Priyanshi

Apne aap ke bhi peechhe khada hun main

Zindagi..Kitna dheere chala hun main

Aur mujhe jagaane jo aur bhi haseen hoke aate the

Unn khwabon ko sach samjhkar soya raha hun main

Sometimes you are sitting alone and get tired of scrolling through Instagram, then you suddenly feel like calling a friend, then you open your contact list and while scrolling you reach Z, then the reality hits that there is no one whom I can call and talk to for half an hour.

As we grow up, life becomes private or do we make it private?

But trust me the loneliness that comes because of this privacy starts to eat you up.

Your sailor eyes

The water in the well

A thirst to fill

Let down your arms

The purging of this dark

The fall to free

Beautiful girl

Let the sunrise come again

I heard the case, I analysed it and being a girl I can surely say that it was not just rape and murder, it's a shame to say that we are an Independent country.

Even after 12 years of Nirbhaya Case nothing has changed in this county.

Respect for women is limited to only goddesses and frankly saying I am not sure about that too.

She wasn't wearing obscene clothes, she wasn't giving any hint ohh I am really sorry yes, she was giving hints of being raped because she was on fucking night duty, so what if she was a doctor.

Tell me something

Jab paas rehna ho to pyar, door jana ho to attachment .

Bhoolna itna asaan hai kya?

Agar 2 saal ke baad kisi se baat bandd kardo to bhool jate hain?

Ab ansu bhi nahi aate?

Par dard hota hai andar hi andar kuch khaa raha hai, jaise kahin se koi awaaz aa rahi ho ki ye sirf ek attachment nahi ho sakta.

Pyar hai to nafrat hai, gussa hai, jalan hai wo sab hai jo bura hai because you can't hurt someone you don't love.

Kaise koi insaan sirf 7 dino mein pasand aa gya aur 2 saal baad itni khamiyan nazar aane lagi ki na baat karne ki himmat hai aur na hi kuch samajh ya samjha paane ki.

Kahi kisi se milkar lagta hai ki ye sirf mera rehna chahiye par uska kya jab use tumse behtar koi milega ya tumse behtar koi treat karega tab tum kya kar loge rok loge use, manaoge kya?

Nahi, sirf tab pata chalta hai ki ye pyar hai ya attachment, pyar to nahi jata par attachment chala jata hai.

Jo insaan tumhe change karna chaahe wo pyar nahi hai par jiske liye tum khudme change lana chaho wo pyar hai.

Ek time par jis insaan ke bina har mehfil adhuri lagti ho aur ek din wahi insaan ek problem lagne lag jata hai jaise agar wo aa jaayega to main shayad khulke na reh paaun.

Jis insaan ke sath naam judne ke baat butterflies aate the ab wahi insaan ka naam sunkar ek ajeeb sa darr lagne lagta hai ki ye kahin sab barbad na karde.

Official insecurities bhi badh jaati hai, financial bhi jaise wo insaan saath rehke har cheez bigad dega.

Shayad kisi se door jaane ke liye yahi kuch karan hote ho.

Par kuch aur bhi to hai jo saath la raha tha jahan har jagah sirf ussi ka saath chahiye tha room ho ya working place fir kya hua?

Standards match nahi hote ya image effect ho jaati hai?

Kyu itni insecurities or jalan aa gayi kyu har waqt ek darr laga raha aur jo ek time par pyar tha wo ek formality banke reh gaya.

Ye line bolna asaan hai ki pyar acceptance se aata hai par jab accept karne ki bari aati hai to khamiyan nazar aane lagti hai.

Khudko badalna zaruri hai khudse pyar karna zaruri hai.

Jab ek success ke paas ho aur doosra sirf ek hi ladder par khada ho tab disrespect aati hai tab ek insaan neecha feel karta hai chaahe samne wala na bhi kara raha ho, wo kab kara bhi deta hai ye use bhi nahi pata hota aur tab hi zarurat hoti hai har wo cheez ki jo zaruri hai par maangne se milegi kya?

Ye to pyar ka kaam hai na ki success aur failure ko sahi dhang se samajh paaye.

Jab use kuch mile to aisa lage ki mujhe kuch mila.

Par kyu ye sab sirf ek fiction lagne laga kyu understanding ki jagah tere paas sab kuch to hai aa gaya.

Is it possible to be the most important person in someone's life and then suddenly be completely neglected?

Jab pyaar mein pyaar na ho, Jab dard mein yaar na ho,

Jab aansu mein muskaan na ho, Jab lafzon mein zubaan na ho,

Jab intezaar sirf waqt ka ho, Jab yaad uss kambakht ki ho,

The minimum thing that was required for this relationship was respect and love and we are not able to do that, it doesn't matter who did it first, but it happened.

We supported each other so much, when the world was blaming us, laughing at us, trying its best to separate us and at that time we held each other's hands as if we would never be separated.

It feels different when someone says I feel like home with you and I remember the first time you said that to me.

And now, now what?

Those 7 days in Manali were so special that I thought no matter how much time I spend with this person it will be less but now neither is that person able to understand me nor I am able to understand her.

How is it possible that I do not see any way to set things right, sometimes everything starts to seem like before and sometimes it seems as if everything is over, and every small mistake has turned into a blame or disrespect and then in order to correct that small mistake such a big mistake occurs that it becomes difficult to correct it.

There was a time when seeing each other would bring a smile on our faces and now if something happens then neither of us feel like talking nor looking at each other, the whole night would pass in silence and after remaining silent for a whole day when try to say sorry then disrespect arises.

जाते जाते तुमने, आवाज तो दी होगी

हर वक्त यही है गम, उस वक्त कहां थे हम

कहां तुम चले गए।

हर चीज़ पे अश्कों से, लिखा है तुम्हारा नाम

ये रस्ते घर गलियाँ, तुम्हें कर ना सके सलाम

हाय दिल में रह गई बात, जल्दी से छुड़ा कर हाथ

कहाँ तुम चले गए।

अब यादों के कांटे, इस दिल में चुभते हैं

ना दर्द ठहरता है, ना आंसू रुकते हैं

तुम्हें ढूंढ रहा है प्यार, हम कैसे करें इकरार

I brought you in a big box where you were sitting scared and hidden on one side of the box. I remember when I saw you for the first time, there was a different kind of happiness on my face and that smile was not going away, then I took you out of the box, you dared to cling to me and started going to the back of the car holding my shoulder, I got scared and made you sit back in the box, then we came to our home, it took you 1-2 days to get comfortable, after that you had mingled with us as if you are a part of us.

Playing with you, taking you in my arms as soon as I returned from office and loving you, and especially when you started eating with me, all this was very adorable for me and the day I came to know that you were sick, I was in tears and from that day onwards I have seen you doing every activity so that you don't fall sick and you fought well, the day I left you alone at home and we both had gone to office, that day I was worried about you the whole time but when I opened the door and found you absolutely fine, I was very happy that my child is very brave, at that time you had gone under the bed out of fear, then when I called you, you came to me and started playing.

When your bag arrived, you threw so many tantrums to get into it as if we would hand you over to someone but you became comfortable with that too when you came to know that it was for you to go out with us. The night before you were to leave, you licked me on my cheek for the first time with your rough and small tongue, I liked it a lot and now it seems maybe you were trying to say goodbye to me. Saying goodbye to you is not easy but I don't know why I was feeling weird for a few days and today morning you even came in my dreams, then my eyes opened with a jerk and after some time I came to know that your health has deteriorated, since then I had started feeling that you would leave.

We were talking about that we brought you at the wrong time and we are not even able to take care of you yet, so you thought that you should go away forever so that we don't have to face any problem, but it was not like that, I had made you my responsibility, I would always take care of you, but now that you are no more, I will always keep your little memories close to my heart, you were my first pet who had become like my child and the thought of you going away would immediately make me cry and now I will never be able to see you, if I had known that you were going to go away forever, then I would never have let you go away from me.

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall

I know how you feel sometimes but let me tell you one thing whatever I'm gonna write now is not any sympathy but it is about how I am seeing you growing into a mature woman. You're the strongest woman I have ever seen in my life and that's what makes me love you harder because I have heard my parents struggles too. You have your sacrifices and still you're fighting for appreciation and love from your own mother, I can't even compare that feeling or make you understand it because I don't even know a bit of it because I have my family and they always treated me like a child should be treated but I know family is too important for a kid when your father asks you for money, when your mother gives you more food than you need or when they call and ask you when are you coming to home beta, trust me on this when you were talking about your childhood after your father's demise that how you managed all the things to support your mother in everything, I really felt like the confidence you have it's coming from there only because it's not easy to survive in this world without father and how you built your career and became such a woman that if anyone see you once, they would hesitate to talk to you because of your aura.

I don't know why but I feel like not me and you but the time deserved better behaviour yesterday from us because just for that shitty thing I listened to that old shit again...being angry is ok but to fucking being disrespectful is not so it's better to not try anything now because I literally got tired and I guess you did too. I am not perfect and thinking of yourself as perfect and wasting someone else's time and patience is also not perfection.