Anywhere but Here

I do not know what is going on here, but it can really stop any time now.  First, I lost like 15 lbs for no apparent reason (like 2 years ago, in a gradual-ish way)--that was pretty awesome, because for once, I was at a decent weight and didn't utterly despise the way I looked.  Now, within the past 6-ish months, I seem to have randomly gained it all back (possibly more, I haven't weighed myself recently, but the important thing is that literally nothing fits me anymore except the new work clothes that I had to buy because nothing fit).  I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.  I'm not eating noticeably more, I'm not moving noticeably less, I haven't drastically changed my diet or anything.  WHAT DID I DO.  WHY.  I literally cannot figure this out, and it's making my life hell.  Can I just not have a body?  Can we just put my brain in a robot or something?  Because I am done.  I'm over it.  I'm over half of my closet not fitting me for no apparent reason.  OVER IT.  /end ranting