This is Quite long. But I would appreciate if you would listen to my rants and to my last Goodbye
Hi! This is unusual but well let me tell you my story I was 10 Years old, back then i was just reading fairytales and Believing every stories ended with a happily ever after. I was also Fond of playing games Specially on our computer. That was when I stumbled into Kpop. I Was Actually Quite Weirded(?) at the fact that i was playing a game wherein the song was all in Korean and since i was so bored and i have nothing to play with i just Continued. Some of the songs are so catchy and I got hooked up. I remembered the songs Hot Issue by 4minute and Black and White by G.Na. i started listening to it. Searching and playing music here and there. Fast forward I Became a fan I was Actually Addicted at some point. 2012 when The Boys by Girls Generation was Released and that Was like a Path Where in i expanded my Knowledge About Korean Pop. I decided to Know more about their culture i Tried learning their language and their Form of writing to the point wherein my classmates Started to tease me about This Addiction that i have. They all started calling ne Kpop, korean Gay Sh*t, And All they think of me is a Kpop-centered-narrowminded-girl. They're all saying things like "Kpop Again?" "Hey Kpop" "Kpop for gays" "All you kmow is kpop" thinhs like that. But i let it slide simce what can I Do? At the age of 12 i just did nothing for Its all true. Fast forward 1st year high school (Grade 7) i didnt transferred schools and I kust continued attending and Studying but that doesnt change the fact That Im Still a fan. There was a new Student, She was also a Fan so I Befriended her. I causally talk to her and We spazzed at some time. We Danced and sang. Some of the guys also Teased her but all we did was ignore it since its just a tease. Next school year We became classmates again. This was one of my most hardcore famgirling year, 2013. This Year I became really obsessed that i hardly study and all i did was fangirl. My friends talked about it and I just didnt listen. My grades dropped but that didnt stopped me. It was my 3rd yr in high school and People just change. My Friend Became really Distant and that was also the turning point of my friend. It was like she woke up one day and decided to not fangirl anymore. But i just continued. I still dance and sang my heart out. 4th year came, but this time I Get offended when they call me Kpop or what so ever. I realized I got so into kpop that i neglected my responsibilities. So i Studied hard. I always got teased and bullied for being a fan. They were always saying that i dont even Understand every lyrics. That kpop Artists dont even know if i exist. But I just go with the flow. I never really had a boyfriend or what so ever. I just have my circle of friends with me. But still alot of people are thinking i am too obssessed in kpop. At some ppint i agree for i am. But I just wanted to Tell people That were saying i only know kpop cause no. I am a human too. I dont think of kpop all the time. But you what i am thinking all the time? It is on how to change of what others think of me. They Think I Am not striving hard enough. They think i am not studying. They think that all i think is kpop which is mot true. And what irks me is that Even My Parents my Families Rhink the same too. I Cant voice out for they thought i was just ranting out Nonsense Things. I cant Say I Am Offended for they will think I shouldnt be offended for it is true. I couldnt let out my frustrations and my Stresses for they think its just so-so. I studied hard and I passed on the exam i took on my dream university. I Met woth new people hang out with them but then I Am Afraid. Afraid they will think the same I am afraid of trusting new people. I am afraid of being judged. I am afraid they will neglect me. There Was also A time where my Mom Spoke to me And Let me choose. Its either my dad or Kpop. She said Thay I should just Give up on Kpop for it will do nothing better for me. I was left with no choice. So for the last months I Was doing What I wanted. kpop here and there. Cause that's what Makes me happy. I decided i Should Just Drop it. It became Part of my life. It was my comfort zone. It is a different world. It is my stress reliever. It is one of my inspirations. But it will all be gone for the sake of the happiness of my Mother. This Might Be My last post For this Blog. I am thankful for everything. I still have 4 days to be exact before I will Officialy end my Journey. I am an ordinary fan. And Will always be an ordinary fan. For the 6 years of listening to Korean Pop. I learned alot of things. I became independent. Even though i was never lucky to have a chat or to earn a reply from you. I was always grateful. Thank you even though you never met me. Thank you even though you never paid attention to me. But remember i was an ordinary fan and will alwaus be an ordinary fan. Now I learned Not All story Does have a Happily Ever After. I had met A lot of groups and i was beyond grateful for They were my Stress reliever. And they are also my inspiration. Always Remember. I was Once a Carat Lovelynus I Got7 Perfection I Am BlackJack Hottest 4NIA Sweet Voice Pink Panda Play Girlz Aileeans Elvis BANA B2UTY Baby V.I.P. BBC Jumping BoA Bestfriend Royal Family Everlasting Melody A.R.M.Y Boice Darling Cassiopeia L.E.G.O EXO-L Let⭐s Primadonna 미유 (MeU) DAI5Y S♥ne G.NI Hello Cupid Inspirit Uaena Jewel Box Banila Kamilia Lavely Love Beat L.E.D.A A+ Say A MUSE Mine L.O.Λ.E Rain-nous SECRETTIME 샤이니월드 신화창조 스타1 DEEPS Mercury Triple S H:LLËR E.L.F QUEEN’S 2wings Angel MINI-ME Kiss Me ST☆RLIGHT Inner Circle Wonderful ZE:A Style Buddy Monbebe And a lot many more. They will all Be part of me and my Memories. Please do Support these groups. I love them all dearly. They are all talented! They all deserve and attention. Please Love them as much as i love them. This may be last note to them. And all i can say to them is Thank You For Being part of My life. Ive done my Part. Please Sprwad love and peace. RantsOfStudentFangirl Signing off
