Out of my beautiful mind

it's so fucking bittersweet to be a directioner who joined when the band was together but went immediately to the hiatus and a phannie who joined post their hiatus. like i didn't actually live through the dnp hiatus so it didn't "hurt" me but it ended in the most beautiful way with them coming back healed and full of life and having therapy sessions about it with their audience meanwhile 1d will never come back because there is a secret relationship and horrible animosities among the members and the person who was gluing the mess together literally died. so as a phannie i'm so so happy about where we are now, i'm so incredibly proud of dan and phil and healing journey they got to go on together with their audience but at the same time it makes being a directioner/larrie so much more painful because the phandom got literally everything we ever wanted and more.

phannie larrie found deceased in her apartment after simultaneous pinof kiss confirmation and harry singing sweet creature and mentioning ot5 in big 2026

there's gonna be a week in october when dan and phil, harry and louis are all on tour and i cannot wait to see my dash. as a larrie phannie in 2026 i am being fed and i love my life