Good Girl, Bad Attitude

Hayley Williams on the lyrics of “Simmer”:

“A while ago I went to this cranial sacral masseuse. I was laying on her table and I started having these weirdly creepy visions of flowers growing out of me. And not in a kind of beautiful way, it was kind of painful and very grotesque. But I kinda realized in that moment that there was a lot that was trying to grow out of me but it was gonna hurt to do it.

And I think for me it’s somewhat of a mantra to try to stay soft in a really really hard world. And feel pain and feel everything, like let all of it come to you and try to put out something that can redeem it all, even if it’s ugly at first.

Aries: TRASH COMPLETE TRASH. He used to be really sweet and was pretty much the king of cute guys two years ago, but now he thinks being a jerk that only talks about having sex with his girlfriend is cool. IT'S NOT FYI

Taurus: Really chill and funny, but he gets randomly depressed at times and it makes me sad because this dude deserves to be happy.

Gemini: Great fashion sense and he always keeps it 100 percent, nothing more and nothing less. He's honestly one of my favorite people, but we don't hang out much these days. Hmm... sad.

Cancer: ALSO TRASH. Passive-aggressive and annoying. He doesn't like to look at himself as the problem and just blaming everything on other people. [Micheal Jordan voice] Stop it, get some help.

Leo: ANNOYING AND LOUD. Breaks up friendships too because some people (me) become super petty and annoyed when this person is around that they (me) have to stop talking to one of their best friends for a whole year.

Virgo: Comes across as really strange and probably has some weird fetishes, but he's nice so yeah.

Libra: Pretentious and douchey. Everyone seems to like this dude for some reason though. I can see why people do sometimes, but then he just does something and I HATE HIM AGAIN. He might be really successful in the future though.

Scorpio: Video game nerd, but not smart nerd, ya know? He gets a new crush every other week and has probably liked all my friends at some point in time. But he's super nice and gave me candy once so I'm not a hater.

Sagittarius: SUPER FUNNY AND SMART. But always seems to have a crush on someone and it's just sad seeing him try to flirt. I cringe as I type.

Capricorn: I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, HE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE (even though he doesn't know I exist oops). HE'S SO TALENTED AND SEXY I COULD DIE. But he seems to not think before he speaks (or tweets in this case) and it makes me sad. (Me: Doesn't know any Capricorn guys, so I write about my celebrity crush lolol)

Aquarius: He's probably always high or drunk. BUT still pretty cool... in small doses. If I had to spend more than an hour with this dude I'd probably die.

"I know it's your first time taking it, but whatever you do, don't look in the mirror"

Curiosity lead me to do so, as I stood there staring into my own reflection, I saw glimpses of my past. My eyes dilated to it's fullest, the black pupils started to grow larger to the point my eyes looked like they were gouged out and all was left was black voids. My skin became pale, a cold aura appeared over me.

My face morphed and disfigured, my facial piercings looked like someone took a nail gun to my mouth. As I stared into those black endless voids of mine that replaced my eyes, it outlined every little imperfection of myself.

from that moment I realized that I wasn't proud of who I am and what I have done in the past.