stu(dying)

Monday, May 15, 2023

late june - early july snapshots // currently playing: Gaël Faye - Taxiphone

i am now more than halfway done with my summer internship, and it makes me a bit sad. i'm really enjoying the work i've been doing and the routine it has allowed me to have; having responsibilities, deadlines, and a set schedule has really helped me maintain somewhat stable mental health. i hope i can maintain a routine once the school year starts, hopefully that'll make this academic year better than the last.

on a lighter note, eugene got all his kitty vaccines and the vet called him lovely!

i hope your summer (or winter for those in the southern hemisphere) is going well :)

currently reading: Six of Crows - Leigh Bardugo

some 'energy givers' for the new year :

glasses of water, sunlight, nourishing food - remember that you're just a plant with more complicated feelings!

reading, music, creativity, writing and setting intentions - things that'll cure the feeling of 'being alive but not living'.

being a perisex woman or a perisex man isn't a medical condition and neither is being intersex. when our intersex conditions cause other health complications it is not because we are intersex, it is because of a medical condition associated with being intersex.

a person with a uterus who has endometriosis isn't experiencing a symptom of having a uterus they are experiencing endometriosis.

intersex bodies are heavily medicalized. they are treated as problems that need to be solved, but being intersex isn't a medical condition. we don't need to be diagnosed and forced through "treatment" to make us as close to perisex as possible, we need support, awareness, and acceptance.

And that’s the thing. A lot of these zoomers are mentally stuck in high school and think teachers aren’t people and have no lives of their own outside the classroom, so they should have to bend over backwards to accommodate students who feel like they have no obligation to meet the requirements of courses they signed up for. It’s the same thing when students are outraged that they face penalties for missing deadlines (when they don’t have accommodations from the university for a disability, of course), but teachers don’t make deadlines because they hate students, it’s because they have deadlines, too, and need to have the assignments turned in to give students grades! You don’t have deadlines because your teacher is a bitch, you have deadlines because that’s how the adult world works, and it doesn’t revolve around you.

Some of these zoomers even lie to get out of their responsibilities, too. Recently, again, a student emailed my mom like “oh I’m late to your class every day because I have a class before that, which ends in the first 5 minutes of your class, and my professor won’t let me leave early :(” And my mom was like, “….The university’s computer system literally would not let you register for a class with a scheduling conflict like that. I double-checked this with the head of the department.” And then the student got real quiet 🤡

Some people are just dicks, of course, but my mom thinks the increase in this behavior is from the pandemic. Her colleagues have been lamenting similar behavior in their classes, too, like students refusing to turn on their cameras for virtual classes and just not doing in-class activities online. They really just sit there with no microphone or camera all class, do nothing all senester, and expect to get full participation points or whatever.

It’s to the point that me and my whole division had a long meeting discussing the sudden influx in immaturity and disrespectful behavior and how best to wrangle it. There’s no pattern or predictable measure for who’s being troublesome—any income, any race, any gender, ALL of those categories have at least two or three individuals that are overwhelmingly destructive and unmindful. The only common factor is that it’s THIS year’s batch—the one fresh out of over two years of pandemic high school.

we saw some of the wildest levels of entitlement from both the parents and students. it was absolutely the kids whose last in school year was in 4th grade, and now they were in school, being expected to do 6th grade work

we have the kids who literally delight in telling teachers oh im gonna get you fired since you wont let me copy from my friends, who lie on teachers saying that we dont offer help, or explain things to them-meanwhile, when you try to sit with them to do the work or explain further, they spend the whole time speaking to their friends or cursing you out for asking them to focus