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Main artblog. Also called Merm. They/them, 25↑, ENG/UA🇺🇦 pfp by Luderailing Do not repost/use/edit my artwork (for ai/n-f-t too). DNI: stinky ru/belaru eww, commies, queerphobes.
Alright, this time has come, I’m opening commissions :3
All the important info is written above, but you can ask me if something isn’t clear, VIA DM!
All the examples are drawn on ipad except for shocked Paps. Although he’s from SAI, the technique is almost the same.
It would be super awesome if you like & share the post!
(Edit 20.01.24: HB/HH is no longer my interest since 2023 and since it’s creator proved to be pro-genocide. Related fanarts are here for an example of artworks.)
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everyone says they love fat women I need you guys to prove it it's getting really fucking bleak out here with the 2000s conservativism and the sequel to the skinny obsession. im doing my best and holding it together rn barely just bc I have therapy I go to about it but the restrictive EDs are hovering around me and screaming!!! tell every fat bitch you see irl how nice they look (in a normal way not 'aphrodite' not 'cuddly' just like wow I like your fit or some shit) please!!!!!!!
Artfight advantage for me is that I made myself do four peaces in a row that were done in same technique (mostly) with same brushes, took me not so much struggle, didn’t feel like super hard work done that requires long rest.
Why it’s good for me is because that trains me to make art peaces that aren’t just a complete sketch on checkered bg like I like to do often, are something a little more, include colours, some kind of composition and most importantly aren’t turning into some project (ban word for my brain) that would mean a big fucking deal that would cost me so much energy that would block me despite wanting to finish it.
I worry a little bit that people who refuse to learn about ai as a part of their anti ai position are going to be extremely unprepared to understand what’s actually scary about it and already have their digital literacy at risk tbh
not that I am some genius in this regard but if you follow ai developments even slightly you might change the things you are most worried about. do people know the extent to which ai is already eating itself and how meaningless this is making swaths of the internet. do people know that there are plenty of random mid-sized companies today buying their employees’ likenesses to create digital clones and using these to make hundreds of videos. I am so much more worried about labor and surveillance and abuse than people becoming lazy about writing emails. and idk man I sort of like and respect people who are willfully ignorant about it as a way of minimizing its force in their lives and I am in some ways jealous but also when I see posts that basically still boil down to “chatgpt will never fool me” I am like 😭😭😭 for one thing not the only thing to be concerned about, for another thing I am really sorry but I don’t think you’re right
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In Ukrainian language, “to resign/quit” and “to free oneself” sound the same (звільнитися). And “to fire” and “to set (someone) free” also sound the same (звільнити). Much to think about.
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By the way I need you to know the absolute peak I encountered as a result of liking this post
Tumblr has given me the most beautiful sight of your art next to @vunderjoy 's in true "The Most Gorgeous Man You've Ever Met X his goofy lookin' cartoony cowboy noodle husband" style
I feel like these together describe both the characters and their dynamic perfectly help
For anyone else seeing this -> link to the other art in question <-
I might slow down at art attacks due to some other stuff on my way but I do not give up on my intentions 🗡️. I might share some sketches tho meanwhile.
(Technically, for some people, it's still a few hours to wait, but for me, it's already midnight, which means today it's officially my birthday 🍕 )
Thank you , thank you , thank you to all my friends, people who watch and enjoy my artworks, or just passersby. Just thank you.
You don't have to read all, if you don't wanna.
I'm gonna yap a bit , so.... yeah... Ahem, dunno if someone will actually read all of this, but anyway.
....
If I’m being completely honest, it’s hard to believe that a dork like me made it THIS far.
For many, this number is some grand milestone - a moment where you’re supposed to magically transform into a functional adult with confidence, a clear direction, and a decent sleep schedule. For others, it’s just another... Thursday.
For me? It’s complicated.
I’m still a bit annoyed that I couldn't fix as many things as I wanted to. I had a whole year, yet some parts of my life remain just as messy as they were. But looking back... I spent so many years thinking I wouldn’t even make it to this age. I didn't plan my future because, honestly, I didn't plan to HAVE one.
I just didn't think I'd be here.
Some days, I still doubt it.
But standing here today and looking back at all the stress, the academic nonsense, the bullying, and those long, terrible nights where things felt impossible... I’m just incredibly glad I didn’t give up on myself when I was smaller. I'm glad I was scared enough to back away from the truly awful things my "ex-friends" tried to force on me back in the Amino days. (Yeah, joke's on you, I survived).
It’s no secret that the world can be a total dumpster fire right now. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just standing there with a single glass of water, trying to put it out. But hey, if the water doesn't work, I can always try throwing sand.
And honestly, I think there are worse things to be in this world than someone who cared too much.
The world is already cruel enough. People deserve warmth, kindness, silly art, and strange stories that make surviving feel a little more like an fun adventure, and less like a chore. Healing isn’t some giant cinematic ending like Hollywood tries to sell us. It’s much messier. Maybe it’s just continuing to live long enough to accidentally find people who are genuinely glad you're here. To finally feel accepted, safe, and truly alive.
....
While growing up, I’ve actually done things that I think the much smaller version of me would be genuinely impressed by — or at least find strange enough to be memorable. I made a literal short horror movie on YouTube, and I’m making more fully colored animations now (and yes, that Is a big deal.)
I’ve met some of the most wonderful, ridiculously creative people on this planet who deserve way more recognition than they get. I’ve inspired some of you to pick up a pencil and draw. And once, in some small, quiet way, I even saved someone. I didn't drown in my own loneliness, even when the tide got too high.
Sure, maybe I forget things too easily and care way too much about stuff other people would laugh at. And even if I never receive the gifts I can only dream of, I will always enjoy your warm words and the good times we share. It's more than enough.
What I absolutely won't forget today is how much it means to me that you guys actually care that I exist. I'm just some random, slightly chaotic person on the other side of the globe, yet you choose to spend your time here.
Even if my art remains underrated, even if I never become a "big shot" or the coolest person in the room - it doesn’t change the fact that I tried with every single tool I had. And I’m still trying. I want my stories and my characters to make your days a bit brighter, and mine a bit more whimsical .
I want to create things that feel whimsical and haunted at the same time. Like finding an old cartoon VHS in a burning house and realizing someone still cared enough to rewind the tape.
Maybe one day, years after I’m gone, someone will stumble into one of my dead posts or forgotten characters. And maybe they’ll look at them and think: "Woah. Whoever made this, loved something deeply."
That would be enough for me. Because every character I design carries a ridiculous little fragment of my soul inside them.
People deserve respect and happiness in this world, and today, for the first time in a long time, I think I’m finally starting to believe that I deserve it too.
So thank you. Thank you to everyone who has ever said a kind word to me. Thank you to everyone who supports my art and stayed around long enough to watch me grow alongside my characters, my terrible jokes, my endless rambling, and all the messy parts of me.
Even if I never get to live until I'm a century old and look like a raisin, or if I happen to leave this world early - at least I tried to make something beautiful. At least I tried to leave warmth with shiny sparkles behind me instead of just ashes. And that means everything.
So, yeah.
Happy birthday to the weird little creature typing this post.
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Let me put some positivity onto your inbox to clean out the negativity:
I love Ukraine and it's beautiful, resilient people. You don't deserve any of what is thrown your way and I wish you all a golden future and a speedy, victorious end to the war!
Слава Україні! 💛💙
🥹💜
Thank you a lot! We are very grateful for any and all support that comes our way. Please don't let russians convince you otherwise, and please don't think their comments or attempts to attack me matter in any way. I use them as a case to show others how they treat Ukrainians, but as I've said before, their opinions don't matter.
We invite you to visit whenever you can:> I imagine the victory is going to be largely celebrated, too, and you don't want to miss a party like that.
Героям слава!🇺🇦🫶
If you can, please support Ukraine via a fund of your choosing!
I shall open commissions with partial donations some time, but I'm currently busy trying to get into an actual full-time job while doing other projects 👀 I simply don't want to promise too much.
:333.
Her lips were drawn more prominently but I looked at her ref again in tried to reduce them a little and smudged them gently. For it not to look way too human-like :D
Looking forward to see those 👁️
She’s absolutely allowed to to make fun of me, she has my full permission :D
