BLOOD OF MY BLOOD.

⠀ she sets the bottle of whiskey down on the table with agitated force and snatches up a clean coil of white bandages, her fingers restless over the linen until she is stilled by jamie's touch, which washes through her with all the force of a narcotic. his calloused thumb is warm against the soft skin of her inner wrist, dragging over the pronounced ridges of her carpal bones and the quick throb of her heartbeat, and she has to fight the urge to shiver.

⠀ "no," she bites out, hating herself for the rapidity of her pulse—that she should be so affected by a near stranger's single touch. "you don't know." she tugs her wrist from his grip but doesn't break his gaze, crushing the bandages in her fist as she glares at him. anger is a coal in her stomach, burning through vulnerable viscera until smoldering frustration is all that remains.

          ❛             i made an effort ! i ducked when th' bastard took th' shot. the buckshot is only a graze.            ❜          jamie protested , making a point of adjusting his other arm , feeling the ghostly ache of it's steadily healing wound.          ❛             i'm alive , aye ? now thanks t' ye , if y' decide t' stop being angry with me , i doubt it'll even scar.            ❜          she was so beautiful when she was angry. she got this dimple between her brows , & this harsh set to her jaw like she was concentrating too hard on something. jamie would be lying if he said he didn't enjoy pushing her buttons , just a little.

maybe he enjoyed the fact that he was injured again. it gave him an excuse to see her regularly , rather than the occasional glance or picnic check - up. shifting slightly , jamie adjusted his stance to lean against the surgery table , stacked high with her potions & herbs , blue eyes searching her face while a tiny smile flitted along his stubbled jaws.          ❛             oh , sassenach. i almost forgot t' ask .. did ye give laoghaire a love potion t' pass my way ?            ❜          a potion that reeked something fierce , mind. it either came from her , or the red haired witch residing in town , which didn't exactly put his mind at ease.

a  soft  hum  left  her  lips  as  her  fingers  slowly  traced  a  path  up  his  torso,    hand  laying  palm  down  against  his  chest.    his  heartbeat  causing  her  breathing  to  hitch  for  a  small  moment  before  she  looked  back  up  at  him  with  her  big,  blue  eyes.    a  smile  etched  against  her  lips,  curving  up  to  her  eyes  as  she  thought  about  what  this  could  mean  for  them.  

❛      yet  here  you  are,    touching  me  as  if  we  were  the  one's  meant  to  marry.    tell  me  jamie,  how  does  it  feel  to  know  im  so  close,    yet  so  far  from  your  grasp  .ᐣ      does  it  hurt  .ᐣ      or  does  it  motivate  you  to  do  better  .ᐣ      "      her  words  tugging,  pulling  against  any  resolve  they  both  may  have.    she  wanted  him  to  grab  her,  ruin  her  for  all  other  men.    ruin  her  so  her  marriage  pact  with  the  lannister's  may  dissolve,  leaving  only  his  prospect  for  her.    or  would  he  wait  until  she  was  married  .ᐣ      sneak  into  her  chambers,    use  her  just  as  her  husband  would.    would  he  allow  her  to  bare  his  red  headed  children  .ᐣ      or  would  he  resolve  her  to  a  life  of  torture  at  the  behest  of  king  joffrey  .ᐣ          

the sudden flush in jamie's cheeks burned like fire down along the skin of his throat , drawing himself impossibly closer & threading his fingers into her hair at the base of her scalp , giving her a gentle tug to tilt her face intentionally back to face his.          ❛             oh , aye. it hurts. does it bother ye , then ? that i cannae touch y' th' way we want. that i cannae be th' first 'n only man y' lie with ?            ❜          oh , he could be. he could break , give in to their teasing & take her right here. he could be gentle , like she deserved when losing her virtue , or he could be rough. he wondered what noises she made , what the rest of her looked like.

was she delicate everywhere ? gods be praised , her skin was like porcelain. jamie backed the two of them up slowly , pinning her to the nearby wall adjacent to the closed balcony of the empty room. he couldn't be that man. he didn't make it a habit , stealing virtues. he also didn't make it a habit of falling in love either , damn her. his jaws parted , lingering just above hers but not leaning in for a complete kiss just yet , the smallest of cruel grins working its way across his mouth.          ❛             or would y' rather i killed him now ? rid us of bonnie king joffrey early , then toss y' over my shoulder & whisk ye away t' my castle at lallybroch .. we would make a braw northern lady of you yet , lass.            ❜          

𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐁𝐈𝐃𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒.

All sentences and quotes have been taken from different media about starcrossed lovers or forbidden love, full of angst, some bold words, some nasty ones, possessive nature and letting someone use you as a replacement. So, some toxic energy in this one. Change pronouns, locations and names as you see fit.

I love you,and I will love you until I die,and if there's a life after that,I'll love you then.

Do people always fall in love with things they can't have?

And there is a difference between having your heart break and having your soul shatter.

I'm falling in love with you.

I'm going to fuck the shit out of you. I have waited for this for such a long time. Consequences be damned.

These violent delights have violent ends.

 I’m only human. And you are …all-consuming.

Don’t go into this lightly. If you’re mine, you need to understand I will burn the fucking world to the ground for you.

I will never let you go, do you hear me? 

 will keep you safe. And I will find a way for us to be together.

If you make me cry at my own coronation ball, I’ll never forgive you.

If you were any less the man you are, I would beg you to take me with you.

If you were any less the woman you were, I would beg you to come with me.

I've known lust. This is something worse. This is a barbaric need to possess, to eliminate, to own. This is madness.

This is lust.

She’s your very own forbidden fruit.

You said you didn't want this.

We all desire what we cannot have.

Have you noticed how the boy looks at you?

Do you think I didn’t notice? The way you look at me when you think I’m not watching?

You are dangerous desire, and I am your prisoner.

We can’t do this on so many levels.

I can't even whisper her name, my heart would burst out of my chest.

But I would fight against the stars for you.

I have ruined your life.

Some lines you just don't cross. 

I want to take you under the moonlight.

Having something forbidden is exciting, don't you agree?

The closer we get—the more I let you in…the more dangerous this gets.

Don’t you get it? You’re what everyone wants! But I’m not going to let them win.

Make it so I never have to dream about this again—make it so we can have this…forever.

Desires are what can most easily ruin us, lovely.

We were doomed from the start. 

Nothing is as deadly as the love of a powerful man.

But this kiss? It's ruined me. This is the type of kiss I never knew existed. 

You sure about that, Dad? Because he's done everything to me.

Are you scared of me now?

You loved me - then what right had you to leave me?

I have not broken your heart - you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine.

One moment, you give me everything that I want, and in the next, you snatch all of that away.

It's hopeless. We can never work out.

The world didn’t want us together so I forged a new one where we would.

How could a peacock lust for a lion?

You're tattooed onto my skin, and the more I try to erase you, the deeper you sink in.

I’ve always liked you, from the first moment I saw you.

It's absurd how crazy love can make you...but even more absurd how stupid jealousy can make you.

 That you and I are meant to be together, but never meant to be.

Why does fate seem always to conspire against us? To deny us life's simple pleasures?

We'll meet after this war. I'll certainly find you wherever you'll hide. 

War makes fools of men and women wanton.

What offends you most, Father? That she's Catholic, or that she's poor?

If my father discovers you here, he'd cut off your little nuts and eat them. He can't stand you.

You tempress, I see you once and all I can think of is having you.

Feelings are forbidden, does not mean we cannot enjoy one another.

The more you deny me, the more I desire you. You are a plague in my mind.

Ever since we met, no one else can compare. 

How can I be with someone else, when I’m with them, it’s you I see.

You can have me, think of whoever you love. For tonight.

"More lands for the traitors? I wonder if that does not make you sick."