mari

they’ll tell you “nothing lasts forever” and you want to believe its just a silly saying, but its reality, and it sucks so much. so so much

the constant sick and looming feeling of knowing you’re a bad person and nothing you can do will change that perception of you

the holidays always bring out a certain overstimulation and split in me that the people in my family do not appreciate

i just want to scream and cry until my throat goes raw and my vocal cords break

all we do is cycle, and yet i still haven’t left. can’t you see that

thank you for 200 followers ❤️

perhaps slamming my head into a block of concrete will fix me

i think i should just stop trusting people

why do i keep telling lies to myself, saying this one won’t be like the others. this one won’t leave. this will be different. its always the same

i want to start my life over

things are really, really bad again. can you tell?

when you feel like you’re starting to get better and suddenly the impending doom sets in again and you know the cycle is about to repeat

on a lighter note of this account, thank you for 100 followers and thank you for liking my posts. this account is my own little secret for my bpd rants and i didn’t think many people would take notice of it

i just want to stop feeling like a bad person for literally everything

doing bad again. fork found in kitchen

who up questioning why god let them be born with the knowledge that they’d be completely fucked up and mentally unwell