EDAN

no i cant just get over my anxiety, ive tried but I dont control my body my brain does and my brain has decided that I cant be independent because what if I do something wrong and making phone calls to strangers is scary because what if they ask me questions I dont know the answers to and what if I get yelled at and no I cant drive because I cant fucking see well and my brain I swear is slower to process what im seeing and I am not good at directions and I am always second guessing myself and I can be easily distracted because I also have adhd and I may not understand all the driving cues because im also autistic so yeah im a 24 year old anxious, traumatized and audhd adult who will never be independent and when my dad and stepmom die im basically fucked and there's nothing I can do about it the only independent thing about me is that I have a job as a housekeeper at the same place my dad works so he drives me there. im so so fucked in life and its so easy to say get over it but ive tried reminding myself that there's nothing to be anxious about and that I no longer live with the man who assaulted me and always yelled at us (me and my younger brother and our mom) but trauma and anxiety and adhd and autism don't exactly give a fuck. I may be sentient but im not in control.

I may need to revoke my lesboy label now that im a confirmed aroficto (aromantic + fictosexual) i also want a flag thats for aromantic fictosexuals like how we have the aroace flag but specifically for arofictos