been dead, still dead

I did my best to be lovable.

im so tired of being obsessed with people who dont care about me

i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

I'm sure being alive isn't supposed to be this painful

when the "i don’t need anyone anyway“ act wears off and all i want is for someone to hold me in their arms and tell me their biggest fear is losing me.

Who up feeling unlovable and useless

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

You ever feel grief for the person you could’ve been if none of this ever happened to you?

Constantly switching between healing and complete self destruction

Every time I let someone know me I regret it

Oh what an unlovable thing I've become.

Being with me is like torture I think

Just once, I want my absence to be felt.

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

I'm sorry if I'm difficult to deal with. I don't know how to deal with myself either.