I'm Always In This Twilight

If you don’t like the textures of vegetables, you can blend them up and mix them into something tasty. If you struggle to cook a proper lunch, you can just make yourself a luncbox full of snacks or sandwiches that you can easily take out the fridge later on and pick at. If snacks or ready-meals targeted at children look easier or more appealing, you can just buy them. If you want to cut the crusts off your bread or use cookie cutters to shape your sandwiches into fun shapes, do it!

Ok but you realize you're not hurting the corporation, right? You know they won't care or notice? Right?

You are, however, screwing over an employee that already makes poverty wages.

I very truly love this world.

The bus passes through some neighborhoods that are quite neglected and poor. The government is fixing a bunch of roads because some soccer players are staying in my city for the world cup. They could have fixed the streets before, the money was there. But the soccer players weren't. The soccer players will leave, and the neighborhoods will stay poor.

I get emotional seeing older adults with fast food bags on the bus. I imagine they are going home to their children. It reminds me of my mom bringing us cheap rotisserie chicken from the supermarket she used to work at. Of my dad buying a lot more bread that was necessary for sunday breakfasts.

Our dad used to tell us about how when he was a child, the thing he wanted the most was to buy a bunch of soda bottles for him and his friends to drink.

The families with kids remind me of my sister and her family. My brother in law has been feeding a family of four on a cashier's salary. But things are looking up for them because my sister just got a really good job.

So if it feels inescapable and like evidence of it is everywhere, whether at times or always, that might just because you're in a Western country where you're surrounded by Christians who believe that, fundamentally, in their worldview. And also they talk and make art about it all the time and run the vast majority of news outlets. And spent over a thousand years burning any art or texts that disagreed with them. Etc. etc.

If you're gonna come to as drastic and painful a conclusion as that, at least take the time first to make sure you're not working with biased evidence (surrounded by too many people and cultural products that believe original sin is real)