mustard girl

i got a kitten for my birthday this month.

you neglect me sexually and romantically, jerk off to porn and then get mad with me when I even hint at being upset.

why is it MY fault that you do suspicions things and then it’s not hard for me to put together the pieces; you’re making me crave being wanted.

the overwhelming need to be sexualized and used, the craving of wanting to be desired; life without your pleasure is meaningless and I am useless unless I can give it to you.

i can’t say this is unfamiliar, i lost this uphill battle many years ago before i even knew there was a war; betrayed by the people who held the most power.

so the hurt isn’t new, the needing to be needed isn’t new either; I just want to be enough, I want to feel what it’s like to be enough.

that’s all, I’ll do anything, I’ll be anything you want just please say I’m enough.

please let me be enough for you..