i have done ALL of my dirty dishes in the kitchen for the first time in weeks. now there are still some cups in my room and also i didnt dry and put it all away but are you guys proud of me

that all makes it sound like im feeling really bad which isnt even the case im a little relieved tbh

the thing with people telling you youre too hard on yourself is that the only way to be less strict is to be worse. which i dont want to be. which is why im so hard on myself. and also i feel awkward talking about it because it feels like im bragging, & then it’s really nice and convenient to just think that even though people are saying i should be nicer to myself they’re only getting part of the picture and actually i don’t try all that hard, i’m making it sound worse than it is, and to then disregard it until someone else says i should be less hard on myself

actually felt a connection between some things from my childhood and a current behavioral pattern im struggling with instead of just rationally figuring it probably has had some effect on me. pisses me off

ahh i like to think about our current mothership party soo much. noone gets along. my character despises two and dislikes the other one. noones goals are alligned at all. last session my character tried to get away from them only to run into them again a bit later and everyone groaned about it. its so beautiful, the worst people for the job 👍