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I’ve done similar things, I would get thoughts that I wasn’t sure of and I would sometimes actually do the same thing, I would move closer to check for whatever it was that I was worried about or I would walk by that person a bunch of times. Then I would feel awful thinking that in some way, I acted on my thoughts. Which isn’t true. It’s OCD mixing things around, confusing us, jumbling up our thoughts and feelings. Things that have no actual meaning or things that no one would even notice get turned into something awful. You are not a bad person for having bad thoughts. You will be okay

But what I will say is that, thoughts are thoughts, they don’t mean anything, you’re fixating on it but that will only make things worse. Someone without pocd wouldn’t have even given it a second thought.

Having doubt and guilt are what makes OCD, OCD. You also should recognize how this could be part of the obsession, intrusive thought, checking for attraction, uncertainty. I’ve had very similar experiences, you’re not alone anon. You will be okay

I’m sorry you’re experiencing this as well. It’s honestly awful. But remember that you will be okay.

I’m sorry hun, that sounds awful and I know this probably isn’t what you want to hear, but it’s honestly good that you’re being exposed to it. It may feel horrible but it’ll help in the long run and it will help you see how irrational the fear is.

I’m sorry for not answering for such a long time. When I first thought I had POCD I was horrified and felt awful. I read somewhere that people who think they have OCD, almost always have it (about 98% was the persons opinion). I hope you find (or found) the support you deserve. You are not horrible.

This is what OCD wants you to think, it wants you to be afraid of yourself and make you think that you’re bad a person when in reality, you are the complete opposite.

I read this on quora and I relate to it a lot. here is the link.

One thing I’ve been trying really hard to do is accept uncertainty, I tell myself “maybe it is true, oh well, it’s not that big of a deal” and it usually works, although sometimes it doesn’t and the anxiety spikes. that’s when I have to try to control the checking and other compulsions. I do recommend trying to accept uncertainty in sexual obsessions, because you can never be sure of anything, especially with OCD. OCD will not let you be certain of anything and you have to keep that in mind.

i hope you’re all doing well. I love you all, you will be okay :)

I’m really glad it helped you sweetheart! Asks like this mean so much to me and it brightens my day knowing that I can help. I hope you’re feeling and doing better! You will be okay!

Personally, I think it’s fine to be a fan of child characters and even actors. I can tell that you didn’t have any bad intentions when doing that and it’s not like you were sexualizing it or being in appropriate. I actually did something very similar in the past and when pocd kicked in it made me feel awful. you’re fine my dear, take a breather. I love you, you will be okay.