MeMyselfAndUs

It’s been awhile but we have finally made an update! 

You evee just message someone you haven't talk to in forever just so they ask you how you've been so it feels like someone actually cares?

Anyone else act like they are raising a magical castle from the ground whenever they stretch? No? Just me. Okay. 

-Kay

And he is just perfect in every way. Our family is just a tad chaotic but we’re making it work somehow. Even Kay is taking a hand in helping and Mar too! Who would have ever thought Mar would be one of the main people who would be helping out. It’s a big shock but a welcome one, nonetheless. 

We’ve done lost our minds. Now that the baby is due in less than two weeks, our mental state has all around plummeted. Anxiety is about as bad as it was when we first started to figure out how to cope with DID. Nothing we can do will lower it and just sitting here trying to gather ourselves is just making it worse. To those parents out there with mental health problems, you’re so strong! And to those who have mental health problems and want to start a family, get yourself settled first. Pregnancy is no joke and there are a lot of medication you just CAN’T take when pregnant. It’s important to know your plans and how you intend to self care because we didn’t and this pregnancy has been really rough on our psyche. It’s okay to want a family! Everyone should be allowed to have a family when they want one but make sure you add yourself to those plans. Kids change everything. 

But we haven’t a clue what to update with. We’re probably going to talk to our therapist about our mother issues today. So not looking forward to that one. It’s going to be hard to stay in the front seat for it especially since I have a few peeps who think we shouldn’t even have those people in our lives. We hate crying in front of people. Like HATE IT! And whenever we talk about how we just want our mother to love us and accept us for us, it always seems to bubble up and start the water works.  People say it’s okay to cry but yeah, no. That makes us vulnerable and we can’t afford to be vulnerable. 

So we had trouble sleeping before we got pregnant. Now that we’re 6 months pregnant, our body has decided to side with our mind and are double teaming us for lack of sleep. When we finally do get some sleep, it’s not deep sleep. Just a light slumber. It is the worst. 

-Klara

Been working on this for awhile now and just want to know what people think. 

There was a time when I was at Sea World with my family, cousins, aunts/uncles, everyone. We were like a group of twenty. I don’t remember it much but apparently we all went to a Hawaiian Luau that Sea World was hosting. My uncle was called up on stage to learn the dance and since it consisted of a lot of hip work, the women had their hands on his hips and were showing him the proper way to sway them. Well, little ole me was not happy about this. I turned to my Aunt and asked “You’re okay with them touching him that way?” My family got a huge laugh from it and it was probably the first time I’ve ever heard of Huntress, who is our prim and proper alter, doing anything before I knew of her. But it just screams something Huntress would tell the family at the sight of the dancers.  

-Jess

-Kay

So I’ve had this question on my mind for awhile now cause we took part in the group thing for awhile and it only seemed to exasperate our condition more so than if we were to go on with our lives like we had been before we figured out what the hell was going on with us.  The husband is a counselor and he does group therapy for those who suffer from different mental health problems and obviously, group therapy is a thing and (I guess) works? Just look at AA and different things like that. BUT this question really isn’t calling in the fact that those groups (Which are usually held under the guidance of a trained counselor) may or may not work. And maybe it’s just us or whatever. Anyways, we’re asking about groups on like reddit and facebook that have NO medical professional to guide them. They just seek advice from each other. Are these groups hurtful more than helpful? I know for sure they aren’t helpful for us, like at all. Shit, now I’m gonna have to look up and do all this research to find out the answer.  On the next episode of Dragon Ball Z! Does Kay find the answer he was looking for? Will someone else ever take him away from this blog? Why is he posting so MUCH?! Find out next on Dragon Ball Z!