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Neurotraumatic means you have a traumatic origin that is linked to or caused by neurodivergence-related trauma. In my case, I was abused for years because people couldn't accept that I was autistic and different from the other kids growing up. I was diagnosed with OSDD (Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder) type 1b.

These are the alters who are ok with being online.

I want to make this clear. I'm not dismissing any system, Traumatic, neurotraumatic, mixed-origin, endo, willo, undiagnosed, properly diagnosed, etc. These are genuine questions that I think will help me better understand the way Willo alters/systems. I HATE SYSTEM DISCORSE.

So, we're a diagnosed neurotraumatic system. So our alters form in distressing situations. I understand the concept of Endos, as it's a possibility that their brains just were incapable of forming a full consciousness in childhood without trauma, because, as any true doctor will tell you, as humans, we don't fully grasp what the brain is or can do, mainly because it's far too complex and unique to each person to reliably study.

I do understand it's centered around the idea of Willing an alter into existence. Hence the term: Willo. So, here are my questions:

What does it feel like with an alter form?

Is it painful when an alter form?

Does it often go unnoticed, or just sometimes?

Are you aware they're there when they show up, or does it take time for them to reveal themselves?

How does the process work?

Do you just think of an alter, and it forms, or does it take time and/or effort?

Ok, I see the 'Minecraft player stereotypes' meme videos, and everyone has that 'plays multiplayer like single player' where the player never interacts with anyone online, mostly plays when others are offline, and generally just does their own thing thousands of blocks away from spawn to avoid running into other players.

That's me. But I have a reason. Growing up, I'd play on servers. Starting massive teams, and we'd build a giant tower where everyone on the team would get a room. Then, this one player would join our team, only to grief HOURS to DAYS of work and kill almost every player in the team because we were a peaceful team full of builders, miners, and redstoners that had no idea how to pvp.

Ok, so totally unrelated to my normal posts about our system, but I've been accepted into an indie animation studio, Collection Error Studios on YouTube. I've already animated two episodes. We're just waiting for feedback from the VAs on episode two, and it will be posted on the 14th!!! Here is Episode 1 if you want to watch it:

The series is called Color Code, and it's a YouTube Shorts series. It's about a ragtag group of kids looking for answers about their mysterious past and why they have no memory of their parents or where they come from!

The series was my idea. It's meant to be short episodes that fans can watch while the bigger projects are still in production, but it does actually have a plot. I'm not the type to read, watch, or animate series that are not plot-focused. I may make comics about our everyday experiences with OSDD, but that's mostly because mental health is a special interest for me, so I enjoy spreading awareness of our disorder. So expect an actual plot and twists in this series.

Here is some promotional art:

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