25. my relationship with my boyfriend whom I love and deeply wish to have by my side on my journey.
24. probably teal swan. like every year.
23. the breakfast pancake at benedicts.
22. not that much i’d say. less fancy cause i cba.
21. girl this gon be a load of shit but you got this and you gonna get through it.
20. not been easy on me. but in the end it’s all good.
19. hmmmm. not sure. not really :D
18. me getting into a relationship so quickly again. me quitting uni so fast. me getting sick so much in the end. me sitting at a table with a 20+ family on xmas eve. me getting closer to antonia again. which i’m so grateful for.
17. dancing. all time dancing. maybe ironing. i like it :D
16. i can have much more sex than i thought i could.
15. rediscovered antonia as a friend, lost maja as a friend, gained lenny as a friend.
14. probably israel. and edi, always. and praha, always.
13. literally only new movies i saw was star wars.
12. winging too many things and having to live with the consequences. scattering my energy and ending up with no results. not going for what i want. wanting to overachieve and failing my impossible standards i set for myself.
11. so many things... but right now i’m just grateful. and hopeful. looking up.
10. let’s see.. beginning of the year i cheated on my ex boyfriend with my ex lover, then broke up with my ex bf, lived the single life till november and now i’m happily committed to the most amazing human being and i couldn’t imagine anyone else i’d rather to be with. it’s so good.
8. i didnt read a single book lol (like every year)
7. i chose the wrong course at uni!! i need to go somewhere else, but working on it!!
6. lana‘s new album norman fucking rockwell
5. god this one’s hard... i’ll just pick the one i’m listening to now because it’s impossible for me to choose just one. it’s „hold on“ by matrix
4. i moved away from my hometown to berlin. i graduated from school and started studying at uni. stuff like that.
3. realizing one of my closest friends had lied to me on a regular basis and abandoned me. being sick so much. especially on new year’s eve. every fight i had. every time i felt lonely and miserable and disconnected from the rest of the world. throwing up in my bed in the middle of the night because i had too much wine.
2. looking at the stars in brandenburg. when my boyfriend told me he loves me. working at the coolest of places with lots of people. breaking a piece of wood with my bare hands. going to christophorusmarkt for the first time as an alumna. being in brain with all my favorite people (anna, antonia, lenny, lucie). every new step i learned. feeling safe. being really high. celebrating my birthday in prague and going ice skating. brammibals with millie. every second i spent driving and looking out the window at the landscapes changing. texting with sasha. getting my little lion tattoo. seeing my mom again when she visited. every night i spent partying to drum and bass. every other second i spent listening to it. every line i snorted. every puff i inhaled. every warm and cozy feeling and all the cold ones. life is divine. 2019 was a piece of shit. thank god it’s over. things are better now already. here’s to 2020. 💜❤️💙💖🤗
1. that i need to stop standing in my own way.
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