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i thought it'd be interesting to have roleswap ratio and merven ratio to have their gay realizations in similar ways but take them in very different directions

link to rest of the series -> here

i've said this before but i really do think his future self calling him kakavasha indicates that he primarily thinks of himself by that name. sunday's order fuckery be damned, everything he hallucinates in this segment comes from himself. idk, i guess we'll never know unless we get another visualization of his inner monologues, but i prefer the idea that while both names are his now, kakavasha is the one he defaults to. it's the name his mama gave him; you really think he'd let himself abandon it? like, this is the guy who has clung onto the scraps of his papa's old shirt, even through allllll the shit he's gone through over the years, just to have something - ANYTHING - to remember him by. it's not an aspect of his character that was explored a ton, but it's still obvious: his family is extremely important to him, and he will always treasure every possible connection he still has to them, even if all that remains is rags, a charm, and a name.

When the "future" Aventurine accuses real!Aventurine of having changed as a person now that the IPC has given him wealth and power, he immediately answers: "I've never changed."

He hasn't abandoned his past self or forgotten his roots at all.

And I think it's particularly interesting that Jade tells Kakavasha his name is destined to be "buried in the dirt":

Which is a perfect mirror of another line that comes later:

"Kakavasha" was buried in the sands--but they could not kill him.