Been feeling down lately because of many things. My new job wasnât what I thought it would be, my anxiety is worse than ever and I have extreme problems with getting out of bed in the morning because Iâm kind of tired of life. My partner tries to help me the best he can but sadly he canât do that much. I therefore try to spend my time watching TV shows like SPN, Doctor Who, House M.D and others. They help for maybe a few minutes but not enough.
What helps me most is watching youtubers play games, or at least ATM. I watch Pewdiepie getting scared of mostly everything, I watch @therealjacksepticeye vlogs, Amnesia and other stuff from beginning to end since he really makes me laugh. It makes me feel better for a few minutes or hours but since I am getting worse day by day my doctor said that I might end up at the hospital some day. I donât want to of course but not many choices right now. My thoughts are mostly negative so I think of things that might not even be true about people, which sucks but what can you do? Anyway, sorry for the long post, just needed to get it out.
And also Pewdiepie, youâre an awesome guy! And @therealjacksepticeye, your videos make me laugh so much and makes my dark days seem a little bit brighter. I will probably never be able to meet you because of my condition and all but thank you for everything, youâre my hero =)
