Past and Future Diary
Remember the day when we first met
After all those years of school and stress
I was looking at you amazed and obsessed
You were my first crush how could I ever forget
Remember the time, when I stole a kiss
We we’re riding a bus, and you tried to sleep
I kissed your cheek, and felt like a creep
And I got so nervous that you might be pissed
But instead we felt a bliss
Like a huge leap to broad daylight from a nightmare
I know you hate Claire, and that is unfair
She’s my childhood friend but it ends there
Remember the special days, where I always fail to surprise you
No, I don’t despise you, I just can’t afford a thing even if I want to
I know I always disappoint you, but I’m just being true
But you still hang on to me like my mom always do
You never leave me when I’m lonely
You always listen to my stories
I always give you stress and worries
Especially when I’m drunk, fucked up and can’t find my door keys
Oh wait, I actually made this poem drunk
And also memorized it while I’m drunk
Sitting on the chair as I write like Violet Evergarden
Have emotions but can’t express it to avoid regression
Remember the time, when your father cheated
You we’re so sad and hoped he’s apprehended
I will never do that it makes me disgusted
It can be forgiven but is forever injected
But when It comes to alcohol, me, my bio father, your father
Are just the same, sometimes I’m like my father I hate to be bothered?
That’s why he left me and mom just to get himself watered
Binge drinking is an act which puts you and your love ones in danger,
So, avoid it as much as possible before your love ones become a stranger
I’m sorry about my alcoholism
It’s really going fast like my metabolism
Believe me or not I’m really cutting this addiction
So that our future together will have a huge extension
I’m sorry, I will now hear your stories
I was always selfish and ignored your queries
Please forgive me now let me hear your silent voice
Just the way we used to be before listening became a choice
Remember the day when we first dated, it made us felt excited and accepted
And I’m not going to let it reach end just because we find it hard to blend
From dating till marriage, and death, we will always be connected until the very end
And this is my poetry I wish you interpret
