S&S

In every window, I pass

Your reflection in the glass

Makes me wonder if my mind is going

Shadows shifting in the rain

Slowly driving me insane

By the stars above, I know we were in love

((Acrylic painting on 16x20 canvas by me))

“Brimstoned”

It’s kind of normal to feel this way

Cars fly steady whining of the bypass

What ending did we agree on?

Is it always going to be like this?

You reply slack-jawed & shell shocked

What a hero you’ve been

With spoils of war

lying at your feet

You did a fine job son

Pinned medals on your chest

Saved everyone but yourself

Sitting in this room

Does he still follow you?

A little boy still follows

missing part of his face

His mother’s screams

Echoing anguish

Mystic memories propel me

To an awkward state

I don’t know this place

But I can feel it

The heat of the desert

The cracks whistles

& whips of artillery

It kicks sands of time in my eyes

Flames licking my soul

Until I’m ripe for the reaping

Until I’m surrounded by my sins

Until the headline reads:“Hero of war”

Until my mind wraps itself around a tree

Until I’m convinced it wasn’t my fault

Until I’m no longer capable of destruction

Until I’m buried for the 75th time.

Until Im not aware of your existence

Until I’m forgiven...

Until I’m not at a loss

Until this is just a dream...

Until......it’s kind of normal to feel this way..

-s&s

The ghosts are on the green

Each and every night

Oh the distant light

Is the hardest part to take

That's the heart of all my pain

Lying in the cold

Oh the distant light

Keep your halos tight

I'm your god or your guardian

Keep your halo tight

One hand on the trigger, the other hand in mine

Because now

Cupid carries a gun

Pound me the witch drums, witch drums

((Acrylic 18x24 canvas original by me 04/21)) “Dangerous Creature”

Oh there you are. I’ve been watching you for sometime. 26 earthquakes & 9 tsunamis later, eternally.

You’re no longer there and I’m staring into the dark lit only by the light of a full Moon. Attempting to recall the last time I remembered a full day is rather taxing. My mind can’t compute that information. It’s algorithms based solely on your presence in my life, have been deemed useless without you. I play along with their dogma But I don’t believe in the contingent truths they speak of, but they believe in me.

As time wraps itself around this ache in my heart, my bones are grinding together until they’re crushed into a fine powder. I cut me a line and indulge in this recreational cannibalism. I shouldn’t be ruminating on such things but a loud knock or phone call is all I need to gain my composure long enough to appear normal.

I’ve prayed many nights to Gods I don’t believe in for a sign. A green light. A smoke signal. A quick death. Yet hear, see, smell, and taste nothing. My senses are nonexistent...but my symptoms aren’t.

I can only feel this bitterness growing inside of me; an all encompassing void beckoning my mind to deeper waters. Convincing me to make it one more day. And although it means no harm; it’s intentions are not set on benevolence either. So I make the decision to do nothing. Consequently choosing a passive suicide.. This sand in my soul is only growing heavier & I feel myself sinking down into the deep...letting go of everything as I breathe in the salty sea water.....and still all I see is You. -s&s

If magic does exist

sleight of hand

with our hearts

A cease & desist

we knew from the start

To shoot from the hip

I will always be waiting

in the same place you left.

Til the end of time

After my last breath

A place where

True love is not seen

But only felt

A man changes the Universe