give yourself the same compassion you’d give a close friend going through the same thing. you deserve it just as much as they do

my mind hand touched a hot memory stove

hate hate hate hate hate the fact that while cognitively i in all cases prefer loneliness and will always abstain from human contact because i loathe it there is still the fact that despite everything i am a human being in need of connection with other human beings and that it does mess with me on a level i can't see and therefore can't control which also messes with me because how dare there be aspects of my self that remain unknown to me and therefore not malleable and instead susceptible to unconscious change