im sleepy

Just saw my doctor type "FUCKED FOR LIFE" on my chart then he turned the screen away and stopped making eye contact with me

i think a lot of people HAVE already done the reframing from self-discipline by rigid rules -> what's actually making the task hard for me and why do i want to do it anyway like i don't think this is a thought process most people are unfamiliar with. the problem is that often the answer is i actually DON'T want to do the task, it does nothing for me and is required as part of an ongoing process of economic extraction and political oppression that i am forced to live through and would truly rather not. and this is a pretty bleak thing to think and often it's more self-soothing in a certain way to fall back on the narrative of individual pathological failure: i have a diseased will, i must beat it into submission

Straight and gay men regularly sexually abuse trans women because they only see us as body parts. It's not okay to joke about homo- and transphobic politicians secretly liking us. The dehumanization and rape of trans women is not a punchline.

Ngl I totally forgot fandom discourse was a thing. I don’t care man, I have car payments

Being a manager has honestly been great for my social anxiety bc I don’t even care like I barely even get anxious anymore I just find it annoying atp but whatever cuz I get paid to stand there and not care and they have to throw a fit for free