felt kinda gross too because all his brand scars are a bit raised and it just feels kinda weird cutting through them. The deeper I cut, the longer it took to heal. He seemed so proud of himself or something, like he always does when he shows me his abilities. There’s something endearing about I wonder what would happen if a vampire lost an arm or something. Or if their guts spilled out, like how would that heal? What if they lost a tooth or an eye?? Would it grow back? 

I really should note down all the questions I have, because I often just kinda forget in the moment. I did finally think to ask Cas if werewolves exist too though! He said he hadn’t ever heard anything about them but he wouldn’t really be surprised if they existed either. I asked what other supernaturals do exist for sure, but he had no idea. He didn’t seem to really care either.

Cas said that since he let me use him as a cutting board, I should do something for him too. And ok my heart sank like… Is he gonna ask to drink my blood??? (or even worse: just take it), because no way in hell will I let him do that. But then he said he just wanted to go for a swim in the lake again, but without giving me any blood this time. I thought he was gonna be a complete cunt about it or something now that I was a lot weaker than him and stuff.. But he was surprisingly gentle with me.. like I had fun. Like he still annoyed me by making waves at me and swimming too fast for me to keep up and stuff, but he didn’t hurt me. (I would’ve had more fun if he’d given me blood though, but I’m not gonna nag him about it..)

While we dried off I thought of asking him how often he killed humans. But I’m still not sure if I want to know. Am I just sticking my head in the sand? I don’t know, I can’t help but feel disappointed in myself, for just hanging out with someone like him as if he doesn’t regularly just end the lives of people with hopes and dreams and families.. And just like it’s nothing. Like I remember him saying he does this all the time. He seems uncomfortable talking about that night, but I think that’s more to protect his friend.. But also his reaction earlier this week makes me feel like he DOES have a bit of a conscience.. 

I skyped with Joy while trying to do my homework tonight and filled her in on everything. Minus the crazy supernatural stuff of course. But like about the job and stuff. And Cas and Gabriela. I managed to somehow talk Cas into sending me a picture of himself for Joy (where he sticks up his middle finger though, of course). And Joy thinks he’s cute. BAAAARF!! Okay he isn’t ugly at all I guess. If I was into guys he would probably be the kind of guy I’d be into, since he doesn’t look boring at least. And if he wasn’t a murdering cannibal and all that. Joy asked if she could have him, since I didn’t want him. I told her she could do muchhh better. Joy asked why we even hang out if I don’t like him. I don’t even know, I mean I can’t tell her about the blood and stuff, obviously.

2016 September 25 - sunday

I was so bored this morning, even though I could’ve worked on my homework I guess. But instead I decided to text Gabriela to ask if she’d like to go for a ride with me.

I picked her up around 1 pm and decided to surprise her and take her to Redport since I’m getting bored of just always staying in town. I thought maybe we could’ve stopped by the beach, now that it’s not that cold yet.

On the way we passed that castle too, so I asked her about it, of course. Or well, Gabriela corrected me and said it’s actually a small fort and NOT a castle. All she knows is that it belonged to the vampire hunters and this one was used as a retreat safe from vampires and to store weapons. There’s some more forts deeper into the forest, one of them is bigger and that one’s where they kept and tortured the vampires they captured so they wouldn’t be like right in town. I asked if we could go there sometime, but Gabriela told me it’d be a bad idea.

But then after we’d been driving for about 10 minutes, I looked over at her and she looked like she was about to keel over or something. She said she thought she got her period, so I immediately turned around, of course. Oh man, I thought my periods were bad.. like she got all flushed and sweaty and she was shivering really bad when just a few minutes before she was completely fine. I offered to come with her, but she really didn’t want me to, maybe she doesn’t like me seeing her like that? I mean I get it but I don’t think she’s weak for it or anything. 

After I dropped her off I stopped by that little convenience store next to the bookstore and got her some snacks, since she did that for me last time too. When I stopped by her house to drop them off, her aunt opened the door. Something about her was kinda weird like, I dunno I can’t put my finger on it, I mean, she seemed nice? But okay yeah, I don’t know. Like I get she’s not her mom, I’m just used to my friends’ parents showing more interest in who their kid’s hanging out with, I guess? Maybe they’re just not that close. I can tell she doesn’t ever really want to hang out at her place, I just don’t really wanna pry.. Is that bad? I dunno. I figured if she wants to talk, she’ll bring it up, right? 

2016 September 27 - tuesday

I had my first day at work! Obviously I still need to get the hang of things, but I think it helps that they don’t have like 5 million drinks on the menu, like at some other places. Most of the time it’s pretty quiet, but every now and then there’s a big surge of customers, which made me understand why the extra help was welcome. Another girl from school, Missy, was also working today. She’s in my English, Algebra and Spanish classes, though I didn’t really know her until today, though she stood out to me cuz she’s really pretty. She seemed really nice so far! She didn’t mind helping me when I needed it. And so did my boss, her name is Marian. She’s really nice in general! I dunno but for some reason I feel so relieved to finally have met a vampire who’s friendly. She kinda has the same vibes as Lisa, maybe that’s why I really want her to like me and I already liked her right away too.

I’m still super behind on my schoolwork, but Gabriela said she’d help me try and tackle most of it next Sunday! 

2016 September 29 - Thursday

Survived my second day at work! I’m still feeling very good about the job. Today I worked with Jill and Benjamin. 

Jill’s in my History, Economics and Algebra classes but I hadn’t really talked to her before besides borrowing a pen from her and telling her I liked some pins on her backpack. She was really nice though and she suggested walking to work together each Thursday since we both have fixed schedules. We chatted about music and movies we like and stuff, I could see us becoming friends!

Benjamin’s older than us (like in his 20s?) and I’m not sure what to think of him. Like he was nice and very patient with teaching me stuff (and a good teacher too) but he just gave me weird vibes, like it didn’t feel genuine or something I guess? I dunno maybe it’s just paranoia from the past weeks, like I’m definitely just always on my guard more. And like, people disliking me right off the bat isn’t necessarily a new thing to begin with.. He’s just like, very serious, maybe it’s just that? I don’t know.

2016 September 30 - Friday

Today was very uneventful, I kinda embarrassed myself in history class because I wasn’t paying attention and then got asked a question in front of everyone. But like if that’s the worst thing that happens on a day I’m honestly happy, with everything going on.

Me and Gabriela hung out at the park after school, the weather’s still so nice! I really love hanging out with her, no matter what we do.

2016 September 24 - saturday

I guess it’s just gonna become a thing that Cas picks me up every Saturday. Though I was surprised to even see him after last Tuesday. This was the first time I saw him since our fight, I haven’t seen him at school at all ever since. Today he just acted like nothing happened and I decided not to bring it up anymore (for now) either.

We went into the forest again, of course. I told Cas I wanted to know more about how vampire healing works. Since I’ve noticed that any injuries he gets, go away pretty fast. And he takes out his knife again and tells me to cut his arm, ‘cause why not just show me’. So I did. It was kinda cathartic, I can’t believe he just let me do that! But as I watched the cut close up almost immediately, I got why he was so nonchalant about it in the first place.. I didn’t know it’d be that fast! I don’t know but there’s just something about watching it heal up like that, that’s so cool to me.. Like real life special effects or something. I’m just so fascinated by how vampire bodies work.

I asked him if it hurt and he said it only stung a little bit. He compared it to what being scratched feels like for humans. So obviously they have way higher pain tolerance too! That makes sense I guess. I asked if I could keep going and he just let me.. I ended up carving bigger shapes and words (and my name! hehe) into his arm and stuff, I kinda had fun. Though it felt kinda gross too because all his brand scars are a bit raised and it just feels kinda weird cutting through them. The deeper I cut, the longer it took to heal. He seemed so proud of himself or something, like he always does when he shows me his abilities. There’s something endearing about I wonder what would happen if a vampire lost an arm or something. Or if their guts spilled out, like how would that heal? What if they lost a tooth or an eye?? Would it grow back? 

I really should note down all the questions I have, because I often just kinda forget in the moment. I did finally think to ask Cas if werewolves exist too though! He said he hadn’t ever heard anything about them but he wouldn’t really be surprised if they existed either. I asked what other supernaturals do exist for sure, but he had no idea. He didn’t seem to really care either.

Cas said that since he let me use him as a cutting board, I should do something for him too. And ok my heart sank like… Is he gonna ask to drink my blood??? (or even worse: just take it), because no way in hell will I let him do that. But then he said he just wanted to go for a swim in the lake again, but without giving me any blood this time. I thought he was gonna be a complete cunt about it or something now that I was a lot weaker than him and stuff.. But he was surprisingly gentle with me.. like I had fun. Like he still annoyed me by making waves at me and swimming too fast for me to keep up and stuff, but he didn’t hurt me. (I would’ve had more fun if he’d given me blood though, but I’m not gonna nag him about it..)

While we dried off I thought of asking him how often he killed humans. But I’m still not sure if I want to know. Am I just sticking my head in the sand? I don’t know, I can’t help but feel disappointed in myself, for just hanging out with someone like him as if he doesn’t regularly just end the lives of people with hopes and dreams and families.. And just like it’s nothing. Like I remember him saying he does this all the time. He seems uncomfortable talking about that night, but I think that’s more to protect his friend.. But also his reaction earlier this week makes me feel like he DOES have a bit of a conscience.. 

I skyped with Joy while trying to do my homework tonight and filled her in on everything. Minus the crazy supernatural stuff of course. But like about the job and stuff. And Cas and Gabriela. I managed to somehow talk Cas into sending me a picture of himself for Joy (where he sticks up his middle finger though, of course). And Joy thinks he’s cute. BAAAARF!! Okay he isn’t ugly at all I guess. If I was into guys he would probably be the kind of guy I’d be into, since he doesn’t look boring at least. And if he wasn’t a murdering cannibal and all that. Joy asked if she could have him, since I didn’t want him. I told her she could do muchhh better. Joy asked why we even hang out if I don’t like him. I don’t even know, I mean I can’t tell her about the blood and stuff, obviously.

2016 September 25 - sunday

I was so bored this morning, even though I could’ve worked on my homework I guess. But instead I decided to text Gabriela to ask if she’d like to go for a ride with me.

I picked her up around 1 pm and decided to surprise her and take her to Redport since I’m getting bored of just always staying in town. I thought maybe we could’ve stopped by the beach, now that it’s not that cold yet.

On the way we passed that castle too, so I asked her about it, of course. Or well, Gabriela corrected me and said it’s actually a small fort and NOT a castle. All she knows is that it belonged to the vampire hunters and this one was used as a retreat safe from vampires and to store weapons. There’s some more forts deeper into the forest, one of them is bigger and that one’s where they kept and tortured the vampires they captured so they wouldn’t be like right in town. I asked if we could go there sometime, but Gabriela told me it’d be a bad idea.

But then after we’d been driving for about 10 minutes, I looked over at her and she looked like she was about to keel over or something. She said she thought she got her period, so I immediately turned around, of course. Oh man, I thought my periods were bad.. like she got all flushed and sweaty and she was shivering really bad when just a few minutes before she was completely fine. I offered to come with her, but she really didn’t want me to, maybe she doesn’t like me seeing her like that? I mean I get it but I don’t think she’s weak for it or anything. 

After I dropped her off I stopped by that little convenience store next to the bookstore and got her some snacks, since she did that for me last time too. When I stopped by her house to drop them off, her aunt opened the door. Something about her was kinda weird like, I dunno I can’t put my finger on it, I mean, she seemed nice? But okay yeah, I don’t know. Like I get she’s not her mom, I’m just used to my friends’ parents showing more interest in who their kid’s hanging out with, I guess? Maybe they’re just not that close. I can tell she doesn’t ever really want to hang out at her place, I just don’t really wanna pry.. Is that bad? I dunno. I figured if she wants to talk, she’ll bring it up, right? 

2016 September 27 - tuesday

I had my first day at work! Obviously I still need to get the hang of things, but I think it helps that they don’t have like 5 million drinks on the menu, like at some other places. Most of the time it’s pretty quiet, but every now and then there’s a big surge of customers, which made me understand why the extra help was welcome. Another girl from school, Missy, was also working today. She’s in my English, Algebra and Spanish classes, though I didn’t really know her until today, though she stood out to me cuz she’s really pretty. She seemed really nice so far! She didn’t mind helping me when I needed it. And so did my boss, her name is Marian. She’s really nice in general! I dunno but for some reason I feel so relieved to finally have met a vampire who’s friendly. She kinda has the same vibes as Lisa, maybe that’s why I really want her to like me and I already liked her right away too.

I’m still super behind on my schoolwork, but Gabriela said she’d help me try and tackle most of it next Sunday! 

2016 September 29 - Thursday

Survived my second day at work! I’m still feeling very good about the job. Today I worked with Jill and Benjamin. 

Jill’s in my History, Economics and Algebra classes but I hadn’t really talked to her before besides borrowing a pen from her and telling her I liked some pins on her backpack. She was really nice though and she suggested walking to work together each Thursday since we both have fixed schedules. We chatted about music and movies we like and stuff, I could see us becoming friends!

Benjamin’s older than us (like in his 20s?) and I’m not sure what to think of him. Like he was nice and very patient with teaching me stuff (and a good teacher too) but he just gave me weird vibes, like it didn’t feel genuine or something I guess? I dunno maybe it’s just paranoia from the past weeks, like I’m definitely just always on my guard more. And like, people disliking me right off the bat isn’t necessarily a new thing to begin with.. He’s just like, very serious, maybe it’s just that? I don’t know.

2016 September 30 - Friday

Today was very uneventful, I kinda embarrassed myself in history class because I wasn’t paying attention and then got asked a question in front of everyone. But like if that’s the worst thing that happens on a day I’m honestly happy, with everything going on.

Me and Gabriela hung out at the park after school, the weather’s still so nice! I really love hanging out with her, no matter what we do.