𝐬𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐞⸙

—I just wonder if you really do know me, I wonder if you saw the true me.

Every time I day dream of you, you that is near to me and smiling from ear to ear as we talk about the wonders of the future.

Your eyes that glows every time they met mine, a glow that lights up my dark world.

I see you but do you see me? Did you see behind my mask or are you like them that was easily fooled or is it just that you are really blind to see what I feel.

You cannot see the meaning behind my actions, you cannot see nor you truly know how I act.

Only if you could just see, what I really meant.

We clashed, bleed separately.

Feels cold, yearning for warmth.

Warmth that you give, but I am alone.

In this storm, I am alone.

No one to laugh with, tears bleed.

Torn skin, blood sipping through.

It fell, broken like a glass.

I hold on, and tried.

I thought I was with someone,

Then I realize, I was alone.

You didn’t left, but I was here.

I love you, but your love for me wavers.

-Do you really like me?

-Am I boring?

-I am not confident enough for someone like you but I am trying to.

-Please do stay with me.

-I'm so attached to you.

-Don't leave me please.

-Please do tell me if I am enough.

-If not then I'll try to improve.

-I'm so sorry if Im not that interesting.

Hey? How are you? Are you happy?

Those words are the one I want to ask you.

But now I can't because it seems that there's a wall.

A wall that YOU put up without me knowing.

And without YOU knowing how will make ME feel.

You were one of the few that I thought who would never cut and shut me off.

I loved you and still loves you, you are my sister, my friend, and my family.

I truly miss you but if you don't want to comeback? That's ok because maybe you got tired of trying to understand me and so on.

But remember this, I will be supporting you from afar even if it hurts me.

Sitting on the passenger seat,

With the very fist man I loved.

Looking on the passing by street lights,

Thinking where it went all wrong.

We were so happy before,

What happened to us?

Everything was so fine and Beautiful,

Together with everyone.

But now where are we?

So near yet so far.

We grow apart as time passes by,

But I what us to be fine.

To be completed again,

I just want to be happy with everyone.

That was my wish for my 18th birthday,

But then again my day was like normal for them.

Greet me and say I love you's,

and that's it nothing more.

Where did the sincerity go?

Where did the genuine love go?

Because it was nowhere to be found now,

I'm slowly hating you bit by bit.

Now I want to forget the connection between us,

Will I be fine if I do that?

But dad thank you for everything,

For the attention and care even for a little.

But I'll just stop here,

I'll stop expecting something from you that you will not give to us.

-For you mata.

Did I deserve this? All I want was us to be fine but why are you making it hard for me.

I stared at my wall for few hours that night, wondering if you just took that risk loving me. Would it be different now? Will I be smiling from ear to ear while think of you?, Instead of me crying and wondering if it could work out.

I tried to move on and eventually I did, that's what I thought. I tried to ignore everything and be happy because that's what I deserve, so I left.

I left everything behind, for us and for everything to be peaceful once again.

I left for a reason.

Waiting to go back home, hang themselves.

Tears that flows like a river on their cheeks.

Became red, died they died.

Wanting to be love but never did.

Making others smile but they never once did.

Sorrow is what they felt deep in their hearts.

That angel fell from grace, now a fallen angel.

An angel that just seeks genuine feelings of their beloved.

Nais lang naman madama ang iyong pagmamahal.

Ang iyong imahe sa aking isipan na di maalis.

Nag pag tanto mo na ba na di mo talaga ako gusto?

Na nag padala ka lang sa agos ng tubig, na di dapat.

Iyong sabihin sinta at ako'y handa na.

Handa na masugutan at lumuha, para sayo.

Pero iyong tandaan ito na ang una at huli.