RetroWitchinghour

Okay, so. Imagine that, in school, you were a pretty average student. Not the best, but not terrible, definitely on track for a decent career, and a few seats away from you there’s this kid who has no clue what he’s doing at any given moment. To be polite, he’s not the brightest bulb. It’s clear that he’s smart, he’s just loud and energetic and isn’t motivated to answer the questions properly because he’s always goofing off with his large circle of friends (yes, he’s really popular) which includes the slightly weird kid who’s also really smart - you’re convinced that they cheat off of each other’s tests and experiments sometimes but you have no way to prove it.

do you ever think about how 13 spent most of her time with Yaz growing even more distant and closed off and secretive, how she started to lash out at her because of all the pressure she was under instead of opening up. how she finally realized her mistake, apologized, said "i want to tell you everything" - but then the secrets didn't stop, she didn't tell Yaz about Time saying she was going to die soon. and then finally she opens up more than ever, but only to explain she can't be together with Yaz. and Yaz tells her that love is worth the hurt, asks her to try, but 13 refuses. chooses the safe option. because she can't bear the thought of loosing Yaz after allowing herself to love her, and allowing Yaz to love her back. not after all the people she's lost. and then they part ways, and it's like 13 has already decided she's not going to let Yaz meet the next Doctor. it's like she prefers leaving her now rather than seeing the dissappointment in Yaz's eyes when she doesn't recognize her Doctor. like with Rose, like with Clara. because what if Yaz can't accept the new Doctor at all? can't love them the same? or what if, worse, they do still love each other and grow closer than ever, only to get seperated in the cruelest way possible? because that's what always happens when someone is with the Doctor for too long. so maybe it's better this way.