PetrolPeanut

tagged by @macksangel

• last song: any man - suki waterhouse

• currently watching: rewatching shameless for the 10000th time

• current obsession: suki waterhouse and lorde!

• currently reading: it’s kind of a funny story (literally what it’s called)

• currently working on: trying to get into cosmetology school

• last google search: song lyrics to any man by suki waterhouse lolll

• favourite flower: blue stargazer lily’s ofc, my name is Lily!!

• last song: hot wet delirious-rebecca black

• currently watching: search party

• current obsession: astrology

• currently reading: the guest-emma cline / emma-jane austen

• currently working on: learning astrologyy

• last google search: fifa

• favourite flower: rosesss and idc if its basic

no pressure tags @maithaofthezora @babydoll-painkillerballerina @girlrottinginmyroomallday @girl-so-online @lizzygrantakaldr

Last song: 7 weeks & 3 days - yungatita

Currently watching: heartbreak high/love island

Current obsession: Quantum mechanics/physics

Currently reading: The bell jar - Sylvia Plath & If he had been with me - Laura Nowlin

Currently working on: Advanced arithmetic and learning quantum mechanics

Last google search: Fifa World Cup

Favorite flower: Spider lily’s

• last song: any man - suki waterhouse

• currently watching: sex and the city & outlander

• current obsession: newsies cos it's literally all im doing

• currently reading: eileen - ottessa moshfegh & the woman in me - britney spears

• currently working on: the school musical still guys im gonna cry

• last google search: youtube

• favourite flower: orchids

last song: famous - isabel larosa

currently watching: nothing

current obsession: iced coffee, iced tea, freeze pops n lana del rey unreleased

currently reading: nothing

currently working on: nothing

last google search: angel number test

favorite flowers: orchids

last song: love by the sundays

currently watching: a lot of youtube !! i need to stop

current obsession: cute lingerie

currently reading: industrial society and its future by teddy 🧸

currently working on: getting my life together lolz

last google search: (an actress') height

favorite flowers: peonies!!

last song: TONIGHT by me :3

currently watching: Akame Ga Kill (AGAIN)

current obsession: my gf. what else would it be?

currently reading: whatever yuri i can atp (trying to stop but its hard, yk?)

currently working on: my next album

last google search: nail gun (for a woodworking project i swear..)

favourite flower: lily of the valley

people i wanna get to know more:

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Last song: MADWOMAN by Laufey!!

Currently watching: Code Geass

Current obsession: idk..〜⁠(⁠꒪⁠꒳⁠꒪⁠)⁠〜

Currently reading: Litchi Hikari club!!

Currently working on: a super secret project SHHSHSHHS

Last google search: Centipede

Favorite flower: I LOVE ALL FLOWERS

“There are hundreds, if not thousands of flowers in the world. Comparing a Peony to a Bellflower is pointless. Who has the right to judge which is more beautiful?" Hehe..

Also I don’t know how to do the dot and I’m not copying each text uh bye

AH AND I FORGOT THE TAGS UM hold on

• last song: listening to Diasomnia dlrm somg rn

• currently watching: idk haikyuu maybe i love mu cofmoet show

current obsession: emu papercrafts and painting nature pins i think is very me w acyrilic paint

currently working on: on a bsd oc/persona🤫🤫🤫

last google search: font

favourite flower: idk i love eveey flower but i love higambanas

Last song: Magia by Kalafina (ending theme to Madoka Magica)

Currently watching: Madoka with my dad and PreCure by myself!

Current obsession: PMMM? No, couldn’t possibly be…

Currently working on: moving rooms so I can be more active as a vocaloP again!

Last google search: Gakusha

Favorite flower: idk either but i love cherry flowers. When the white petals fall in the spring =w=

Last song: Strawberry~☆ by Yuugou-p

Currently watching: Twin Peaks w the parents and Witch Hat Atelier with the grandma

Current obsession: Aitsf!

Currently reading: Ranma 1/2

Currently working on: Artfight.......

Last google search: Zatsune Miku

Favorite flower: Spiranthes and Sunflowers!

Currently watching: I think the majority of my fanart at the moment makes my current rewatching habits pretty obvious XD

Current obsession: hmmmm I wonder what 🤠 (*cough* The Owl House)

Currently reading: No specific book at the moment

Currently working on: Friend gifts and career stuff

Last google search: biggest mushroom ever

Favorite flower: Can't choose :P

Last Song: Room for a Fantasy by nostraightanswer, Hatsune Miku

Currently Watching: MANY MANY THINGS- haikyuu! Season 2, the summer hikaru died, re:zero, madoka magica... and other stuff that idk if ill continue

Current Obsession: definitely project sekai, though my username is very correct so idk things change veryyyy quickly

Currently Reading: Democracy in America, The Ranger's Apprentice: The Sorcerer of the North, Throne of Glass: Queen of Shadows, and 'Tis

Currently Working On: Artfight, Portfolio, College prep stuff, Webtoon 😭😭😭

Last Google Search: chimera

Favorite Flower: nothing in particular comes to mind, but very vibrant flowers i always like

Last song: Serendipity- HoloEN

Currently watching: The ancient Magus Bride, Tye detective is already dead, GANGSTA, Gintama, In/Spectre, The Tatami Galaxy, Kyousougiga, and much much more

Current obsession: Definitely HoloLive, I fell victim to the Vtuber rabbit hole 😭

Currently reading: Strike the Blood, I can’t defy the Lonely Girl, Fullmetal Alchemist, Akane Banashi, The Summer You Were There, Whoever steals this book, may as well toss in a chapter book bc why not? Catcher in the Rye, a good old school classic

Currently working on: Rudo riding a shark with a machine gun

Last Google search: Ma’Sca’Piece

Favorite flower: Tough choice, I can’t give a definitive answer to this one

The more I think about Kana's scandal arc .... the more convinced I become that it's not only one of the weakest arcs in Oshi no Ko, but also one of the most IRRESPONSIBLE (yeah, you read that right) examples of Aka Akasaka trying to tackle a sensitive subject for the sake of cheap drama. AND without having any idea what to do with it afterward. Honestly, it feels like he wanted the shock value of a story about predatory directors exploiting actresses without committing to exploring what that ACTUALLY MEANS.

Like ... bro, this isn't some random issue. This is something that happens to people who are genuinely trapped. Women with debts, abusive families, agencies pressuring them, relatives to support, or no safety net whatsoever. People who feel cornered into believing they have NO CHOICE. Kana is none of those things.

She's financially okay. She has friends. Nobody is forcing her into anything. Nobody is threatening her. SHE HAS OPTIONS.

So right from the beginning, I already have trouble taking this plotline seriously because it feels like the story itself doesn't understand WHY these kinds of situations happen in real life. And that's what really gets me.

Because let's face the facts, all right? Kana's whole downward spiral comes down to one thing: Aqua chose Akane and started pulling away from her. That's it. And every time I see people say, "Well, Aqua was her first friend and her biggest support, so of course she'd fall apart," I'm just sitting there like... guys, Mem-cho exists. Miyako (an adult) exists. B-Komachi exists.

Kana has people who care about her, even Ruby during her dark era. It's not like Aqua was literally the only person in her life. HE WASN´T. So yeah, Kana wasn't heartbroken because she lost her only/first friend. She was heartbroken because the romantic fantasy where Aqua broke up with Akane and chose her instead simply ... didn't happen. And okay, that's fine. She's human, and yeah, rejection hurts. But when THAT is the emotional foundation beneath a storyline involving SEXUAL EXPLOTATION in the entertainment industry, I can't help thinking ... "Really? THIS is the setup we're going with?"

Because the scale of the emotions and the scale of the subject matter just don't match. AT ALL.

And then we get to what honestly bothers me the most: Kana's decision to go back to acting doesn't even come from some realization that acting was always her true passion, or that maybe becoming an idol just because Aqua asked her wasn't healthy. Nope, her motivations are basically, "Aqua isn't looking at me anymore" and "Ruby is getting all the attention now." That's what drives her toward meeting director Shima.

And I'm sorry, but doesn't that sound completely ridiculous when we think about what kind of topic this arc is supposed to tackle? It's like the story accidentally says, "Women having a bad time because their crush stopped noticing them and somebody else became more popular? Obviously they'll go sleep with powerful directors!" Which is INSANE.

That's not how exploitation works. Real victims aren't pushed into those situations because they aren't the center of attention anymore. They're pushed into those situations because they're desperate, trapped, AND AGAIN, feel like they have no choice.

And don't even get me started on how Aka Akasaka handles the aftermath. Because Kana fans always talk about Kana like she almost experienced this life-changing traumatic event, but does the story itself TREAT IT that way? Not even remotely.

In the manga, Kana knowingly goes to meet Shima. The anime later softened things with Mako ditching her and leaving her alone with the director, but originally Kana knew what she was doing. And after Shima nearly takes advantage of her, what happens?

Does she become fearful? Or have nightmares? Does she even struggle emotionally? Nope. She spends the whole night chatting with the guy until sunrise and complaining about Aqua.

Then she walks out, and the story moves on like nothing happened. Meanwhile, Aqua's scars from his traumatic experience were evident throughout the entire series. Ruby's scars from her traumatic experience were ALSO evident throughout the entire series. Even Akane's in a more subtle way, when she expressed concern for Kana's well-being at the thought of a rumor ruining her career as an idol. But Kana? Aka doesn't even bother showing any lasting effects because honestly? I don't think he ever intended the incident to be treated as traumatic. It was just drama.

That's why people downplay it. Because the author himself downplays it.

And then the payoff is so bizarre that I still don't know what I was supposed to take away from it: Shima almost takes advantage of Kana, and his reward is... giving her a role.

And not just any role, but a girl obsessed with a man while dressed in a maid apron.

That's the conclusion? Seriously? No commentary on abuse, no criticism of the system, no closure, NOTHING.

And the craziest part is that this whole arc doesn't even matter that much to the story. Aqua was already planning to expose Ai's secret because he needed it for the movie. Saving Kana's career wasn't the objective. It was just killing two birds with one stone. So the scandal arc doesn't really push the plot forward. And somehow, despite being Kana's biggest solo arc, it doesn't even push her character forward either.

Because at the end of the day, what did Kana actually learn? Her fans always say she stopped relying on Aqua and became independent, but... DID SHE? Aqua saves her again. Her own plan was basically, "Well, I guess I'll just accept the scandal and hope B-Komachi survives somehow."

The fact is that Kana remains passive while someone else fixes the problem. And then, just when people are celebrating all this supposed development, the last few chapters of the manga hit the reset button and have her say that she wants to become Aqua's favorite idol and the only girl he'll look at.

I remember reading that and thinking, "Aren't we back to chapter one?" Because that doesn't sound like someone who's grown out of her emotional dependence. More like someone whose entire sense of fulfillment is still centered around being acknowledged by the same guy. Which is why I genuinely feel like the scandal arc says less about Kana and more about Aka Akasaka not really knowing what to do with her. It feels like he kept throwing bigger and bigger dramatic situations at her and hoping we would confuse suffering with character development, and honestly? It didn´t even work.