It's really awkward to go back to that person who doesn't even care about the moments we spent together. I know there are some problems but I am tired of continuing that old pattern again and again that we go out and fight and to be honest after a long time we went out and it was such a good day but just for a silly thing it's all ruined. I don't know why but sometimes it seems like it's just a waste of time to even try good things. Why do bad memories always overlap?
I don't know why but I feel like not me and you but the time deserved better behaviour yesterday from us because just for that shitty thing I listened to that old shit again...being angry is ok but to fucking being disrespectful is not so it's better to not try anything now because I literally got tired and I guess you did too. I am not perfect and thinking of yourself as perfect and wasting someone else's time and patience is also not perfection.
Before loving someone it's necessary to respect him/her and I don't know about others but I'll definitely work on this first now without saying the worst line of this world that "I deserve better".
