this city’s barren cold

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@networkthirteen​ book club | TTPD/Showgirl event-

Cause I thought that I’d never find that, beautiful, beautiful life that, shimmers that innocent light back

And I don’t know if she meant it like this but I heard it as the light she’s putting out is finally being reflected back to create this shimmering happiness.

So many of her previous songs are talking about what she gave or would give

Give you my sunshine, give you my best, but the rain is always gonna come

Give you my wild, give you a child

Gave you all my best me’s, my endless empathy

And this album is full of the ways they both give to each other:

You had to make your own sunshine (said to each of them)

You and me we make our own luck

And this is why before she could only see a sad dark future that she hoped could be enough for someone and now sees this shimmering beautiful life she thought she could never have because someone is finally shining that light back to her. It’s the difference between:

I knew there was no one in the world who could take it, I had a bad feeling

Versus

a bad sign is all good, I ain’t gotta knock on wood

And

I never had the courage of my convictions as long as danger is near and it’s right around the corner darling, cause it lives in me, no I could never give you peace

Versus

All the right guys promised they’d stay, under bright lights they withered away, but you bloom

Is it really your anxiety that keeps you from giving me everything or do you just not want to?

Versus

You can call me honey if you want because I’m the one you want. You give it different meaning, cause you mean it when you talk