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sorry no posts meryl isnt fronting anymore and we are having a bit of a tough time, go give love to ame instead of us please as she is who you probably found me from and ofcourse is much more talented

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Hi moot, how are you?
not the best sadly... how are you?
Im ok, sorry for not interacting a lot
its ok oomf!!!
Hi moot, how are you?
not the best sadly... how are you?
a lot of people refuse to talk about their more untrustworthy symptoms, but my main goal is to let you all know that these things don’t make you bad, it’s how society perceives it. So, since you all like me, I’ll be sharing some of mine. <3
I over-exaggerate things that happen for attention (HPD)
I pretend to be more medicated/out of it than I am to be taken care of (DPD)
I view many people as temporary funnels for attention if they feel untrustworthy to me (CPTSD and HPD)
I am unable to let go of close relationships (with fps) and will often watch their activity online to kinda creepy extents to feel like I’m still in their life (BPD + DPD)
that being said, the most important thing is how you treat people. There are people who still love me for who I am, and there will be people for all of you, too.
people only want to see the sides of mental illness they can romanticize. when i don’t get out of bed for almost a full day it’s suddenly not cute anymore.
but you will always be cute no matter what baby♡ ill be in bed with you to look after you even on your worst days. because i love even the "unloveable" sides to you, as controversial as they may be. you are so so so so so so so so so si si sksoeoep3p3wpww SO fucking anazinf abd i love yku and your gorgeous voics and your beautiful smile and your angelic singing and your wonderful personality. i love every last bit ofyou my darling~~

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hi baby hi baby hi baby hi baby hi baby i love you hi baby hi lovely. mwah mwah mwah. kiss. i love you. hi baby hi baby h
hie my beautiful girl♡ i missed you so bad :(( i loooove you~~ love u soo so much~~~~~~~ ame my gorgeous i love you love you love you love you love you love you
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HELLFUCKIGN YEAHH
bitches with bpd be like : are you mad at me??? (worrisome)
bitches with npd be like : are you mad at *me*?? (accusatory)
bitches with aspd be like : Are you mad at me? (curious)
bitches with hpd be like : omg are you mad at meeeee (teasing)
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pupychu more like lavie chu
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HPD Attachment Roles
(from the community to describe certain experiences since FP is BPD exclusive)
• Attention Person (ATP/AP): Someone whose attention feels especially meaningful, intense, or “superior.” The pwHPD may become deeply attached to them, even with minimal interaction, because their validation hits harder or fills their emotional need for attention more efficiently. Often meaning their attention is highly prioritized.
• Spotlight Person (SLP): Someone the pwHPD deems worthy of sharing their attention or “spotlight” with. This person is considered important enough to be included in the pwHPD’s social presence or performance.
• Attentive Person (ANP): A person who provides consistent attention to the pwHPD. Their attention may not be seen as superior, but it is reliable and fulfilling, helping the pwHPD maintain emotional balance.
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hashtag never unmasking again, rereading that shit i sound like a self-centred jerk. i think its importanr to note that this is me when UNMASKED; im so much kinder when putting on a performance because i do care if people hate me, too much in fact. posting rhis is like the ultimate vulnerability and if i recieve backlash i may have to kill myself.
if it makes you feel better, i have all of those exact same symptoms, as well as being theatrical. if people preach awareness but get mad at you for the symptoms, even as you’re one of the sweetest people ever, they are not true mental health advocates. i have the same fears of being judged, but i promise, if you think i’m a good person, you are not bad for these things. stay safe, love. <3
🥹🥹🩷 love u
hashtag never unmasking again, rereading that shit i sound like a self-centred jerk. i think its importanr to note that this is me when UNMASKED; im so much kinder when putting on a performance because i do care if people hate me, too much in fact. posting rhis is like the ultimate vulnerability and if i recieve backlash i may have to kill myself.
What a lot of people fail to realise about Histrionic Personality Disorder is that there's more than one look to it. Everyone is so used to the theatrical type when in many cases it presents entirely differently; an example of this being myself.
Today's ramble: Disingenuous HPD
TW: unmasked and honest
This topic is one I present passionately, I love informing people on disorders (like HPD) with very little awareness, and of course because of such a lack of resources I will be linking all the websites I used to back up what I'm saying. Also an important thing to note: I am by no means a professional on this topic and I urge you to do your own research if you wish to better understand individuals with Histrionic Personality Disorder (especially if this is the first time you've heard of it).
I plan to start this off by explaining Theodore Millon's personality theory regarding HPD, where he describes the disingenuous subtype and the behaviour patterns linked to it. The way it's depicted is as 'decietful' and 'contriving', quite similarly to ASPD in diagnostic criteria and anyone who were to go off this alone might assume it probably is just Antisocial Personality Disorder, however, that isn't the case at all.
Disingenuous HPD — for me — is more than just lies and masking, it's desperate need to feel seen while struggling to hold others on the same pedestal I expect them to hold me on. I struggle to form long-lasting relationships due to near-constant boredom and need for supply, so if somebody fails to meet the expectations I have of them it's very easy for me to discard them without a care. Only one relationship in my whole life has felt fully genuine because of this, and most come and go within less than a week.
With HPD a common experience is fleeting connections where you believe you are the closest person in their life, only to get dissapointed when you realise you overestimated how much they valued you, and for me this presents a little bit different but more or less the same! Fleeting connections are a thing for me and I do experience overestimating how much someone values me, but it feels more one-sided where I'm convinced I'm the only person in their life/ all that they care about whilst I have very little to no care for them. The dissapointment when realising they don't consider me as the closest person in their life usually leads to ghosting or lashing out at them.
Which leads on to the next point!
One of my biggest struggles is being overly argumentitive and starting unnecessary drama over small things. I got dubbed a drama queen many times for these tendencies, and it usually is the reason for my friendships burning to the ground.
While it's something major enough to ruin my life, it's one of the hardest habits to quit. This usually looks like poking at someones boundaries, or calling them a shit friend and listing a million reasons why they dissapoint me. Both usually get the supply I'm looking for, but at the other person's expense.
Another big thing for me is filler friends. I have so many people I consider to be like dolls on a shelf for me to take pity on and play with for a while, to give me supply and them the false idea that I reach out because I care and like spending time with them. My current filler friends are mostly IRL's as people online I connect much easier with and can consider more or less close.
I have so much more to say on this but I hate unmasking in spaces like tumblr with disgusting people lurking, just waiting for the perfect opportunity to post someone on r/cringe. If enough people are interested in what I have to say, I might make a continuation of this rant.
Hi
Dont use narcissist as a replacement for calling someone an asshole
you pmo
parallels in musicals: featuring the song “cabaret” from cabaret!
as many people know, cabaret is about the rise of naziism in germany. the story follows a cast of characters, all trying to find their way in life pre-war. but in this rant, we will be focusing on a specific character: sally bowles. she had previously decided to have a baby with clifford, to start her life of finally being chosen and loved. but a problem occurs when cliff doesn’t want to tolerate the horribleness of rising naziism and tries to get sally to leave the country with him. she thinks he is being selfish because he knows she was just offered to sing at the kit kat club. she thinks that if she ignores the problem, it won’t damage her life, which she wants to live to the fullest.
this soon leads to the song “cabaret.” as shown earlier in the musical, the cabaret songs are supposed to be a representation of the character’s internal thoughts and flaws. my second favorite example is a tad later and is called “i don’t care much.” it is sung by the emcee and is sung to show the devastating reality that some people would rather ignore the problems in the world, which will ruin more aspects of their lives and their relationships than they may first imagine, depicting them as somewhat unreliable and fake.
a few key things before talking about the song “cabaret” is some background knowledge. it is later revealed that she aborted had the baby before the song, which ties into the desperation and emotion of it all.
she starts the song by singing about how “life is a cabaret” and telling to audience to escape the real world and go there to escape their boring, depressing, imperfect lives. this is a parallel to her thinking she should ignore the rising idea of naziism around her, and thinking she can ignore it if she just “pushes it away.” she seems slightly distraught, which contradicts the happy tone and composition of the song.
as the song goes on, she starts to sing about an old friend of hers, elsie. she sings about how she was a druggie, how her life was out of control and how she was a party animal. but in the end, elsie died happy. sally sings about how that is the driving inspiration for her life, and how when she goes, “she’s going like elsie.” this is her basically admitting, “i want to die ignorant, but happy.”
but then, the mood flips. it’s less obvious in the album, but in most live performances, her facade of happiness breaks. she sings about how you need to admit life is short, and enjoy it while you can, but she is mid-breakdown while singing it. she is likely conflicted, due to her throwing away her potential life with cliff (who she thought would finally be the person to stay with her,) her having the abortion, and the fact that she knows deep down that she is making the insensitive and wrong choice.
she ends the song by belting and straining, “and i love a cabaret!” it’s like she’s trying to convince herself she made the right choice, even during her mental breakdown, as it’s too late for her to turn back now, in her eyes. it’s a scary sight to witness, even in recording, as it means so much in the historical context. so many people ignored the rising issue of naziism for way too long because they thought they wouldn’t go after them or their loved ones. this proved wrong, as the nazis started targeting more and more people, and it became terribly violent and devastating worldwide, as everyone knows now.

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i love @hpdamechan so much i might explode. thats my most cherished angel, i keep living for you and if you asked id die for you
this is also a good time to mention that my old profile was made by this cutie. please go give some love!!