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Why haven't you been writing? You were good at it.

hi there, we used to talk a lot on here like about 1 or two years ago I was depressed and had an ed and you always listened to me. I want to say thank you, and hope you are doing well.

they lied you know, it hasn't gotten any easier.

"i feel so lost without you" how can i say that? how can i feel that way? i am my own person, you are not a part of me - and you never will be. i do not need you in order to be whole. i am strong.

such sweet piercing words

wow!! love the emotive words :) are you from canada? (The 'ou' in color)

The truth is that you hurt me so
much, so deep inside my soul that I cannot even explain where it hurts. it just hurts in every bone, every tissue, every muscle and every nerve. 
The truth is I am so upset at how you handled this situation because it sure as hell did not help with anything. 
The truth is I almost took a blade to my wrist again just so I could try and 
feel something because I feel so numb that it fucking hurts. 
The truth is I keep having to remind myself as I lay on the floor with silent screams and deafening sobs that you are not worth it when just a week ago I was telling you how worth it you were. 
The truth is you hurt me so much and it really is horrible but I want you out of my goddamn life so you cannot hurt me anymore.

the biggest mistake that i have made in my time is letting people stay in my life much longer than they deserved to.

there are men that are assholes and there are men that are cowards. what they both have in common is that both just stop talking to you, for no reason other than that they are assholes and cowards.

i am terrified of the future - absolutely petrified. i'll never be able to stop it - or rewind even a little bit. yesterday is gone forever, and there are thousands of tomorrows ahead of me. i am so scared i don't want to grow up im not strong enough to do this why can't i just stop now?

the key is falling in love with something, anything. If your heart's attached to it, then your mind will be attached to it.

even if all the stars collide and the planets disappeared there isn't an atom in my being that would want you back.

Ramone ?

I don't know if I'll ever be totally okay but I do know that I'm doing whatever I can to make myself happy and treat my body and soul with respect and love because that's what I deserve. I am a worthy human being, and I wish I realised this earlier.

I was just so fucking stupid to think you even cared.