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Yuning Liang (Taiwanese, 1990), Final Glimmers of the Flower, 2022. Acrylic on canvas, 62 x 50 × 5 cm.

i do consider myself a temporarily embarrassed lightning wizard

i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

this is actually like my third or fourth rodeo so i sort of get it but sort of dont

life is just like you embarrass the shit out of yourself and then you die