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⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆ 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐢 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐫?

❝ i know i’m too much. you don’t have to say it. ❞

❝ you’d be so much happier without me, wouldn’t you? ❞

❝ i don’t know why you stay. i wouldn’t. ❞

❝ i ruin everything i touch. ❞

❝ i’m sorry for being this way. i really do try. ❞

❝ i can’t stop thinking that i’m exhausting you. ❞

❝ you deserve someone easier to love. ❞

❝ i wish i knew how to need less. feel less. be less. ❞

❝ i don’t know how to fix myself. ❞

❝ you shouldn’t have to hold me together like this. ❞

❝ i don’t want to be a burden, but i know i am. ❞

❝ you love me now, but what about when i fall apart again? ❞

❝ i don’t want to be the reason you’re tired all the time. ❞

❝ maybe i’m just too loud. too sensitive. too complicated. ❞

❝ i think i make everything harder. ❞

❝ i don’t know how to be okay. and that’s not fair to you. ❞

❝ i’m scared i’m gonna push you away. ❞

❝ i hate this version of me. and i’m scared you will too. ❞

❝ i keep waiting for the moment you finally get tired of me. ❞

❝ it’s okay if you want to leave. i’d understand. ❞

❝ i always end up being the person people walk away from. ❞

❝ i can’t keep pretending i’m easy to love. ❞

❝ i see it in your eyes, how tired you are of me. ❞

❝ maybe if i was quieter, softer, easier… maybe then you’d stay. ❞

❝ you say you love me, but how long until you don’t? ❞

❝ i feel like i’m breaking your heart just by being who i am. ❞

❝ i don’t think i know how to exist without apologizing for it. ❞

❝ i keep waiting for you to wake up and realize i’m not worth this. ❞

❝ i talk too much. i cry too much. i feel too much. ❞

❝ why would anyone want to stay with someone like me? ❞

❝ you keep saying you’re fine, but i know i’m too much. ❞

❝ if i start to spiral again, will you still be here? ❞

❝ i don’t know how to be anything other than overwhelming. ❞

❝ loving me looks like a burden on you. i can see it. ❞

❝ what if i never get better? what if this is all i am? ❞

❝ i hate that i need reassurance just to feel okay. ❞

❝ you shouldn’t have to love me through this. ❞

❝ it’s not your job to fix me. i don’t want to ruin you too. ❞

❝ it hurts more when you don’t say anything. ❞

❝ i wish i could disappear before you stop loving me. ❞

❝ i’m not trying to push you away. i just… don’t want you to regret staying. ❞

❝ i think i’m just too complicated to keep. ❞

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pyramultimuse

"Bless I don't need your blessing." Crowley snapped back at him. "I am what I am, I can't be an angel again. They're lying to you, only God has the power to turn an angel to a demon or a demon to an angel. God would never do the latter."

Crowley paced a bit, avoiding eye contact with the angel. After a few moments he stopped and sighed. "I'll be alright Aziraphale. And if I'm not... What's one less demon? Everyone will be better off."

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Aziraphale sighed. The sound betrayed his annoyance. It also held worry and fear. The noise was a loaded response to the situation. "But, Crowley dear, you do need a blessing. In this instance, you need blessed," he cautioned, trying to choose his words carefully. "A blessing does not turn you into an angel. It protects you! That's all it does. Let me protect you."

Tears shined in his eyes. They burned the corners as they threatened to slide down the sides of his nose. "You might be all right, but what about me? Do you think I will be all right?" he snapped. He felt selfish for that but he couldn't think of anything else to say. "I am sorry, Crowley, but I would not be better off without you."

#pyramultimuse #crowley x aziraphale

bluebellestorybrooke

Belle tried hard to move nearly toppling over with her foot still stuck. “ It was an accident!” she exclaimed. Honestly, it was a long story.

“ Can you undo it?” ,

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Rumplestiltskin studied the surroundings. He looked at the positioning of the roots and the whole. He studied the dirt. "Oh really?" he said. "Of course I can. But, stay still and tell me what happened."

#bluebellestorybrooke #belle x rumple

pyramultimuse

"Because I'm a demon, we're not supposed to do nice things." He hissed out in annoyance but then listened to the angel talk so low about himself. Being disposable and a hindrance. It made Crowley frown and his chest hurt.

He shook his had and came over to Aziraphale's chair to sit on the arm rest,leaning close to put his arm around him. "You are none of those things to me, angel." Crowley spoke in a gentler tone. "You are everything good in this world... You are everything to me." he said as he rubbed the angel's shoulder. "I will always be here for you."

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Despite his dour mood, the angel smiled. It was not the largest grin nor the smallest one that could be offered. It spoke of internal bemusement. "Yes, Crowley, you are a demon," he agreed with a bit of a nod. "And, well, it's almost demonic of you that you helped me because, as you pointed out you're not supposed to do nice things. Demons also aren't supposed to follow rule and order."

The moment of internal levity passed as his thoughts drifted back to his lot in life. "I'm an Angel... I'm supposed to do go," he replied, echoing Crowley's words. "It's all I can offer to them. If I don't do as such I would be discarded. That is the fate of being an unusable angel."

He reached for Crowley's hand. He rested his hand on top of Crowley's. "Why? Why do I matter so much to you? Why do you matter so much to me?" he whispered. "And why do you defend me when you will be punished? I don't want you punished, Crowley. I can't bear that."

#pyramultimuse #crowley x aziraphale

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justicescreaming

"Well i suppose as long as their hair goes back to normal eventually," she said with a smile. "Just remember how attached Tom is to his hair." Was she telling him so he could deliberately wind up her pilot? Well, that was her own little secret, wasn't it? She considered his words. There was no one else she could ask. Not without breaking her facade to her crew. "I think I would," Kathryn agreed quietly.

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"Is anything I ever do permanent?" he asked. There were a few things that had a lasting effect, but in general the pranks lasted a few minutes or hours and occasionally a couple days. "Also, hair tends to grow back so even if it was.... long lasting... it would all reverse itself in due time."

He cracked a rare smile. With a raise of his hand, he snapped. Soft, sounds of waves and gulls filtered through the air. He snapped again and the room came awash in a pastel blue lighting. With it came a faint scent of ocean breeze. "Is this atmosphere suitable for mortal comforting?" he asked. "And do you wish to talk of your troubles or just enjoy tranquility?"

#justicescreaming #kathryn x q

hartlines

House’s jaw shakes slightly. Not from frustration, but more like a knee-jerk reaction to hearing something he’s heard in too many emergency rooms, too many locked psych wards, too many eulogies delivered with a shrug and a sigh.

"You think I don’t know you?"

House says, lowering his voice. Not softer, but quieter, like a man trying not to scare off a wounded animal.

"I know you better than most people who claim to give a damn. You were my roommate. We shared toilet paper. We shared… whatever the hell that stew was in the cafeteria. I’ve seen you at your best, Alvie. Unfortunately, I’ve also seen you in a paper gown trying to trade cigarettes for pudding."

He exhales through his nose, then leans forward just enough that Alvie can feel his presence. His cane rests idly against the couch for the time being, abandoned in favor of something that almost resembles concern.

"You want to know how I know you won’t? Because you told me, just now, that you wanted to live. People like you and me don’t say that lightly. We don’t even think it unless we mean it."

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The question cut deep. Even though it basically repeated the words Alvie just said. The questioning felt like a flaying of his soul as a means to reprimand the deepest, darkest crevasses of his broken spirit.

"You don't. You... you just have seen a sliver of my life. Glimmers in the darkness, hyped up on mania and undiagnosed ADHD," he replied, sniffing. "Not so much undiagnosed now, but unable to do much about it."

It was close to the time he had been taking the medications. Without the support, thoughts already started jumbling. How to keep everything organized? How to keep going into a manic or depressive state? How to keep from going and doing something really, f-ing stupid?

"But, you don't know the medicated me. Not, the me that actually gave half a shit about my future and was trying. I was trying, Doc. I was trying so damn hard and they derailed me," Alvie admitted. "And I'm so pissed. They betrayed me. They took advantage of me. They....they hurt me."

Jaw so tight it quivered. "And before the ward.... I did stupid stuff to myself. You didn't see that. I...I was mid in the ward. I wasn't my worst. I sure wasn't my best. But.... things got bad," he admitted. "So, how am I gonna keep from going there again?"

He jumped to his feet. Nervous energy pent up from just kneeling for too long. He needed to move. He needed to pace. So he did. "And I was warned," he continued. "Some of those meds I can't just quit cold turkey. Seizures, twitches, psychosis. I don't know about you but that doesn't sound like a party I want to be part of and I don't have anything."

#hartlines #house x alvie #tw: mental illness #tw: withdrawls

astormofagirl12

Maria grinned, every intention of going through each little thing she'd packed up when she noticed the way Brody waivered when he stood. Her brows furrowed a slightly frown marring the blondes features as she finally closed the distance between them.

It took her a moment to set the box down and once she did, Maria lifted a hand brushing a long stray curl out of her face. Her head angled to the side as she looked him over, "The holiday was nice," she offered finally taking in the lighting at his words.

"No problem...Brody, are you alright? You look a little pale." She reached out allowing her fingers to brush against his arm. "Tired?" She questioned figuring the whole trip to the hospital with his daughter must have been a lot.

Then again little Sydny should be better now since Max and Michel's little debacle...which should have had Brody in high spirits but Maria wasn't exactly seeing that in him at the moment.

rawbutprecious

Brody tended to be on high alert. Ever since his abduction well over a decade ago, he paid attention to everything happening around him in attempts to feel safe. With that hyper-vigilance, the Brit noticed Maria's expression change. Worry replaced jubilation. She already was putting the pieces together.

As she left the box onto the table, he supported it. Giving it a bit of a lift, he eased it onto the tabletop. And then he studied her with an arched eyebrow and pursed lips. "Only nice? It would've been dreadful if that's all you can muster," he jested. "You spent forty-five minutes on a new menu item at The Crashdown. Five seconds just is not like you Maria DeLuca."

There was the question. He suppressed a sigh while pondering telling the truth or telling a lie. This was news he was not ready to face. Speaking about it would make it real. Not that the news wasn't real. It was just easier to ignore when he kept it to himself. However, Brody didn't want to lie to Maria.

He shook his head. That was the start of his answer. "No, Maria. I'm not alright. I'm not all right at all," he said, swallowing hard enough to make his adam's apple bob. "My cancer's back. It's aggressive. But it's bad. I don't have most the answers. My oncologist called me on Christmas Day. It's never good when they do that. I...I haven't told anyone, but you. I haven't told my family or my daughter. I don't even know how to tell her. "

#astormofagirl12 #maria x brody #tw: cancer #tw: illness

This was the first vacation Alice had taken in quite some time. She believes this is one of the most glorious of places to visit, although this was the first time she had visited this beach. The sandy shore stretched for miles with the sun beaming down. Those rays sent the waves sparkling like diamonds. Alice had found herself sitting out on a boulder for a considerable amount of time (the majority of the day). When she had not watched the waves, she watched the people frolic too and fro while having grand moments of palaver.

It was a glorious time, although she did not reapply sunscreen. Her face ended up turning beet red as if she had a continuous blush. Her shoulders stung a bit as well due them also being sunburnt; she’d been wearing a tank top. Now though, she wore a gauzy cream-colored dress that covered her shoulders. This light and airy dress kept her cool. Even though it was just midnight, it was still sweltering.

Alice finally tired of sitting in her spot. She stood and wandered down the beach. In the distance, lightning flashed. Thunder grumbled but it was so far away that the storm would not be here for awhile. She did like watching ht clouds roll in and out and so, the shop owner plopped down and started to fiddle with the damp sand. She pressed them into walls and found a few sticks to stick here and there to represent flags.

Satisfied with the work, which was sloppy and wonky as she had been more focused on the far-off lightning and thunder, Alice stood and dusted herself off. The sand stuck to her dress. She looked around and then shrugged, took a run and jumped into the water.

Alice gasped and giggled before diving under the water. Her head breached the water as she paddled about. Her reddish hair stuck to her neck and her dress stuck to her form. Alice closed her eyes and allowed herself to lean back and float. This was heaven! Hearing a noise, she righted herself and looked around. “Hullo?” she called, continuing to paddle. “Anyone there?”

#open tag #open thread #open starter #original character #rpg #roleplay #slice of life roleplay #fandom roleplay

i! My name’s Kay (they/she pronouns with EST timezone). I saw your post in the search and thought I'd reach out. I’m 38. I'm a doctorate student in education. I have four dogs and five cats and a parrot. Also, I have been rping for 25 years.

I'm looking to explore a slice-of-life, long-term lgbtqia+ romance (either WLW or NBxF) on a cozy jcink forum (that is very accepting and welcoming of lgbtqia characters and people).

What I offer: cheerleading and support, random messages just checking in to see how you’re doing, gifs and videos related to our ship, lots of plots, pictures of my pets and nature, and a love of writing and plot development.

My character’s name is Alice (sweet, shy, and loyal; bisexual; has 6 siblings). She’s a 28-year-old bookshop owner who can’t get a special someone out of her head. She is shy but friendly. She loves pastels, building tiny doll houses, music, dancing in the living room, Jane Austen books, tea, and having a lot of plants. If you would like to read her full profile, head over here. She even has a dating profile and want ad. I am also on the hunt for family members.

Below is a video that has brought me a lot of inspiration and I hope you like it too.

If you have questions or would like to plot, please DM me here or message me on discord at kaydrew86.

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iminlovewithmybentley

WARNING: GOOD OMENS 3 SPOILERS (somewhat)!!!!

THIS

FUCKING

MUG

IS

CONSUMING

MY

DAYS

THE INITIALS IN THE TREE?!

(Potentially the number 100?)

THE APPLE TREE? "IT STARTS AS IT WILL END IN A GARDEN"?!?!?!??!?!

"WE'VE COME TO A DECISION"

I BET YOU HAVE.

WHAT DECISION?

TELL ME

DROP YOUR THEORIES

ITS BEEN LIKE 2 DAYS AND IM LOSING MY MIND

SO MANY QUESTIONS TOO MUCH TIME TO WAIT

rawbutprecious

What is written in the top of the threes? I see something underneath the red and green.

#good omens 3 #good omens #good omens spoilers

memedetonator

💥 ― Send '✍️' and the mun will write an IC post for a character they've been wanting to write/try out.

(Alternatively, send "character try-outs!" if you cannot see the emoji.)

#meme #memes #askbox meme #please send #please specify muse

anxiety - katniss intertwines her fingers with finnick's to ground him (prompt) / @a-hundred-undeserving-lifetimes

Finnick clung to Katniss's hands as if for dear life. The color drained from his face. His brows and lips had puckered in a silent scream. Sweat beaded around his hairline and coated his body.

"I can't... I can't go in there," he finally managed to say, realizing that there'd been a group of surrounding them. They gawked and whispered and pointed. How much of a scene was he causing? It had to be a lot.

He knew that one sentence didn't explain anything. He knew even he couldn't explain it all. Finnick had to try. He spotted Cinna mulling around, but was heading in his and Katniss's direction. A very worried expressions crossed Cinna's face.

"I...I have been a prostitute for most of my life. Cinna tried to rescue me. He put a bid in, but lost. He was going to protect me. I didn't have to do anything I didn't want to."

He stopped and scrunched his eyes closed as the memories came back. "So, uh, I got bought and they made their own rules. They showed me off. They allowed their friends to do whatever they wanted to do to to to me. I just.... I had to take it."

The tears fell down his face. "Anything you could imagine they did it. Sometimes was they did was things I didn't imagine," he continued. "I wasn't ready to face all this. I wasn't ready to face the people wanted."

His fingers dug into her palm and his whole body shook from fear. "It's been a long time setting it up. "They'd take me home or to a party or wherever they were headed," he whispered. "They'd strip me. They'd rub me with oils. They'd .... I don't even want to say the name it was so good. After that we'd have sex."

He shook his head as he watched some of the socialite statue. "I sometimes have nightmares over it. It feels so very wrong," he whispered as the women came , "And now I am going to have to be around them for a couple hours. I don't think I can. I see them and I can feel their touch and smell their breath. It was a waking nightmare. I don't know I can broken."

#mockingjayriszen #katiness x finnick #tw: prostitution #tw: mental health #tw: anxiety

dearly held" ( @bluebellestorybrooke , Belle to Rumple around the start of s2 )

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Mr. Gold held tight to Belle. He'd been surprised at her hug, but he went with it. If it gave her comfort, he would give it. "Are you okay?" he whispered, stroking her hair. "I've got you, dearie."

#bluebellestorybrooke #belle x gold

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⭐

( @bluebellestorybrooke )

from here

Emma

Neal

Rumplestiltskin

Robin Hood

Gideon

Tilly

#bluebellestorybrooke

✿ ( @bluebellestorybrooke , from Belle to Gold)

A thought about them that they’d never share: 'You are the prettiest person I've ever seen.'

First impression of them: Too stubborn

Favorite thing about them: Her stubbornness

Least favorite thing about them: That she apologizes too much.

Hopes for their future relationship: He wants to go all the way but is afraid of messing it up.

#bluebellestorybrooke

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