Phoenix Moon

Feel the impact of a soul that writes to survive and to keep from losing its mind for good.

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I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

Sometimes, the heart feels like a barren branch, trembling in the cold. But did you know that deep within that silence, a garden is being drawn?

My book, Reliquary of the Soul, was written for the days when the sky is gray and the hands tremble. It is an invitation to see the beauty in the cracks and the strength in the waiting.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

God, to me, smells like wet earth.

Like soil after the rain, when the world seems to sigh in relief and everything goes silent for a second, as if even time paused to give thanks.

God, to me, does not live in the sky. He lives in the space between wind and skin. In that shiver without explanation. In the first sip of hot coffee on a morning when no one asks anything of you. In the hug that arrives at the exact moment and unties a knot you no longer remember when it first began.

Do you feel this too? Or were you taught that God only listens to those who speak loudly, who kneel, following a memorized script?

God is not an old man sitting on a throne, counting mistakes with a judging face. God is the invisible breath that makes the leaf fall exactly when it needs to fall. He is the sun that insists even when the world forgets to be grateful. He is the music that doesn’t play on the radio, but that the heart recognizes even with eyes closed.

And the devil? The devil has no horns. He has a badge. He is the ego dressed in a suit. The hollow shine of power. The laugh that needs to step on someone to feel tall. He is the hurry that runs over the gaze, the greed that calls emptiness success, the ambition that trades people for numbers.

The human being was born good. Like sweet fruit. But fear, abandonment, and neglect rot even what was pure.

Hatred, indifference, pride are not mythological monsters. They are symptoms. They are fevers of souls that forgot the simple taste of love.

If television showed births instead of only tragedies, helping hands instead of accusing fingers, maybe the collective heart would remember its own rhythm.

But they taught man to compete, not to cooperate. They taught that winning is climbing alone, not walking together. They taught that success is arriving first, not arriving whole.

And so they created hell right here. On a planet that could be paradise. I don’t wait for a savior descending from the sky with a cape and a promise. The savior is us when we choose not to wound. When we stop profiting from another’s pain. When we rescue the gaze of a child and the tenderness of a flower that blooms in cracked asphalt.

Have you noticed how small gestures save entire days? A glass of water. A sincere good morning. An unhurried listening.

God, to me, is the sum of all good gestures done in silence.

He is the laughter of those who love without an audience. He is the calm of those who forgive without announcement. He is the rare moment when time slows down just to hear the wind pass by. And when I think of hell, I don’t imagine fire. I imagine indifference.

I imagine people living on autopilot, looking without seeing, feeling without touching, finding it normal to pass by someone who fell without even slowing their step.

But there are still those who feel. There are still those who look at the sky and cry without knowing why. There are still those who are moved by the smell of rain, by a child’s laughter, by a simple act of kindness.

These are the souls that keep the Earth alive. Small, stubborn sparks that refuse to let love die.

And maybe this is the divine: not a distant promise, not an abstract later, but the possibility of now.

The chance to rebuild paradise every time someone chooses to be human.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

You cried.

You cried like someone who lost herself. Like someone who bet everything… and came back empty-handed.

Like someone who believed in promises that only existed inside her own faith.

You swore you couldn’t do it without him. Swore you needed him. Swore it was him… or the end.

And the end came without warning, without honor, without explanation.

And then… the silence.

That pause that feels like punishment, but was really the universe saying: “Now it’s on you.”

It was there, on the floor.

Between emotional crumbs and sleepless dawns.

Between sentences that never came back and messages never read.

Between prayers that sounded like muted screams and deep breaths trying to convince your chest that it was still possible to go on.

It was there… that you began to return.

Not to him. But to yourself.

You returned to your strength. To your word. To your mission.

You returned to what burns inside you from before love ever existed with a name and a face.

And then… something changed.

The weight became wings. Waiting became a path. Longing became a respected silence.

And love… became a bonus.

Now, you no longer need.

You no longer feel emotional hunger. You don’t kneel for affection. You don’t shrink for warmth.

Because now, you are enough.

With everything.

With your outbursts. With your doubts. With your exaggerated intensity.

With your moon phases, your no’s, your boundaries, and your freedom.

Now, love is no longer an anchor. It’s a gift.

Now love has finally become:

“If it comes, let it add, not save.” “I want you, but I don’t beg.” “I can leave at any moment, because now… I have a home within me.”

You didn’t become cold. You became conscious.

You learned to love with both feet on the ground, but with a heart still able to feel like someone who prays.

You became whole.

And now, anyone who wants to stand beside you will have to know how to deal with this:

You found yourself again. And you no longer accept losing yourself ever again.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

We were not born to be spreadsheets. Nor well-behaved cells. Nor colorful charts in PowerPoint presentations.

We were not born to fit into straight lines.

We were born verbs. Questions without ready-made answers. Wonder that smells like a world soaked after the rain.

But somewhere along the way they replaced the pencil with a stamp, curiosity with silence, the sparkle in the eyes with “sit up straight.”

Art became a distraction. Poetry became a waste of time. And everything that didn’t fall on the test stopped falling into life.

School could have been a studio. It could have been a circle on the floor, hands stained with paint, books read out loud like lighting a fire.

But it became a factory.

A siren instead of a bell. A line instead of an embrace. A grade instead of meaning. Did you feel it too? That knot in your stomach on exam day, not from curiosity, but from fear of being wrong?

How many times did you know the answer and still doubted yourself because someone said there is only one right way to think?

Meanwhile, children are learning far too early that the world doesn’t fit inside them. That dreaming is extravagance. That thinking is exhausting. That feeling too much is a manufacturing defect.

There are young people who have never touched a book the way they touch a selfie. Who have never heard a poem the way one hears their own name being called from afar.

They were never invited to ask why. Only: how much is it worth? How much does it earn? How much does it yield? How much does it cost to be who you are?

And so numbers were formed. ID numbers. Registrations. Passwords. Logins.

Whole people reduced to spectators of their own lives, watching influencers who influence emptiness, celebrities who shine fast like a match struck in the dark and go out before they even warm anything.

They say living is numbing the discomfort. Drinking to forget. Smoking not to think. Revving the engine loud so you don’t hear the silence screaming inside.

They say pleasure is carelessness dressed up as freedom, and destiny is everything no one had the courage to plan responsibly.

But who taught the real weight of bringing a life into the world? Who taught that a child is not an accident, but a project of the soul?

The education we dream of would do the opposite.

It would defend art the way one defends air when it runs out. Introspection, like building shelter in the middle of a storm. Philosophy, like handing over a compass in the middle of chaos.

It would teach that thinking hurts, but not thinking hurts more and lasts longer. That questioning is not defiance, it is emotional maturity. That sensitivity is not weakness, it is undomesticated depth.

It would be an education that forms human beings before forming labor. That teaches how to read Machado de Assis and Clarice Lispector and also how to read life. To interpret a poem and recognize injustice without needing subtitles.

An education that shows the world is not just a display window. It is responsibility.

That life is not merely existing and breathing. It is understanding why we breathe.

Forming thinking souls is possible. But it demands courage. It demands breaking with haste. It demands accepting silence where today there is only noise.

Because when education becomes mere training, society becomes mere noise. And when art disappears, barbarism learns to speak loudly and many people applaud, thinking it’s progress.

There is still time. As long as there is a restless child, an uncomfortable young person, an adult willing to relearn and unlearn along the way.

Education does not need to manufacture geniuses. It needs to protect sensitivity before it is crushed, ridiculed, controlled.

Teaching someone to think is the most revolutionary act that exists.

And true revolutions do not make noise. They do not ask for likes. They do not go viral in fifteen seconds.

They do not follow the trend of the week.

They fall silent. They think. They feel. They create. They question. They confront.

And they keep creating, even when the entire world insists on calling this utopia.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

Everyone made God in their own image. Some dressed Him as a judge. Others as a sin accountant. Others as the CEO of heaven, with a moral spreadsheet, holiness targets, and an eternal threat in the footer.

Everyone invented their favorite hell. With theatrical fire, scenic brimstone, and a cartoonish devil that looks like it escaped a children’s drawing.

But forgive my bluntness lately I no longer have the time or the emotional luxury to fear an allegorical hell.

Hell, to me, is not after death.

It’s before coffee.

Hell is waking up as a woman in a country that teaches you early on to walk with keys between your fingers and fear lodged in your spine. Hell is living in Brazil and realizing that life itself has become a luxury item. That your paycheck evaporates before the tenth. That the grocery cart turns into a contemporary art exhibit where social inequality reigns.

Hell is listening to pretty speeches while the Ministry of Finance taxes everything. Hell is being poor in a system that calls you lazy while squeezing you to the bone in exchange for a badge and a transportation voucher.

Hell is being a salaried worker with a narcissistic boss, emotionally illiterate, spiritually shallow, leading like someone stepping on an anthill and calling it management. Hell is surviving the workday and still having to smile at gossip, at falseness, at the corporate theater where everyone pretends maturity while competing for crumbs.

Hell is a church that promises heaven but polices your body, your clothes, your desire, even your silence. Hell is discovering that God became a gated community and the doorman is a fellow believer judging whether even your fart is pure enough to let you in. Hell is wanting a dignified life and discovering that everything has a price and that lacking money is the original sin of the 21st century.

So no, a hell after death does not scare me.

What scares me is how this one gets normalized.

Calling it “adult life.” Calling it “choice.” Calling it “merit” and “resilience.” If this is the world of the saved, I’m sorry but something went terribly wrong in the interpretation of the sacred text.

Because if God is love, hell cannot be fire.

Hell is the absence of dignity.

It is living hunted. Exploited. Guilty. Silent.

And if questioning all of this condemns me, so be it.

Because if this isn’t hell, then explain to me why so many people walk around dead inside and call it normal.

Explain why you also feel that tightness in your chest when the alarm clock rings. Why you laugh on autopilot. Why you say “I’m fine” while something inside you begs for air.

Explain why you call maturity what is really just well-disguised surrender.

Why you call faith what teaches you to accept injustice in the name of a heaven that never arrives.

Look at your life. Without metaphor. Without promise. Without anesthesia.

Is this living or just surviving on dignity paid in installments?

And now that you’ve seen it, don’t say you didn’t know.

Because the real hell is not being condemned after death.

The real hell is dying inside while still standing, and no one noticing because you still smile on cue, pay your bills, deliver your targets, scroll your feed, post the motivational selfie, and keep being a functional zombie.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

She fell in love before the man even existed. She fell for the sketch of who he could be. She fell for the almost. She fell for the “if he wanted to, it could work.”

She saw fertile ground where there was only hardened soil. She saw a tree where there was only a seed. She saw an ocean where there was only a puddle.

And still, she stayed.

She stayed waiting for him to grow. She stayed watering with patience. She stayed offering silence, arms, understanding like someone lighting candles for a miracle. She loved the man he could become if he ever stopped running from himself.

She loved the man who would read books, who would face his own shadow, who would keep his word, who wouldn’t confuse freedom with irresponsibility or trauma with personality.

She loved him in the future. While he lived in the shallow end.

In everyday life, she waited for messages that never came, decisions that were always postponed, actions that died in “we’ll see later.”

She waited for him to choose. To have courage. To have emotional backbone.

Meanwhile, he chose what was comfortable: the same bar, the same excuses, the same rehearsed speech of a confused man who wants to lose nothing neither her, nor his mediocrity.

She defended him in silence. “He just needs time.” “He’s afraid.” “He’s like this because he suffered.”

As if pain were a free pass to stagnation. As if love were an endless probation period. She prayed for him. Rooted for him. Visualized better versions of him like someone building an altar for someone who never shows up.

Until one day, between a cold coffee and an ignored message, she understood.

Not with anger. But with clarity.

She understood that he wasn’t a man in progress. He was a man far too comfortable to change.

That it wasn’t a lack of ability. It was a choice. He chose not to go deeper. Not to heal. Not to grow. Not to love at the required depth.

He chose shallowness because depth demands responsibility.

And then she realized she was alone in an imaginary relationship, loving someone who existed only in the territory of potential.

That was when something broke not her heart, but the spell.

She understood that love is not a project. That a woman is not an incubator for someone else’s maturity. That no one blooms unless they choose to leave their own comfort zone.

And with the same tenderness with which she once believed, she withdrew.

Not for lack of love for him, but for an excess of love for herself.

Because loving a man’s potential is dying while waiting for him to choose to be the man he never wanted to be.

And at last, she chose herself.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

You have met evil up close. You’ve looked cruelty in the eyes and survived.

You carried the weight of words that cut, gestures that wound, and silences that hurt more than screams.

And yet… you still believe in love.

Because you have Anne Frank’s soul. Beaten by the world, but unwilling to stop believing in the goodness hidden behind distracted humanity.

You were touched by human cruelty… but you were also held by angels disguised as ordinary people.

And that’s why, even wounded, you insist on being light. Even exhausted, you still choose to be shelter.

Even disillusioned, you still write. Still love. Still feel. Still heal.

While the world tries to silence you, you scream but not with hate.

With truth. With memory. With a strength born from the depth of the pain that shaped you.

You write. You cry out. You set free.

For yourself. And for every soul still crying in silence.

Because your voice the one that once only knew how to ask for help has now learned how to liberate.

You became what you once searched for so desperately: shelter. truth. resistance with tenderness.

And maybe the world will never understand how it’s still possible to have faith… after everything.

But you understand. Because it was at the bottom of the abyss that you met God.

And that’s why, even broken, you still extend your hand.

Even disbelieved, you still believe.

Even tired, you are still home.

And even when the world collapses, you rebuild yourself in silence, with hands stained by pain and a heart cleansed of resentment.

Because at last you learned that still believing in love is allowing yourself to be that love within you.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

It’s not enough to kneel if your character still stands crooked.

It’s not enough to bend the body if your conscience remains upright in injustice. It’s not enough to repeat verses with a well-trained mouth if daily practice is a living denial of love.

What good is water on the forehead if the soul stays filthy with indifference? What good is calling God by name if your neighbor is treated like a nuisance?

There is a comforting myth, the kind that warms guilt and softens responsibility: that attending temples, wearing spirituality, accepting a sacred label is enough to save a society.

It isn’t. Just look around. Open the newspaper. Cross the street.

The system failed. But not for lack of faith. It failed for lack of character.

Because faith without ethics becomes a moral license. Religion without responsibility becomes anesthesia. Spirituality without action becomes perfumed vanity it smells nice, but cleans nothing.

How many hands raised in worship are the same ones that exploit, humiliate, silence? How many fervent prayers end in tax evasion, neglect, abuse of power?

What transforms a society is not the promise of heaven. It’s a sense of shame.

It’s giving the correct change when no one is watching. It’s not stepping on others just because you can. It’s not calling cruelty an “opinion,” nor selfishness an “individual right.”

Doing what is right not out of fear of hell, nor bargaining with paradise, but out of human duty. Civilizational. Moral.

No citizen has the right to cause pain. None. Not in the name of God. Not of politics. Not of profit. Not of tradition.

Physical pain. Mental pain. Emotional pain. Financial pain. Spiritual pain.

All violence including the silent, institutional, normalized kind is collective failure.

Have you noticed how we’ve learned to live with the unacceptable? How we call exploitation “the market”? How we call illness “routine”? How we call emotional misery “adult life”?

We need a society where law is not a suggestion, but a pact. Where justice is not spectacle, but daily practice. Where equality is not a slogan, but a concrete structure.

A society where no one has to survive, because everyone can live in peace and dignity.

Where children grow up with books in their backpacks, food on their plates, and affection in their arms. Where young people learn to think before they learn to repeat. Where adults don’t have to swallow pills just to endure their own existence.

Where work doesn’t mean getting sick. Where existing is not a burden. Where aging doesn’t mean being discarded.

But what do we see when we leave everything in the hands of a system rooted in indifference?

We see politics that serves itself. Media that profits from chaos. Companies that drain people to the bone and call it productivity. Education that shapes numbers, not consciences. Healthcare that treats symptoms, not causes. Security that arrives after the funeral.

We see an exhausted collective thinking it’s normal to live tired. Normal to work only to pay bills. Normal to need alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs to tolerate one’s own life.

This is not normal. This is romanticized collapse.

Enough of impunity disguised as tolerance. Enough of survival sold as virtue. Enough of calling brutality “the way of the world.”

We need to romanticize something else.

Respect. Empathy. Fair and firm laws. Real consequences for those who cause harm. Dignity as a basic right.

This is not authoritarianism. It’s collective care.

Because freedom without responsibility becomes authorized violence. And love without limits becomes an excuse for abuse.

Politics, media, education, healthcare, security, entertainment, corporations they do not exist to dominate people. They exist to serve them.

The highest good is not profit. It is a dignified life. For all living beings.

We were not made to get sick together in organized silence. We were made to evolve.

And maybe the sacred was never what we say about God, but what we do with one another when no one is watching.

That that could save a society.

Everything else is empty ritual, pretty noise, performative faith trying to hide a moral abyss.

Maybe the sacred isn’t in what we say about God, but in what we do when no one is watching.

***If this kind of writing speaks to you reflection, raw honesty, confessions of a tired soul that writes to survive, not to lose its voice to madness then I invite you to know and support my independent work.

I’ve written two eBooks, published on Kindle and Amazon, and maybe, just maybe they’ll make sense to you, too.

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