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I want to break my arms and never take a pencil again

I hate this

I spent my life on it

And got nothing

Just

But why?

Bc I hate drawing

I tried to took attention to myself with my drawings

I only improved technique, but everything still static, I can’t put something into drawing, only my time and energy and that have limit

it doesn't relax me, it turns into work

And I hate working, yes, I’m more interested in working with people than with pictures

hatred has grown and grown in me all these years and now I just can’t enjoy the process

anyone can draw like me if they works on it like me

i'm just...... disappointed in it

I have many friends irl who support and help me

I can’t cut myself while I working in hospital, study, talking with someone every day

but when I draw, I am left alone with my thoughts and it's terrible

I want to break my arms and never take a pencil again

I hate this

I spent my life on it

And got nothing

Just

But why?

Bc I hate drawing

I tried to took attention to myself with my drawings

I only improved technique, but everything still static, I can’t put something into drawing, only my time and energy and that have limit

it doesn't relax me, it turns into work

And I hate working, yes, I’m more interested in working with people than with pictures

hatred has grown and grown in me all these years and now I just can’t enjoy the process

anyone can draw like me if they works on it like me

i'm just...... disappointed in it