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an advisor humiliated me in front of an entire lab group because of a call I made in his place when he wouldn't reply to my e-mails for months

he later delegated part of my master's thesis work to a 19-year old male undergrad without my approval

a male scientist at a NASA conference looked me up and down and asked when i was graduating and if i was open to a job at his company. right before inquiring what my ethnicity was because i "looked exotic"

a random male member of the public began talking over me and my female advisor, an oceanographer with a pHD and decades of experience, saying he knew more about oceanography than us

things that have happened to me since becoming a man in STEM:

being asked consistently for advice on projects despite being completely new to a position

male colleagues approaching me to drop candid information regarding our partners / higher ups that I was not privy to before

lenience toward my work in a way I haven't experienced before. incredible understanding when I need to take time off to care for my family.

conference rooms go silent when I start talking. no side chatter. I get a baseline level of attention and focus from people that's very unfamiliar and genuinely difficult for me to wrap my head around.

1x13 Luck of the Draw - Shocked by defibrillator, unconscious (25:00 ==== 2x01 Welcome Back, Carter! - Passes out (34:00) ==== 3x01 Dr. Carter, I Presume - stressed tf out on his first day back, exhausted 3x07 No Brain, No Gain - Punched, trips, bloody nose (38:00) 3x12 Post Mortem - Friend dies, emotional 3x13 Fortune's Fools - Angry / Emotional ==== 4x09 Obstruction of Justice - Arrested (23:00) 4x15 Exodus - Takes charge, gigachad 4x16 My Brother's Keeper - Cousin overdoses, cries 4x19 Shades of Gray - Pushed, anxiety ==== 6x13 Be Still My Heart - Stabbed in the back, collapse, bleeding out, passes out 6x14 All in the Family - Unconscious, bruised head, emergency surgery, awakes in extreme pain, scared, 6x15 Be Patient - Recovery, wheelchair, depressed, in extreme pain, attempting to walk (physical therapy), trips, angry, pain, hits elbow, very stubborn & angry 6x16 Under Control - Crutches, pain, stubborn, exhausted, angry & defensive, emotional talk with grandmother 6x17 Viable Options - Limping, angry 6x18 Match Made in Heaven - Keeps making mistakes, limping 6x19 The Fastest Year - Insomnia, PTSD, talks to psychologist, talks to his attackers wife 6x21 Such Sweet Sorrow - Smoking, insomnia, jittery, making mistakes, emotional outburst, meltdown in the bathroom, depressed 6x22 May Day - Kicked off a table, huge fall on back, aggravates back pain, found injecting himself with fentanyl, paranoid, confronted leading to defensive/angry, confesses to Greene, intervention, stubborn, storms out/quits, angry, punches Benton, meltdown, cries, comforted ==== 7x01 Homecoming / Indian Summer - Rehab, exhausted, sweating, tremors, nausea, angry, checking out of rehab, 7x04 Benton Backwards - Someone killed in front of him, shock/angry (22:00) 7x09 Greatest of Gifts - Almost relapses (38:00) ==== 8x01 Four Corners - Emotional/angry at family funeral 8x02 The Longer You Stay - Trips and falls, aggravates back pain the rest of the episode (35:00) 8x11 Beyond Repair - Faces attacker, angry, PTSD/anxiety, throws up, angry outburst at mother 8x16 Secrets and Lies - Emotional, confesses molestation at a young age, face sliced by Kovac ==== 10x21 Midnight - Stillborn son, sees dead child, sobs, breakdown, depressed ==== 11x02 Damaged - Insomnia & depression, hit by crazy patient, bleeding, anger, misses wife and dead child 11x09 Twas The Night - Only attending, stress ==== 15x17 T-Minus 6 - Bleeding from dialysis, reveals kidney problems 15x18 What We Do - Really sick, aggressively pushed (15:00), collapses unconscious, weak, passes out, no pulse, transferred 15x19 Old Times - Waiting for kidney transplant, Benton reunion, surgery, issue during surgery, wakes up in pain, emotional call to wife