JJ’s_cupcake

The way the boy next to you puts his lips to his beer bottle. His blue eyes lit up. How he then puts it on his thigh and runs his hand through his blond hair as if it were a cat's fur. Is- He notices you, shit.

"What do you think of me?" You look away, embarrassed, at the dancing flames in front of you.

You hear him chuckle softly.

"Yeah, fine" Then you cast your gaze back to the can in your hands.

"Fine?" you hear him ask.

"Yes" It seems as if the warmth of the campfire suddenly becomes warmer.

A silence falls, you only hear the crackling of the fire.

"Okay and what would you say if we were alone?"

You try not to smile. "JJ, we're alone, the other Pogues just left" you conclude.

A small tickle forms in your stomach. You hear him laugh softly again.

“Yes, that’s why, you’re not telling the truth,” his voice follows.

You swallow, but it’s true.

You feel JJ looking at you as your throat becomes even drier. His eyes pierce you. He somehow knows everything about you, while you don’t even know him well.

You lift your head, his blue eyes are lit up in the orange light of the fire, he looks at you, still.

The can in your hands is getting colder by the second. His blond hair shines as if someone just sprayed glitter in it.

“What?” you questioningly pierce the silence.

Chuckling, JJ turns his head towards the campfire. “Nothing, you’re beautiful in the color of the fire”

Smiling, you feel your cheeks getting warm again. Your heart starts beating out of your chest.

You also turn your head towards the dancing flames. “Please stop,” you say, a little embarrassed.

He laughs softly again. “Are you blushing?”

You roll your eyes. “No,” you say, knowing that JJ has already seen it anyway.

“Let me take a look then” with those words you suddenly feel his breath on your cheek, two fingers under your chin follow.

Goosebumps rush over your body. Slowly he turns your head towards him. His blue eyes are close, very close.

He smiles, “You see, I was right”

JJ’s breath can be felt on your nose with every word. A small shiver is located on your spine as you stare into his eyes.

“Maybe” your eye contact becomes more intense. His fingers burn under your chin.

You start biting your lower lip and see how his eyes wander to it. He grins and pulls you closer by your chin.

“To get back to your first question, I don’t like you at all” you whisper teasingly.

His blue eyes sparkle under the dark starry sky. JJ’s face pulls into an even bigger grin.

“Well then I don’t like you either” he whispers.

A tingle shoots through you.

“I don’t like you, I love you”

He lets the last millimeters disappear between your lips. The crackling fire fades and it’s just JJ Maybank and you.

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Conflict

Part 2

JJ wants to grab his bike, which is lying on its side in the grass. “Jay, we’ll pick it up soon, your shoulder can’t do anything right now” Sarah says, rolling her eyes at you.

You chuckle softly, already knowing that JJ is stubborn. JJ puts his hands on his hips. “Sarah-“ He points his finger at her. “My bike is my-“ “Baby, yes we know, no one steals this” Sarah interrupts him.

JJ shakes his head. He takes off his cap after which he ruffles his hair and looks back at his bike. “We can at least take it with us” he tries again. Sarah sighs, “Fine, but don’t ride it” “Okay ma’am” he chuckles.

He lifts his bike, his arm muscles tense. With difficulty you look away from him. “So, where is the Chateau anyway?”

-

JJ leans his bike against the large tree in the middle of the garden of -apparently- the Chateau. You look around and smile.

“Thanks Sarah and..” JJ starts. You run your fingers over an engraving on the tree trunk. ‘John ​​B Routledge’ with a big heart around it. The wood feels rough on your fingers. You wonder if someone died.

“Yeah cool hm, we thought he was dead” you suddenly feel and hear JJ’s voice behind you. You freeze for a moment when you feel his warm breath on your neck.

“Dead? What do you mean?” you ask while trying not to turn around. “Police, bullshit, we’re Pogues. Sarah will explain it to you another time” he lists while you hear him scuffling through the grass with his foot.

You lean your hand on his motorcycle. “Sarah still has a lot to explain to me” you chuckle. You hear JJ laughing softly behind you. “As long as she’s not just talking about me” He steps next to you, his black boots coming into view. “I hope not, I’ve heard you enough already” you laugh.

You brush a strand of hair out of your face. JJ chuckles, you feel his presence doing something to you, his eyes seem to be looking right through you. Then you can’t help but look at him. Your cheeks warm up. He was already looking at you.

“Are you coming to the Chateau?” JJ studies your face after which you make eye contact. His blue eyes twinkle. “Sarah is already inside with the others, come y/n” He looks at you, grabs your arm and pulls you along. His hand is soft and rough at the same time that closes around your forearm. You smile at what kind of energy JJ has and let yourself be carried inside, to the others.

JJ introduces you to everyone with great energy. John B, -the one carved in the tree- Pope, Kiara and of course Sarah. They call themselves the Pogues and they hate the Kooks. With some explanation from JJ you know the differences between the two groups and you are made to doubt which one you belong to..

You also wonder why Sarah never told you this. But according to you she will not say that so quickly. JJ's painful shoulder is forgotten, you have the best conversations and the most fun with Pope and JJ. Kiara sometimes adds something or gives you a look that it is bragging. You can laugh about it.

"It's nine o'clock, should we go home?" Sarah says after a while. Still laughing from JJ's comment you nod at her. JJ looks at you again, it seems like he seems happier when he has made someone laugh again.

For example, his eyes look even bluer and his hair looks a little better. Or maybe it's just you.

"Meet tomorrow at the jetty here?" Kiara asks, standing up to walk with you to the door. "The weather will be nice, we'll probably go on a boat ride," she clarifies when she sees your frowning face.

You nod but suddenly realize something. "We have to go to school tomorrow, right?" you say as you stand up. JJ bursts out laughing. "A real Pogue doesn't stick to that." Leaning on his thighs, he looks at you with a playful grin and a sideways glance.

Because suddenly you're a Pogue according to JJ?

You smile, apparently.

Conflict

Part 1

Arm in arm, you walk through the harbor with your best friend Sarah. Sarah keeps talking and sometimes you take a sip of the smoothie you just bought. The sun is already a bit lower and the sky is bright blue with a cloud here and there. The wind blows softly through your hair.

While Sarah rattles on, your gaze slides over a few large boats. A man in a black suit has just come out of the wheelhouse. He raises his hand. You smile back and wonder why he is wearing a suit.

“Move over!” You suddenly hear a scream. Sarah is startled and backs away, your smoothie falls from your hands and splashes open on the ground. In one quick movement, you grab Sarah’s arm and pull her back. Sarah brushes a strand of hair from her face and laughs.

“Are you okay-“ You can’t even finish your sentence when a motorcycle tears past. You shoot to the side and turn around with a jerk. Now Sarah grabs your arm.

In a quick glimpse you saw someone with a red cap on backwards on his head sitting on that motorcycle. Sarah wants to shout at the person but suddenly stops.

“JJ?” Her voice is soft and a bit disbelieving. “JJ what the f*ck! Watch out!” The boy on the motorcycle looks back, then in front of him. He is startled and shoots to the side to avoid another motorcycle. But he loses his balance.

He screams, you see his shoulder scrape against his handlebars. He falls into the grass with a loud thud. You don’t hesitate anymore and start running towards him, even though you don’t even know him. Sarah apparently does.

“JJ!” Sarah’s voice can still be heard behind you, shocked. You fall to your knees in the grass in front of -apparently JJ-. He hasn’t moved yet. He is lying stretched out on the grass and his motorcycle is lying on its side, just below him. JJ is lucky.

You slowly remove his red cap from his face. With wide eyes you look at his face. His lip is torn and there is a bloodstain under his blond hairline. This can't just be from falling?

You're watching a little dazed when Sarah suddenly sits on the other side of JJ's head. She shakes his shoulder and taps his cheek. "JJ! Jay!" Suddenly his eyes open, his pupils are large and he shoots up.

“Wow Jay, calm down” Sarah grabs his arm. Her eyes fall on his shoulder. Then he makes contact with you. JJ's pupils slowly get smaller as he looks at you.

“And who are you?” You chuckle and nod to Sarah behind him. "Y/n, Sarah's friend, I didn't know Sarah knew you" you say while you secretly study him.

His blond hair is a mess.

“Y/n..” he mumbles.

Those blue eyes shine in the setting sunlight.

“Hey y/n, do you mind if we walk with Jay to the Chateau?” Sarah asks, pulling you out of your thoughts. “Uh yeah sure” you smile at her. You look at your hands, JJ's cap is still in your hands.

“Uh JJ, your cap” you say as you stand up. JJ raises his eyebrow, “Oh yeah” He chuckles and blows some hair out of his face. “Put it on my head” he teases. You roll your eyes, his eyes on the other hand, sparkle teasingly.

You put the cap on his head and turn him around. Then you brush some hair from his forehead and stand up.

“There, mister 'I can't do anything myself anymore' come on, we're going to the Chateau” Sarah says who has looked at his shoulder.

JJ stands up smirking. You chuckle too.

Forever Yours

Everyone hates an argument, especially if you can't really argue with that person. Because he always reacts so stupidly, that it never really seems like an argument. And usually it's about nothing..

"You could be a bit clearer" You turn around. You had just come back from Sarah, you had lunch there.

"Oh so just because I'm unclear, are you leaving again?" A mocking laugh follows.

You turn around again, look up at the boy in front of you. JJ's bright blue eyes looking at you.

Those bright blue eyes that always radiate love and peace.

Those bright blue eyes that you fell for.

Those bright blue eyes that sometimes stare at you with love.

"Yes, you got that right" You hold his eyes while you say this. JJ darts his eyes left and right at your eyes with that strange look.

You sigh softly.

You check if you have everything and turn back to the door. Three years, three years together already. At least, if it stays after this fight.

You bring your hand to the doorknob. It gets stuck, right above it. Your fingers are stuck and hanging in the air.

“Come on, get over it, he’ll never understand you” flashes through your head.

With a jerk you grab the doorknob.

“Are- are you really going?” A fragile voice can be heard behind you.

That voice you could listen to for hours.

That voice that had comforted you in the bad moments.

That voice that had said so many sweet nick names.

That voice that had always encouraged you.

Everything is in the past, right? Again it makes you doubt. Why is this so hard?

You slowly see your fingers slide off the doorknob.

You swallow. “No” Your soft whisper pierces the silence.

You turn around, there stands a smiling JJ.

That smile that always greeted you when you stood in front of his house again.

That smile that laughed when he noticed you staring at him.

That smile that smiled at you to show how proud he was of you, is.

Nothing is in the past.

“I don’t want to lose you” he says then, his blue eyes sparkling as if he is seeing you for the first time.

You let him do his thing and he wraps his arms tightly around you.

Those same arms that had put you to sleep.

Those same arms that had hugged you at times when things weren’t going so well.

You bury your head in his shirt and sniff his scent.

“I don't want to lose you either,” you whisper against his shirt. You feel him rest his chin on your head.

Everything reminds you of him. You smile, that makes him unique and yours.

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This Feeling

It's your mother's birthday, you're going outside to get some fresh air. But you really just want to go home. The party is still in full swing inside, the whole island is invited. You're a Kook, but you're more likely to be found on the Cut.

"Come on, I'll take you home." You prick up your ears. JJ has walked up behind you.

You lean your lower back against the fence. You look in his direction, irritated.

"There's no way I'm going to sit on that bike of yours." He chuckles. A small tingle shoots through you. You ignore it.

JJ also stands against the wooden fence. Behind you is his half-broken bike.

"Well, I don't want you to walk alone."

You frown and turn your head to him. "Why not?" You answer indignantly.

He turns his head too, his blue eyes come into contact with yours.

He smiles, "Because that's dangerous," he answers softly. You can’t get your eyes off his.

“Since when do you care about me?” His smile fades and he looks away to the ground. His blond hair starts to play in the evening breeze.

You see him swallow. “That’s something else”

You frown again, not really knowing how to respond to this. A small silence falls. You look at the blades of grass. They are a beautiful green for this time of year.

JJ next to you doesn’t move, only his breathing pierces the silence between you.

“But still, I won’t let you go home alone” You look up and bite your lip. You’ve never trusted this boy, but you’ve always had a soft spot for him.

He looks up too. A determined look in his bright blue eyes. He’s not going to let you go just like that, you know that now.

“Okay then” you agree after a few moments.

JJ’s face changes into a smile and he turns around. You take a step back. He puts his hands on the fence and he skillfully jumps over it.

You look at him a little surprised as he walks to his motorcycle. JJ turns around and grins, “Are you coming?”

-

A little irritated, you try to fasten the clip at the bottom of your helmet.

“Can you do it?” His blue eyes find yours behind the peak of his helmet. You shake your head. JJ chuckles and comes towards you.

You lower your hands. His fingers grab the clip, you feel them briefly against your chin, a warm feeling starts to flow through you.

After a few seconds, it is secured. He smiles briefly, then turns around.

JJ lets his engine roar dangerously for a moment, then he throws his leg over it. He turns his head and nods behind him. You nod quietly. You look at him for a moment, then you also throw your leg over the engine.

Not knowing where to put your hands, JJ clicks the kickstand in. We are still standing still.

“Leave them here.” He takes your hands and puts them around his own waist. You feel his warm body under your hands.

That warm feeling goes through you again as JJ lets go of your hands. You smile small. Then he takes his feet off the ground and starts driving.

-

The cars whizz past. You pull your arms a little tighter around JJ's waist. The warmth of his body against yours.

With your index finger you briefly trace his abdominal muscles on his stomach. He is leaning forward a little more.

You look at the sky, which is slowly turning orange. After a while you understand why he likes this so much.

The feeling of freedom in your stomach.

The wind that whistles around your ears, even with a helmet on.

When you suddenly go around a bend, we sink a little more to the ground. You are startled and hold on a little tighter. You slowly exhale when the bend is over.

You think JJ felt it. He slows down a little. Then he lets go of one hand. He brings it back and taps your thigh twice. You smile briefly and look at the orange sky.

The feeling of 'not to be trusted' has given way to 'he can be trusted' The strange tickling feeling flutters through you and the warm feeling is more present than ever.

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JUST COME HOME

Tears stream down your cheeks as you leave the Chateau in a panic attack. Your breathing quickens.

You run and run, you hear an engine roar. You don't turn around, don't stop running. Tears are still flowing.

Nothing interests you anymore. Even if you were to die.

Your heart is pounding in your ears, your legs feel heavy but don't stop running. Every second you feel like you could fall down.

But nothing interests you anymore. Even if you were to die.

Another engine, you look ahead, only you can't see much because of the tears that are taking their usual path again. You lick your lips, the salt penetrates your throat.

"Y/n!" Somewhere, in the distance. You don't stop running, whoever it is.

Nobody loves me anymore, nobody likes me.

"Y/n! It's me.." The engine pulls up next to you.

You run fast, much too fast. The blood rushes through your body and you pant, causing your throat to burn.

“JJ” You don’t know if you heard it right. Your heart is pounding in your ears and pounding out of your chest.

“Y/n, I love you, let me save you”

I love you.

I love you.

You slow down, your legs have become too heavy. In an instant, you collapse. Your knees burn, but you don’t care.

Even if you were to die.

You hear nothing, a piercing beep takes all sides of your head to the depths. Voices that rage between the beeps. They don't stop and you don't know what to do.

You grab your head. "Please stop" you whisper desperately while the tears still silently run down your cheeks.

"Y/n.." it's him again.

His voice makes the beep stop, but not the voices. They scream at the same time. That you have to get up and run again. Get away from here.

Two hands on your shoulders make you tense. You look up in panic. Straight into two sea-blue eyes. You want to tear yourself away, get away from here, get up.

But you do nothing, panic almost completely takes over your body. You're scared, scared when that's really going to happen.

"I'm here, calm down" You swallow, looking into those eyes, trying to calm down. You can't and those voices scream again.

You tear your hands away and let yourself get up with all the strength you have left. Panic is all over your body, until.

"Y/n, will you accept me?" Through all the voices, his voice stands out. Your knees burn from falling and you look up. JJ's sea-blue eyes are hooked into yours again, and for a moment you feel calm.

"Let me come to you" he whispers. You do nothing, silence.

Silence?

Yes, silence.

Finally, silence.

Because of... him.

JJ smiles small, he knows that most of the panic is gone. His hair stands wildly on end. A small smile also appears on your face.

"You're welcome cupcake" he says softly before he puts his arms around you.

“Just come home, I can’t live without you” his voice is soft, you feel his breath on your neck.

You don’t know if you heard this right, but what you do feel is his body heat against you. You turn your head against his shirt and chest. You finally feel loved.

A pair of strong arms around you from the sweetest person on earth.

“Yes” you answer his question in his shirt.

“Yes, I accept you and I can’t live without you either..”

Okay, you're struggling with this, so am I. I can totally relate to y/n. It's not fun. But if you're also thinking about suicide or hurting yourself. Other things with your family or friends, know that you're not alone. A living proposition; me. I'm not alone either, even though I forget that sometimes, and that's okay. You can ask me any questions you want. I just wanted to say this. I love you, no matter what. I'm proud of you.

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You're sitting here, not because you don't have anyone. You have a lot of people, but not people who really love you and care about you. Certainly not him.

"Hey" There you have it exactly.

A ball taps against the stone wall, it makes a hollow sound. You turn your upper body around.

Exactly the same blond hair and blue eyes that always look at you so stupidly. You roll your eyes and sit up again, on the cold stone steps.

"Everything okay?" JJ jumps over the wall next to you.

You bite your lip. That question seems so much worse than it is.

You shrug your shoulders, not saying anything yet.

You look at him, how he taps the ball up with his foot, his blond hair moving back and forth for a moment. Then he continues.

"So everything okay?" he repeats his question.

JJ is focused on the ball when he suddenly turns his head. You come into contact with his bright blue eyes.

You don't like him, but secretly this might be your weakness.

"Yes" comes out hoarsely. You immediately regret that you talked.

JJ starts walking towards you and sits down quietly next to you.

A part of you just wants him to go away. The other part says he secretly gives you the comfort you need. Which is really weird, because he always gave the impression that you two don't like each other.

Why did he seek you out then? You thought he didn't care what you did. Even if you died, he would just live on, without thinking about you, at least that's what you think.

"Maybe you find it annoying or weird that I'm sitting here next to you now- Uhm" JJ pulls you out of your questions and searches for the right words, while you might immediately know what he's talking about.

You look ahead at the water, it's windless, the sun makes a beautiful shine on it.

"But I'm worried" It falls silent. The words rush through your head.

No one, not even your parents, have ever worried about you. Usually you'll say right away that Jay doesn't have to worry about anything, maybe that's why your parents never asked, deep down you just wanted him to ask. And now you don't know what to say back here.

You sigh. Silence again.

"About you" he whispers then.

In the corner of your eye you see JJ nervously turning the ball around in his hands. About me.. Tears form in your eyes.

You don't want this at all, showing your emotions is not something you do easily. But as you said before; you have a soft spot for this boy.. and you can't ignore it.

"Hey, if you want me to go-" JJ has noticed your tears and is already standing up.

You shoot your head towards him. "C- can you stay?" you whisper brokenly. You bite your lip, "Please"

JJ smiles with his sweet smile and sits down next to you again, closer than before.

He drops the ball. You follow the ball with your eyes as it rolls further.

Why you said this you don't know. Why you did this you don't know either.

He might not want to stay at all and he'll tell everyone about it. Soon- Suddenly you feel an arm around you. JJ pulls you closer to him.

"What are you thinking about?"

Your thoughts stop abruptly and your head automatically rests on his chest. Goosebumps form on your arms as you feel the warmth of his body against yours.

You move closer without thinking. You feel JJ’s fingers gently twirl over your shoulder.

You swallow but smile, then lift your head, his bright blue eyes are closer than ever. You could drown in them.

The wind plays gently with his blond locks. JJ smiles too.

An escaped tear slides down your cheek anyway. His smile fades immediately and he grabs your jaw. Slowly and lovingly you feel him wipe the tear away with his thumb.

You smile again, while his hand remains resting on your cheek.

“Thank you”

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"We fight almost all the time! This, us, isn't working anymore!" you shout as you point between JJ and yourself.

You turn to the wardrobe and roughly pull it open.

JJ is standing behind you. His presence is strong.

You want to get away, away from this situation, away from this house, the sooner the better.

You can't stand him anymore, every second in his strong presence.

"I'm so.. tired of you!" you shout again in frustration as you pull a pile of clothes out of the closet.

You turn around, "You're arrogant, idiotic and so unbearable!"

And handsome.

You look into his eyes, those bright blue eyes that don't want to go anywhere.

"You love me" he grins.

Your blood starts to boil, you drop the pile of clothes and raise your hand to hit him. But he's too fast and grabs your wrist, before your hand had even caused anything.

“Cupcake” JJ says calmly, his blond hair standing wildly on end.

He brings your hand to his lips, looks at it for a moment and kisses your knuckles one by one.

You hold your breath.

“Are you tired?” JJ looks at me again. “Fine cupcake, take a nap then”

He pulls you against him by that same hand, you bump into his chest.

JJ’s other hand goes to your neck. He brings his lips to your ear, you feel his breath resting on your ear.

“Yell at me and hit me all you want, but you’re not leaving me”

Okay, so that last sentence: I’ve wanted to use is for so long.

Little short, let me know if its good!

“Listen”

JJ’s voice, you hear in a threatening tone.

You hear him trying to control himself while he wants to make something clear to his arch enemy, your ex, Rafe.

“Yeah what, listen? I know what you did! You neglected her!” Rafe briefly looks at you with his dark eyes before looking back at the boy in front of him.

His black hair is dancing in the wind. You swallow.

“I still love her, you don’t, you came into her life and neglected her, you don’t even bother” he continues bitterly.

They stand opposite each other. Rafe briefly rubs his hand over his face.

I see JJ clench his hands into fists to control himself. His knuckles slowly turn white.

“As if you do” He presses his lips together.

For a moment his blue eyes shoot to you. Rafe starts to grin, “Oh yes and I want her back” he hisses.

You swallow again and think back to your relationship; You try to find a moment when he was there for you. Nothing. Nothing at all.

“Oh yeah? Who helped her when she was at her lowest point?” The voice of the boy with the blond hair, shoots up for a moment.

Rafe’s facial expression changes but says nothing, he exchanges a look with you again.

“Me. And I can name more” JJ threatens again.

You feel a small smile coming up; all the moments when he helped you flash by again.

You see how he swallows and slowly relaxes his fists.

“If I was earlier I would at least have done it right"Rafe raises his voice and suddenly lashes out.

In a quick movement, JJ grabs his wrist before Rafe's hand even touched him.

You're startled, suddenly it hits you; the promise.. he'll break it soon.

"Do you promise, please?" "I promise cupcake" JJ whispers. His blue eyes look at you sweetly.

"Don't! We have a promise!" You try to say loudly. It doesn't work.

JJ, twists Rafe's wrist, Rafe's face contorts in pain.

You see how his chest tightens afterwards. He runs a hand through his blond hair and looks at the boy in front of him with his fiery blue eyes.

Then suddenly his eyes shoot to you. "I heard you" he says.

You can see that his blood is boiling, but he doesn't do anything.

You're a little surprised, but start to smile.

Then his blue eyes rest on him again, "You lost her"

Rafe looks from angry to confused. "Huh, heard what? I didn't lose her! What are you talking about? You don't deserve her! We're not done yet!" He raises his voice again.

He yanks his wrist away and goes on the defensive.

JJ takes a deep breath, then turns a quarter turn. He looks at you, he smiles for a moment, “You’re only alive because I promised her that”