To Wake Near An Unbearable Angel

This is counting as my writing for the day. I’m awake and I believe in astrology today. It’s a Pisces moon and I believe that is the reason for all of this. My cat is trying to knock his water bowl off the desk. I read through all my old thoughts on  being in love with her. I remind myself it’s a phase or something like a phase, like a moon. And yet this time it isn’t. She is waiting for me, or we are on hold. But she said she wants to kiss me. I can never show her all of these. She will think I’m insane. 

Every time I get away I find my way back to her. Every time every time every time every time every time. A rhythm building like that tick tick tick tick tick tick tick. She kisses someone else, I never said a word and never told a soul.