Machine Queen

Like I can’t go ice skating or do any casual hobby without obsessively studying how to not be immediately awful at it.

I have a hard time agreeing to last minute plans because I won’t have time to research the venue, the menu or whatever activity is happening.

I almost only cosplay characters I deeply love and identify with because my brain creates hypothetical scenarios where I’m quizzed on them whenever I go to a convention.

As an actor, I really struggle because I obsessively rehearse for my rehearsals and if I don’t have everything down perfectly I feel horribly vulnerable.

Like there’s nothing more nerve wracking and fear inducing than showing up anywhere and not knowing what I’m doing, and when that does actually happen I dissociate soo hard because the guilt and self loathing I feel is crazy.

My fiance and I cosplayed Morgan & Emma for Momocon yesterday! We literally put this together in the span of like 3 days to accommodate our current hyperfixation and I’m so glad we did.

Might make a post detailing that process at some point, but I’m very proud of what we put together mainly using what was lying around in our closet.