DORIANMITCHELL

Hand drawn lookbook concept.

Don't let anyone sensor you. Don't let anyone speak for you. When you feel go ahead and feel. Don't half ass it either.. feel it wholeheartedly. Be simple be you. It's imposible to be perfect so stop trying. My art is words, sometimes songs or poems or conversations or simply things i do for myself or someone else. This may seem like a ramble and maybe it is but this is me. Sometimes i get lost in my worrie but today i know how to just yell "stop" literally wherever i am if i feel myself worrying i yell that. It helps.. find your safety word.. for you. Those internal thoughts DO get heavy sometimes manage and control them not the other way around. Now when i learned this i took it out into the world and it works. People will throw things onto you DONT ITERNALIZE THE WORLDS ENERGY. Everybody is growing and going through something... everybody so don't for one second think you are weird. Grow baby. Fail baby.. just don't look back. Let go of what doesn't serve you anymore. Push forward create write sing draw dance photograph any thing you have to do! When you FEEL, create (in a literal sense, like do something when you feel “like it” & do something when you feel an emotion) 

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When you start something fuck the pros and cons you’ve been trained your entire life to yes pinpoint positives but negatives as well. Although you’ve listed both your brain hones in on the negative. Now stop pinpointing that. Ask yourself everyday about everything you involve yourself in. How does this serve me and how can I innovate it.

Might have looked like a lot to others but I earned it. I earn EVERYTHING.

Letting go

You have favor on your life

Or will the things you felt for me back in Harlem die. Is it just a lust thing like they say or do you really mean it?

FEELS: Today is a day of mixed feelings this week;  it's a week of mixed feelings; It is a week of learning about me and how i handle pressure; It's a month or 2 of life showing me my weaknesses and me polishing up on ways to handle these things. LOOK: I feel like before you get that confidence within the place you're in he pushes you and shifts you in every which way and allows you to learn , do your research AND KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DEALING WITH. Another thing is maximizing on your talents which is gaining more and more knowledge about the things you involve yourself in and really knowing about who you are within the place you're currently in. Random questions: Are you happy? Is your energy being pushed sucked or better yet are YOU an energy sucker? RANDOM: No one really knows what they're doing BUT there are ways to gain control back and stay grounded. Find out what those things are and keep them close.  

-DAM

I’m learning that you cannot force anything. It’s almost like fear of the unknown is the real killer. But I mean all you can do is live right? I find myself worrying about things all the damn time. Things I have no control over... which is essentially why .. I ..worry. But I mean I’m only human. I’m a vessel. I have to live by that, by any means. Don’t we all. I mean all of us have something. I’m a singer ...songwriter.. guitarist .. just all around creative. I love really hard and I’m always vulnerable which is a good and bad thing. But, more good than bad. I feel there’s more rooms for emotional honesty. Idk. Uhm... communication is what I’m working on right now. It’s VERY important at this time in my life. I stood up to someone at work today and I must say it felt great..lol... Uhm.. what have you done that made you feel as though you had control..again?

Do share.

this is honestly the best way I can explain it. Please come vent with me. It helps. Don’t be scared. If you need advice I have that too. Let’s grow together. If you don’t feel you know how ... simple instruction. Start off by... Names your demons. Name those things that keep you stagnant. Name the things that haunt you at night.

-Dorian :) 

You are not your parents. Stop taking on what they didn't finish emotionally becuase THAT'S THEM. When you try to take on many different people problems and you try to be someone whom you think people will like.. you lose yourself. For so long i put myself last. That's something i've sense gotten over (for the most part). I think today is going to be a day where i overthink. I tell myself continuously to "live in the moment" it helps (shrugs it off). I'm currently listening half way to my roomate playing Erykah and the rest of my attention goes to a Blueprint interview starring Pusha T. I woke up yesterday and my account was at -$15... i woke up THIS morning and my account was at -$85. It's a fucking joke. Fucking Planet Fitness has an annual fee they dont remind you about... I decided i'm going to start fasting. I'm moving soon. I have a girlfriend that lives... in New York... i have a mom and sister who lives in fucking Michigan..and i have a dad that lives in Aurora.. i have grandpar-... i have family everywhere. How the fuck do you maintain relationships with niggas who won't answer the damn phone. idk.. i'm fasting. What's on your mind? What's small talk? Why small talk? i hate it so why do you do it. Some people it works.. Do you feel like you compromise things for the one(s) you love? .. like i said my mind is everywhere.

My girlfriend is really making me better and making me understand a healthy relationship. I’m moving soon and am in a fucking whirlwind ...Something i've learned today is not everybody's life is alike.. if you dont speak up for yourself you're settling.. you're actually okay with it. DO WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT DORIAN THE SKY IS THE LIMIT.. i need to feed MY confidence.. i need to know how good i am for myself.. have a harder stance in your opinion the right way. better monitary understanding.. a buisness mindset to understand what i want going forward with EKO. i want to write even better. I'm actually a really great story teller.. don't let someones attitude direct whether or not you continue something. Don't be afraid to rework shit.. YOU CREATE YOUR OWN WORLD ... people will try to penetrate and change yours but thats perspective a simulation.. not reality.. you are love.. you're emotion.. people feed off of that.. that is you.. man you're amazing dude just see that shit everyday.  Don't let someone elses emotion effect you so much.. you've gotten a lot A LOT better.. keep ascending... YOU NEVER FUCK UP lol. There's no direction you're following except for God's plan and hes never mad..so you never fuck up G. You have confidence within.. you know what to do.. and YES you will marry  Chayna if you want to.. just have faith in God more for the things that you want and they will come to you. FOR REAL.. encouragment is your forte.. community ..and bringing people together.. family is at a low right now .. it happens.. things are about to change man. IT'S CRAZY TO FEEL THAT. <3