anxiety - katniss intertwines her fingers with finnick's to ground him (prompt) / @a-hundred-undeserving-lifetimes
Finnick clung to Katniss's hands as if for dear life. The color drained from his face. His brows and lips had puckered in a silent scream. Sweat beaded around his hairline and coated his body.
"I can't... I can't go in there," he finally managed to say, realizing that there'd been a group of surrounding them. They gawked and whispered and pointed. How much of a scene was he causing? It had to be a lot.
He knew that one sentence didn't explain anything. He knew even he couldn't explain it all. Finnick had to try. He spotted Cinna mulling around, but was heading in his and Katniss's direction. A very worried expressions crossed Cinna's face.
"I...I have been a prostitute for most of my life. Cinna tried to rescue me. He put a bid in, but lost. He was going to protect me. I didn't have to do anything I didn't want to."
He stopped and scrunched his eyes closed as the memories came back. "So, uh, I got bought and they made their own rules. They showed me off. They allowed their friends to do whatever they wanted to do to to to me. I just.... I had to take it."
The tears fell down his face. "Anything you could imagine they did it. Sometimes was they did was things I didn't imagine," he continued. "I wasn't ready to face all this. I wasn't ready to face the people wanted."
His fingers dug into her palm and his whole body shook from fear. "It's been a long time setting it up. "They'd take me home or to a party or wherever they were headed," he whispered. "They'd strip me. They'd rub me with oils. They'd .... I don't even want to say the name it was so good. After that we'd have sex."
He shook his head as he watched some of the socialite statue. "I sometimes have nightmares over it. It feels so very wrong," he whispered as the women came , "And now I am going to have to be around them for a couple hours. I don't think I can. I see them and I can feel their touch and smell their breath. It was a waking nightmare. I don't know I can broken."
