Let Me Scream For You

Pain levels have been through the roof today. Nothing is helping. Smoking isn't even touching it. I'm hoping it's just this storm that's been passing through all day, but fuck it feels like more spinal damage, and I'm just not in the mood for more pain in a new area 🫩

Oh right 🤦 I forgot, it's me. I'm the problem. I was the one asking too much. Fuck, I forget how easily I was the monster for asking for something so godsdamned simple. But no. You couldn't be bothered. You didn't want to change. You fucking told me as much. Told me I was too much, time and time again. You showed me that my attention wasn't enough. No fucking wonder. You never cared. It was a relationship of convenience for you. I was just too naive and stupid to see it. Walking away was apparently the best choice I had. Staying with someone who feels no emotional connection with you isn't healthy. It's beyond fucked up. Thank you for showing me that choosing myself and walking away was the right choice. I gave you everything and for four years you kept me behind closed doors to better your online social persona.